Erilaya's Journey

[Erilaya]

Well now.. Today as leg day.. gonna have to do it this evening.. after the kiddos hit bed..

Looking for a puppy to be a companion to my dog who had a vet appt this morning.. put on 15 lbs .. since last appt and since his amputation 25 lbs total! damn! a golden lab at 135 lbs! sheesh.. so we are looking for a choco lab or golden lab or Golden retriever pup to be a life companion for him to help him be more INTO life..

My Nutrition.. FRIG! suxed today.. I had a protien shake.2scoops egg n whey. with skim milk .
2 tsp of flax oil ( nasty!)

then all I had was a piece of WWbread w/tblspn of NPB

and lots o water..

that is it and it is almost 4 p.m here.. what to do what to do.. I am gonna be starving tonight but I don't wanna eat the bad stuff and night is my worst time to give in!!! and I am supposed to go the movies I am taking celery and carrot sticks with me so that should help.

I think I will make a protien shake with water and some more flax though before I go out.. considering I will have NO time between now and then to cook a meal.. sigh.


TODAY IS TOO RUSHED!just need 3 more hours in it..27 hour day.. I could get it all in then.

Eri'

 

[Burner02]

hey, my food is sucking today too. Inthink I'm fighting off a cold, and am just not hungy...much to the disbelief of my co-workers..

 

[Erilaya]

Alright I have the days menu plan worked out.. went shopping last night LOL.. still doing W8's cutting plan.. I am thinking of adding 1/4 cp of pumpkin into my protien shake today .. hmm . variety??

today is upper body weights .. shoulders. bi's and tri's and chest.. I don't think I will get in my tri's on Friday so I am doing them today.. also cardio this morning.. and again tonight.. I am gonna do kickboxing today and then the bike at night.

I did legs yesterday and while they had that burning Yes you did good all yesterday evening.. today I barely feel anything.. so I guess maybe I ned to increase the weight a little bit..
Hubs has noticed the muscl;e development ( his actual words were..Gee hon I did not thinkyour legs could get any bigger??" my response...," umm gee thanks honeybunny sweetiepie... " ug actually ihave lost .5 inches on my thighs as they tighten up and the muscle is replacing some more chub LOL.. and he says they are getting bigger?? ug .. I guessin comparison to his.. hee hee alright I won't go there...BUT I could!

I have to write a Motivational Speech about Partnerships to present next week ,so .. I am dealing with writers block.. hee hee.. but still I should be able to get it done by the weekend.. Wish me Good powerful projection wording thoughts..LOL...

Trying to get all my water in...that is a challenge lately for some reason.. usually I can get it in no probs..

We are thinking of going to Brazil for Vacation.. Rio De Janerio. I am maybe swaying for Argentina... but.. we will check them all out.. That is in February..but got to start planning now..


Time to start the day.. I am at home today YAY!! Housecleaning day.. o thrills..

Smiles

Erilay'a

 

[Erilaya]

Okay yesterday was the worst day of my life to date.. well to revise that...in the last 2 years to date...

I did something i was horribly asshamed of.. I lost my temper with Hubs adn got physical over it.. not proud at all and I did catch myself just as soon as I did but I had already put him to the wall.. he was a true gentlemen and only put his hands up for deflection.. though I am still wondering how I have bruises on my legs ? I spun around and went to the bathroom and banged the wall and screamed for a few minutes.. ( I used to have a real bad temper.. but have not laid a hand on another human being since I was 19 [a girl in a club ug ug ug ] and I never discipline my kids with force either. so for me to have snapped I must really be stressed further and deeper than I thought.. However on the flip side of the coin Hubs and i did manage to talk it out after my initial meltdown and came to some solutions to recitfy the current problem.. Aside note is that I just really have never had a reltationship that lasted this long.. in the sense of living together and I have a tendency to RUN when things get bad.. and start over.. but I am putting the effort in and Hubs is soo patient with me. I am amazed at his self control and his compassion to understand me and my chaotic mind ..

Todays workout was great.( at 5 a.m). have not gotten in cardio though but I shall tonight . I will do the bike while survivior is on.. Hubs HAS to watch that show.. ug ug ug .. but its alone time with him .. so I watch it too.

I have felt drained so I took today off and slept.. from 9 to 2p.m its almost 3 now..

My nurtrition is doing real well I am not getting my meals in every 3-4 hours but I am getting close .. and thier content is really doing great.. I have turned down every treat hubs brings home and eats.. that is hard to do.. especially at night. Thank goodness I love veggies.

I have to get the houseclean and some homemade amish sweet bread made by bedtime so I had best get cracking.

off I go..

 

[Erilaya]

AHH FRIDAY!!

DOING great .. Feeling Renewed and just motivated to get where I am desiring..

Kids were cranky.. ug

Hubs is off to work ...
I have the house to myself! oh yes!!

Gonna go do a lil self pleasure and then a nap!!

I have my meals all planned out for the day..

my workout is done

did. back,abs and cardio today..
I got in 2 miles on the bike last night early in the evening.
and 2 miles this morning.. using HIIT.

I sooo want to be RIPPED by FEBRAURY.. keeping my eye on the prize!!

till laters...

 

[naturaltan]

Eri darlin', what's special about the February date?

 

[Erilaya]

GOING TO BRAZIL!!! and in MAY is my FIRST solo Adventure Race!!!

 

[naturaltan]

Excellent!! Solo adventure race ... where does that take place?

We just got an email about a resort in Mexico that is all nude. The resort ... the disco ... the beach! We're going to discuss it tonight for about 14 seconds and then put our deposit down. It's the first week of May! Wee Hoo! As much fun as we had in Jamacia, this will cost us half the price and we have a better beach.

 

[Erilaya]

ahh now that sounds fun.. we are gonna go with a another couple ( wink ya know what I am saying..LOL) to Rio De Janerio

we may change it but tentatively that is the spot for sport this year.hee hee

hey email me the resort I wanna check it out!

smiles

the race is here on the island its amongst the first to start of the season of adventure racing in eastern canada.. its the Red Cross Relay.. 56 km's

I have been on the cover of the paper for rescuing people in distress as part of the medical team I wanna be on it for WINNING my division!!!!
lol

 

[naturaltan]

email on it's way ...

 

[naturaltan]

let me know what you think about this resort!

 

[Erilaya]

I certainly shall do so!!

 

[Burner02]

Hey Eri!
Damn, you poor thing. Sounds as if ya had a rough last couple days. Glad you and hubs got things cleared up!
I'll PM you later.
Hey NT...what's this resort? Inquiring minds wanna know!

 

[Erilaya]

Well it is Oct 8th

Leg day! I hate leg day and yet I wait all week for it to come again! I am nutz!
SO GOT THAT IN!
and mylegs feel like wobbly noodles lol.. when I do lying leg curls i laugh all the way through them.. it tickles insanely .. what is up with that??

I am feeling down today tho.. I am soo fuqqing FAT! fuq fuq fuq!
I am not losing much scale weight.. and my measurements are moving .. it sux SUX SUX SUX.. I have the slowest metabolism on earth! I just don't seem to be repsonding well to anything at present.. I dunno. maybe its just an off week but I will have to sit down tongiht and AGAIN try to figure out what I am doing wrong.. I stink at the diet part .. I never can figure out how much of what I need to so I lean out. .. DAMN! I feel as tho I am hittin my head against a wall.. FUQ!


sigh.. I need a good vacation.. sigh.. I had so hoped to wear this teeny tiny outfit on my anniversary on Saturday night but that is not happening tried it on today and it just does not look right .. still lumpy! WHY is my waist not DOING ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay I am done but I had to get it out.. what better palce than in my journal! ug ug ug..

I am off to hit the treadmill for an hour of fun cardio.

sigh

Thankgod tomorrow is a new day....

 

[Erilaya]

Well Well Well.. Is is October 9th already DAMN!

I now it may sound silly to all you Fabulous hard bodies out there but I have to pictures of two women that inspire me.. I will post them here as I look at these everyday to help me Psuh Forward..


Yesterday I really rocked with my leg workout and usually I don't feel real sore till the next evening but it is only just after 8 a.ma nd I feeling it !! yahoo.. from my calves to my ribs!

I helped 3 of my sons out with thier weights last night too worked on thier form and got them going.. they love it! Although my 12 yr old is doing a lil R&R in his room for some bad alnguage he displayed at a sibling.. ( as a parent I never use vulgarity around my kids. I don't even slip.. and I expect them to express thier anger and or frustration in other ways as well..not thru basal ignorant language... so he missed his work out. argh...

Nutrition I am at a loss on what to do.. I suppose until I figure something out that will actually help me LEAN out I will stick to what I am doing which is following the plan I got out of the nutrition section..

I have alot ot accomplish today so I will write more later..

aww Hubby came home last night with a lil lingerie bag for me..

he went out and picked me up a new sexy bra and panty set.. how sweet.. of course he asked if I would try it on for him too.. hmm ulterior motives.. lol but that is cool I went up put it on and stood at the top of the stairs and called him.. "OH Honey". he came over.. and drooled and said "come down here.". I played coy and said .. "unh ugh ,I am off ot bed.. goodnight" wink .. ( thinking he would come up after me.. sigh....... NOPE .. he went and finished watching ,We were soldiers ...instead.. that is fine..but men boggle my brain, no wonder I like women too....

Hopefully this weekend My playmate friends will go out with me.. I miss Jacks and Jay.. they umm love to play with me.. its been weeks since I have "hung" out with them.. yahoo .

till laters...

 

[Erilaya]

this is the other pic/melissa coates

 

[Erilaya]

One more of melissa

 

[Erilaya]

I did not do ANYTHING TODAY!! cos its my anniversary LOL.. hee hee

going out to partay my ass off tonight.. yahoo.. oh yeah Hubs is coming too..lol.. hee hee. He is sooo tolerant of ME and multifaceted self.. awww..

smiles everyone

October 12th ROCKS!!

its also my best chidhood friends birthday! VERONICA. she is 33 years old today!

be well

Eri'

 

[Burner02]

Hey Eri!
How was your anniversary? Have a great time?

 

[Erilaya]

I FEEL LIKE SHIAT TODAY!! and Unloved.. and FAT!!


sigh..

Erilay'a

 

[Erilaya]

GONNA GO CRAWL UNDER MY ROCK FOR A WHILE......

E.

 

[Burner02]

I've gota story coming for you...maybe done by this weekend...It will cheer you up...guaranted!
remember that first part I wrote to you the other day...I FOUND it. And have been working with it....think you'll like it, nay, you'll loveit.
So chin up, kid!
tomorrow is 'humpday' and HAS to be a good day, right!

 

[butterfly]

Hope you are feeling better today!

How was the anniversary???

 

[Erilaya]

My 11 yr old son.. who is 5'5 and weighs in at 125 gets up this morning has breakfast and then of course ten minutes later stands grazing at the fridge with the door open..gaping ..
This is our conversation..

I say," Mike.. you just had breakfast like ..10 mins ago.. " he says," yah but I am hungry still.. " I say.. "How can that be?" he says," Mom did I ever tell you have a small world inside my head.. if I don't feed it.. all those lil people die.. afterall they are my brain cells.. " I say, "okay Mike you and your brain colony win.. This time.. " and he dives into the fridge to quench his need... afterall who wants to be responsible for the death of millions?? ( braincells that is.. )

ROFLMAO!!!

how can I say no to that co-ercion..He could be a Negotiator!

ha ha ha ha

I loved it..

wanted to share..



Got my water in

Did my workout today.. triceps.. back and abs. OUCH.

cardio was a latin rythms video

ate fairly well.

Eri'

 

[Burner02]

Good morning Eri!
Mike? Hey...great name for a boy! He seems to have a good head on his shoulders...the force seems to run strong ion that one....

 

[butterfly]

Hungry 10 mins later... sounds like a typical growing teenage boy to me

 

[Erilaya]

Here is 2 pics of his development so far.. he has been using weights only 2 months but he does alot of skateboarding and such too. and pushups and crucnhes and pullups.. I wish you could see the detail better than this it does him no justice..And i could not get him to smile.. it was O GOD MAHHHH!!!!! not the camera again..sheesh ..hee hee..


Michael is11yrs old.

 

[Burner02]

hey you!
proud momma showin off...

 

[butterfly]

What a cutie!!!

Thanks for sharing!!!

 

[Erilaya]

Thankyou SO much B and Burner.. I appreciate you taking the time to come in my journal thang and take a looksy at my boy.. I have 4 sons but only this one seems interested in the bodybuilding so far.. the others mainly wanna screw around when we all train together ( so far)

Here is the other pic I forgot to put up.

smiles

Eri'