After a nightmarish day yesterday, needing klonopin for christs sake, check this out..
Squats
295lbs for 3x3
Squats, narrow
225lbs for 3x5
Squats, wide
225lbs for 3x5
Flat db press
105lb dbs for 4x8 (45-75 sec)
Weighted dips
45lbs for 8, 8, 5 and an rp, 5 and an rp, 6 and an rp (30-75 sec)
Hangs
See? Horrible, horrible day yesterday which led to a great day today.
Anxiety attacks galore is what it was from a whole Saturday of not only drinking heavily, but for the entire day . Why the fuck do i do that, when i know ill feel awful? I mean, awful isnt even the word when youre losing your mind.
I thought if ive had a drinking problem and as far as i can tell, there are 2 signs of alcoholism. 1, you need a drink the moment you wake up to get rid of the shakes. Now, this does happen to me after a day like Saturday, but not today and i wont tomorrow. Its only when im suffering. And 2, you cant stop once you begin. Now, Saturday is an anomaly and ive visited this la la land before, but yesterday, when i was drinking to get rid of the shakes, i knew when to stop. In fact, i have vodka at home, at my disposal, and i still knew when there was enough.
Im supposed to take klonopin or xanax when these attacks happen, but after the doc explained that the pills roughly do the same as alcohol, i avoid taking them. They are way too potent. Still, i woke up at around 3am and anxiety was back, almost full force. So, took klono, fell back asleep, and woke up unbelievably refreshed. "A good night's rest" is a great remedy.