Originally posted by atherjen
Hey JIll!! thanks for the self image boost hun! appreciate it! ughh I dont know why they had to keep going on about it. to have a GUY make fun of me is terrible its a no wonder I cant get a man. serious.

I wish that they would feel the same as you do.

your such a darling. seriuos though as of lately I keep second guessing myself. I mean I feel lonely sometimes..not that I dont have a ton of friends.. just seems that their interest is somewheres else. most guys think Im weird for loving bodybuilding. heck I could relate to any female around here about my lifestyle, most are out partying at all crazy hours of the nite. I dont drink and am not into the bar scene. its sooo hard on my head. all I want sometimes is just a hunny to cuddle with. sighh.. everyone keeps telling me ohh yah in time, blah blah.. but its been forever!! and I dont mean just a couple months either. Im talking since the end of grade 11. my senior year in high school was a bummer, I dont know but it seemed like every guy was afraid to approach me.. I know my ex had something to do with that but still. I didnt even have a date for my prom until a week before a guy from another town offered to go with me so I wouldnt be dateless.
blah Im babling here. just need to vent. its really bugging me, and as of late its even more.. Idont know if its becuase Im dieting and my hormones are wacked er what. emotional side coming out.
sorry to go on and on. blah..
hmm on a better note. I got a MILLION things done today. felt good. day off work(except for that one hour earlier). just laying back and finally enjoying the peace of not being rushed or stressed from having something imp to do.
and its high carb day so I got to have my oaties!