I was always a yo-yo dieter... all through school...all my life... then, i got really serious... REALLY serious.. and I dropped about 40lbs.. (i'll post pic's) At the time, i was in my last year of college, so I could train at the school gym (and I trained some others too) and everything was great... being a broke college student, going to a small college with virtually no friends.. (which was my own fault for kind of being a hermit once I got married) I lived diet and exercise.... and then.. I graduated.... My husband and I moved to a different state and started working... I started a career in social work and worked out as much as i could... and slowly i would miss a day... and then two... and then people at work would want to eat out..and me not wanting to avoid people or places because of my diet anymore, dug right in... and once again... a few more lbs sneaked up... then I made some great friends..and we started having "girls night" and more and more good food and good times... and then work started getting more stressful... (and me being an emotional eater didn't help)... so even though I ate clean more of the time... i started OVEREATING good clean foods... first it was cottage cheese..then it was low fat popcorn... and then a few more lbs... then I dieted for a week and lost about 3-4 lbs...and then I went back to the cycle of eating and not working out... (you get the point) So here I am... pissed off at myself for letting myself gain weight and lack on the exercise... So i'm going to post my journal here... detailing my diet and exercise routine... so you can bust my ass when needed and so I can know that I will be held accountable for my actions once again... (i had a journal on bodybuilding.com the first time, and it really helped me stay in line) Last week I stuck to the routine I will be doing this week, except I missed 2 cardio sessions.
The plan -
Monday Delts/Quads
Tue. Thur. and Sat. Cardio/Abs
Wed. Rear Delts/Back/Hamstrings
Fri. Chest/Biceps/Triceps
(before I was doing back/Bic's, Chest/Shoulders/Tri's, and then Legs But i got burned out on that, so i'm going to do this split for a bit) Also i will be training entirely at home.. I have a little gym set up..not the greatest, but i got all the basics I need for now... free weights, olympia weights and bar, smith machine, bench, lat tower, that's good for now..
The Diet - now i was successful before on a nice balanced diet of good carbs/good fats/and lean protein, and it works.. No doubt about that... BUT this time, i'm going to start off on Atkins (but my own, healthier approach
) I'm only going to do this for a short period of time to help me get removitated and also in part because my hubby has agreed to try atkins. After I get where I would like to be on that plan, i will switch back over to my well balanced diet.Goals = Stong and Lean
mini-goal #1 - stay stong and post daily
And more personal stuff,
well.. i don't really know what's going on with my career
..i just interviewed for a promotion at work, however, I already have a job offer out of state, that i have once my 10 year background clears.. ok.. pro's and con's...job i have now.. bad pay, stressful yet rewarding, and i have made some great friends. the job i have once everything goes through = really good pay, stressful with lots of overtime, moving to a location that i know nothing about and know no one...BUT i will never make this kind of money in social work and I can advance very quickly...
HOWEVER...i have always wanted to be a personal trainer..and I could still do so.. (even though i currently look like i ate a personal trainer now..lol) I could stay here, if i get the promotion, and get my personal training certificate pretty quick.. OR .... go with the other job, work my butt of for a few years, save up money...and get my certificate and have enough to one day open up my own little gym... (yeah..i'm a big dreamer) oh me... decisions, decisions...
and on a personal note... ok..this kinda jump started the weight gain..
i had a few health concerns, i was tired all the time, and and well..they think i have a genetic liver thing going on.. so my doc said No more protein powder
.. i went to see a liver specialist and he said the protein powder didn't do it, because it's probably genetic.. but no alcohol... 
(damn) so for a while, i tried to avoid protein and that pissed me off because i knew i needed it for muscle... so that kinda made me feel like what's the point.. but now i've said screw it..somethings going to kill ya one way or another
...and until they do more tests, i'm going to just do what i want to do.. ( i go back at the end of Feb) So here I am... Tomorrow I begin the induction of the First Phase of Atkin's... i will post my daily meals and workouts... along with moods and all that stuff... feel free to post and comment.. Oh.. and my highest weight was over 180 (i stopped weighing at 180) My lowest was 122 (and I looked sick....even though, at the time I thought I was still fat) (i'm about 5'8 or 5'9) I'd like to get around 130-135, (i'm at 149 now) even though weight is not my focus, I want to be lean and muscular...I will get there...let the games begin
(ok, i can't seem to get my current pictures down to size just yet, but as soon as i do, i'll get them posted..yikes!)
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Ego, your crazy! I missed talking to you and emma! I need someone to help keep me in line... but i've got that.. "time to kick it into high gear" mindset going again... so this should be interesting 
i won't let myself, or you guys down... i promise 
6 chicken wings cooked in olive oil and a little butter... OHHHHH... that will be saved for special occasions!
) That number WILL decrease.... it just takes some time and work 
oh well... they will match the rest of my body later...
Like you are going to have bathroom issues! LOL 
... and i'll probably start eating more turkey bacon with my cheese sticks..i just ran out two days ago, but i bought more tonight.. by the way.. great abs! 
Prolonged illness, weight loss, loss of lean body mass, and then gaining weight by eating junk. That's just about summarizes why. Bah. Gotta work extra hard.
..i wish i would have kept it up.. it was pretty good when I think back on it.. crap.. gotta get ready for work .. here is my workout that I did this morning..
.. i had a REALLY long day at work today.. diet was pretty much the same as before, except i had one small bag of pork rinds as a snack (i had to work later than i thought and i was out of food, and this is what i found at the gas station) I also went out to "eat" at my favorite place.. "BAGELHEADS" 
i just went to socialize.. i ate my salmon before we left and i just drunk diet sprite.. and I also had 1 diet root beer (but they were all 0 carbs, and no caffine) Then i came home and had a ton of meat.. i was freaking starving early this morning and late this afternoon.. don't know why.. but i just was.. and it's going to be a sore day tomorrow.. i can tell already.. lower back and hams are already screaming! 
so i'm really thinking twice.. but the position was for a location in North Alabama.. and I really wanted to go to Tennessee... 
the point is.. i'm going to TN this weekend...