Thanks Princess! Felt good with some feedback!
as I've told before I've had a lot of issues with my eating and exercising in the past.. Eating disorders and stuff.. Now, I've started seeing a psycologist.. cause even though I don't have the real eating disorder anymore, I've been going through some rough times lately.. this all falls back on my poor ability to love myself and feel that I'm good enough.. I would just love not to be so over-controlling about my diet and not worry so much.. to feel safe..that's why I started seing my shrink..

And he is so helping, I have progressed so much this last weeks.. I thought about stopping this journaling completly, cause I have realised why I do this.. To let my screen and you guys confirm that I have been good.. cause that is so important for me, to have control..
Sometimes when I don't log my meals, is not because I haven't been good, but because I'm trying to learn to confirm myself, without you guys or fitday.com.. I so need to realise that life is not all about bodyfat and muscles.. it's about loving life and feeling good about yourself.. I'm starting to learn to combine these to factors (bodyfat and loving life) and to get beautiful on the inside.. It can be done, and a lot of you have already learnt how to do it..
I've been abusing my body.. Not on the outside, there I've been perfectly good, but my soul has been so abused.. I'm starting to feel whole.. and safe.. I've never felt this good before in my life..
This probably sounds like some darn mambo-jambo for some of you..

I'm not getting insane, I'm just trying to learn how to live and how to be happy!
I've learnt so much about my eating patterns and how emotional I am with it.. I have eaten for comfort so many times without even realising it.. I thought that was something only 350 pounds Sally did... Guess not..
This journal really doesn't belong in a muscle and fitness forum.. Maybe I should go look for a "finding yourself forum"..

But, it's all about being healthy.. So I guess I could stay here..
