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First of all, hi everyone long time no speak! I am Crash for the rest of you who don't know. I've been gone for a while, but that was due to self-restraint. I decided not to have the internet in my apartment so I could focus on schoolwork and get good grades upon my transfer to university from community college. Furthermore, in the passing two quarters, I realized something; I have realized that university is MUCH easier than what I built it up to be, and in all reality, the community college I had attended prior was harder... In addition, it is not due to an easy university. 
I attend a top ranking tier one school.
In sum, I do not care anymore. I worked myself up over nothing, and now, I am back.
Anyway, to the topic!
So, I may be over reacting and this is just displacement, or I may not be, and my girlfriend is a genuine bitch. Either way I seem to be really pist off about what my girlfriend said today. Thus, where do I turn for my morality? Here, of course - We can discuss that paradox at another time, but I digress. Earlier in the week, a close friend of mine past away. I used to call her my little sister; basically, she was as close as someone could be without actually being related by blood. At the last moment, I decided to give an off the cuff eulogy. As I finish in front of the 500 people, I thought it was rather good and so did everyone else. I had many compliments afterwards. No, I am not just tooting my own horn; this has a point. That is that I didn't say anything mean; rather, quite the inverse. However, my girlfriend was mad at me. Why? She was mad at me because I have never said, "those kinds of words" about her. Although in all reality, I had said everything that was in the eulogy to her. I just have not made a monologue based solely on her in front of a crowd of people mourning her death.
Thus, my contention: was she really justified in being envious of my dead friend's eulogy? Was that not just a little selfish, if not downright insensitive?
I refuted this statement by stating she was not dead, and clarifying that in all actuality, I had said those things. Then, I said to her, "if you really want me to, I will go write you a eulogy", while thinking "as long as you die so I can use it." Granted, my statement may have been perceived as "dick-ish" I really don't know, but she might be a bitch so it evens out.
However, that is not it. She further got mad at me because I was smiling in a picture they presented as part of a slide show. Her reasoning was, "you've never looked that happy in one of our pictures." I just kind of ignored her and thought, "You really wonder why?"
So, am I really overreacting by being pist at all this, or is she just as selfish of a bitch as I think right now? I really don't know; she may have had great justification, but today, of all days, was she really justified in saying it? Or should she have kept her mouth shut?
This might seem clear to some but I'm really caught up in many other emotions now and this stupid incident keeps plaguing my mind and making me madder each time.
...Just as a side note, I had originally named this thread "My Girlfriend... What kind of person would do this thing!?" But that just opened the door for way too many insults lol.
I attend a top ranking tier one school. In sum, I do not care anymore. I worked myself up over nothing, and now, I am back.
Anyway, to the topic!
So, I may be over reacting and this is just displacement, or I may not be, and my girlfriend is a genuine bitch. Either way I seem to be really pist off about what my girlfriend said today. Thus, where do I turn for my morality? Here, of course - We can discuss that paradox at another time, but I digress. Earlier in the week, a close friend of mine past away. I used to call her my little sister; basically, she was as close as someone could be without actually being related by blood. At the last moment, I decided to give an off the cuff eulogy. As I finish in front of the 500 people, I thought it was rather good and so did everyone else. I had many compliments afterwards. No, I am not just tooting my own horn; this has a point. That is that I didn't say anything mean; rather, quite the inverse. However, my girlfriend was mad at me. Why? She was mad at me because I have never said, "those kinds of words" about her. Although in all reality, I had said everything that was in the eulogy to her. I just have not made a monologue based solely on her in front of a crowd of people mourning her death.
Thus, my contention: was she really justified in being envious of my dead friend's eulogy? Was that not just a little selfish, if not downright insensitive?
I refuted this statement by stating she was not dead, and clarifying that in all actuality, I had said those things. Then, I said to her, "if you really want me to, I will go write you a eulogy", while thinking "as long as you die so I can use it." Granted, my statement may have been perceived as "dick-ish" I really don't know, but she might be a bitch so it evens out.
However, that is not it. She further got mad at me because I was smiling in a picture they presented as part of a slide show. Her reasoning was, "you've never looked that happy in one of our pictures." I just kind of ignored her and thought, "You really wonder why?"
So, am I really overreacting by being pist at all this, or is she just as selfish of a bitch as I think right now? I really don't know; she may have had great justification, but today, of all days, was she really justified in saying it? Or should she have kept her mouth shut?
This might seem clear to some but I'm really caught up in many other emotions now and this stupid incident keeps plaguing my mind and making me madder each time.
...Just as a side note, I had originally named this thread "My Girlfriend... What kind of person would do this thing!?" But that just opened the door for way too many insults lol.
