Ugh. ok honestly? I've not been eating as cleanly as I'd like to be eating the last month or so. I mean i haven't gone on an all-out rampage but it is hard to resist some of the stuff around here, especially when it is easily accessible. thre are health food stores everywhere i go, and therefore, there is granola everywhere, and i am addicted to the damn thing! I even ventured into making my own recently, then proceeded to eat practically a whole bag (about six 1/2 cup servings worth) by myself in two days. Then there's Eli's... And Beanocchio's... and Gracie's... not that i eat anything bad at Gracie's...except that tiramisu this weekend.
Anyway... my point. I have been feeling rather SLOPPY lately. Like, I know i've gained like 6 or 7 pounds, but i'm not sure how much of that is water. Regardless, i'm not as "tight" as i was when i got here, granted i'm not dieting for a figure contest anymore, but I"d gotten pretty comfortable in my "new" figure-comp body and going back to somewhat "normal" makes me feel like shit. I still fit into my size 0 and size 1 clothes. But I just don't look as firm and it's gross to me.
i'm not whining. I know i have the power to stay "tight" as long as I want, but I want to enjoy myself a little here too, and i have to accept that I will look normal as opposed to figure-comp if i live a normal life, or semi-normal...
Anyway, i just wanted to vent about my frustration. i've been a little down lately. Like I'm not "fit" anymore. In my eyes, what I see in the mirror is a big blubbery belly and jello jigglers thighs. WTF. Talk about mental problems...