Tom's first journal

[Tom_B]

Todays Weight is 131 pounds ... I didn't gain anything .. and I wasn't even really exercising this week ... ugh that means I didn't mess up my metabolism and that I'm gonna have to start eating lots more
But it shouldn't be too much of a problem .. yesterday after I took away the coffee and diet pepsi I was actually really hungry later on at night but I was still REALLY full during the day .. my lunch just really bloats the hell out of me

 

[Tom_B]

Pics

Ok .. finally got the webcam going .. so I took so pics after breakfast .. well after I was sitting on my ass for 3 hours after breakfast ... god I've gotten so fat ..
There just random shots ... I really couldn't a good back shot .. and my legs are just random flexed / not flexed / that squated thing I was talking about ..
don't laugh

 

[Tom_B]

legs ..

 

[Tom_B]

Febuary 5

Training - nothing

Diet -
Meal 1 (8:30am) - whey , CC , muesli , natty crunchy PB , SF waple syrup
Meal 2 (12:00pm) - same as meal 1
Meal 3 (3:30pm) - CC , almond butter , fiber 1 , fishies , chicken, broccoli , SF maple syrup
Meal 4 (6:30pm cheat) - Hamburger platter (small hamburger , with some fries) , Atkins Ketcup , diet pepsi , 1 serving of cherry cheesecake (which was 2 small pieces)
Meal 5 (7:10pm 2nd cheat) - Medium Size Dariy Queen Blizzard
Meal 6 (10:30pm 3rd cheat) - 4 pieces of a 12" pizza , one 9" garlic finger , can of diet pepsi
Meal 7 (3:00am) - CC , fiber 1 , fishies

Water - 4L so far ... but throughout the night I'll be drinking more
Additonals - 1 coffee , 1 bottle of diet pepsi , 1 can of diet pepsi

Well umm things didn't go as planed today ..at least it was better than my previous cheats .. But I don't care I'm having such a great night.
Okay me and my friends went to the diner place and I ordered what I ordered and they got potato skins with sour cream and bottles of pepsi .. so then after that we all wanted to walk down to the mall and on the way there , there was a DQ and they wanted to get milkshakes .. so to be social or what not and not feel like a loser watching them eat like I've always done , and they kept telling me to get something I got a blizzard. Then we had a great time at the mall , it was so funny! Then we got back watched a movie and then went back to someone elses house and they all wanted to order pizza and wanted me to eat with them .. so I did. And Now I'm invited to stay over at my friends house for the night .. which I haven't done in over a year .. I would ALWAYS spend the night there , his house was like a 2nd home to me .. but after my health turnover I oculd never spend the night because A) I had to eat a special breaky and B) i would have to exercise .. well I don't have to exercise so I'm gonna spend the night.
I haven't been eating untill I'M BLOATED AS HELL .. just enough to kinda bloat me like ym regualr foods do and I'm having SO MUCH FUN with all my friends .. I haven't enjoyed myself like this is such a long time .. I missed it .. So if I'm blaoted / retaining water tomorrow / beating myself up over what I ate , this night will be worth it

 

[Emma-Leigh]

Todays Weight is 131 pounds ... I didn't gain anything .. and I wasn't even really exercising this week ... ugh that means I didn't mess up my metabolism and that I'm gonna have to start eating lots more

N'ah - No problems! Increase your daily totals by 200 cals to start and try to get these cals earlier in the day (around your workouts).

A few nuts & some more carbies and you are set!

 

[Emma-Leigh]

Ok .. finally got the webcam going .. so I took so pics after breakfast ..

Great!! Ok - so these are your official 'before' pictures.

Your piccies are not too bad - but you certainly need more muscle mass on you. Esp. your arms, back and legs.

Also, I have to agree with my gut feelings from before - you are not at <10% BF. But that is good - it means you actually have more to work with! So it is a bonus!

So now you just have to stick to your plans and get this body re-comp going.

Woo hoo!!! You just wait - lift heavy, eat right and WATCH the magic!

Then we take more pic's in 1 month (5th March) and lets see how they look in comparison!

god I've gotten so fat ..

Don't try to pull that bull doo doo with me Mr....

 

[Emma-Leigh]

I'm having SO MUCH FUN with all my friends .. I haven't enjoyed myself like this is such a long time .. I missed it .. So if I'm blaoted / retaining water tomorrow / beating myself up over what I ate , this night will be worth it

 

[Tom_B]

N'ah - No problems! Increase your daily totals by 200 cals to start and try to get these cals earlier in the day (around your workouts).

A few nuts & some more carbies and you are set!

MMM more almond / crunchy peanute butter

 

[Tom_B]

Great!! Ok - so these are your official 'before' pictures.

Your piccies are not too bad - but you certainly need more muscle mass on you. Esp. your arms, back and legs.

My pictures are horrible I've just slowly watch my body delcline over the last few months ..

Also, I have to agree with my gut feelings from before - you are not at <10% BF. But that is good - it means you actually have more to work with! So it is a bonus!

Ya I can defintly tell now I'm not around 10% ... I may have been when I was around 120lbs , but defintley not anymore ..after my previous bulk gone bad I've added about 10lbs of just fat on me

So now you just have to stick to your plans and get this body re-comp going.

Woo hoo!!! You just wait - lift heavy, eat right and WATCH the magic!

Then we take more pic's in 1 month (5th March) and lets see how they look in comparison!

I hope so! I hate my body so much right now .. I'm so .. soft .. , my self -esteem is in the shitter right now .. I went out and bought this zip up sweater thingy that looks really nice .. but I'm now refusing to even wear it because were it's so thin I'm afraid my stomach's gonna buldge through , my stomach's been doing that lately anytime I'm wearing a t-shirt I can just see it there

Don't try to pull that bull doo doo with me Mr....

ok I may not be fat fat , but I'm defintly pudgy!

 

[Tom_B]

Thank you so much for convincing me to ( well .. more like telling me to ) have a cheat (even though it turned into 3 ) , I haven't had that much fun in so long! And jsut the fact that I was sitting in a restaurant and not WATCHING my friends eat but actually EATING WITH them made me feel .. normal.
Besides between all the laughing , walking , short running sprints , climbing on top of snowbanks and getting pushed off and falling through snow , I think I may have burnt a few more calories than what I normally do

 

[Tom_B]

Febuary 6

Training - nothing


Diet -
Meal 1 - oats , whey , skim milk , banana, coffee , natty PB
Meal 2 - CC , muesli , whey , Natty Crunchy PB , fishies , SF maple syrup
Meal 3 - brown rice , chicken , pear , fishies , celery
Meal 4 - Protein bar , oats , stevia , cinnamon , SF maple syrup, green beans , vinnegar , fishies
Meal 5 - same as meal 1
Meal 6 - CC , almond butter , fiber 1

Water - 4L .. or at least attempting to

Additionals - No coffee or diet pepsi doing good so far
Might have a small glass of green tea later if I feel up to it


I woke up this morning fine .. absoultey fine , no bloating no nothing .. but then after I had my third meal I've been so bloated ever since and I have no idea why! ugh it's reall yreally bad too .. I've been wanting to cut my meals in half , but I just gotta keep telling ymself to suck it up anyways.

Also ... I have one more slight variation I'm gonna do to my routine before starting it tomorrow (which I'm so anxious about , I GET TO EXERCISE TOMORROW!! )I'm moving everything back one day .. that way my rest/cheat will fall on a sat instead of a sun .. cause if I'm gonna be bloated then I'm not gonna want to be at school while I'm like that.
And also ... I have no idea how my weights are gonna be .. my arms are still really sore from the shots they gave me on Fri. You think they'd warn ya that your arms are gonna hurt like a bitch for the next couple of days , there better than what they were yesterday .. my god yesterday I could barley raise my arms up when I first woke up .. then they were feeling better and I tried taking those pic and trying to flex my arm just completely shot them again. Anyways hopefully there better for tomorrow.

 

[Tom_B]

HOLY SHIT are you trying to make the quote button fall off


How's tom?

Hey Luke sorry I just saw these post while going thorugh my journal .
ya ... by the looks of it I'm gonna ruin the smiley too

 

[Tom_B]

I got one.... "am and pm yoga" . I also bought a book "real men do yoga"

"real men do yoga"
I always thought yoga would be nice a relaxing , but damn it's hard! .. or is it just my stuff , did you feel like death after trying out your first session?

 

[Emma-Leigh]

Thank you so much for convincing me to ( well .. more like telling me to ) have a cheat (even though it turned into 3 ) , I haven't had that much fun in so long! And jsut the fact that I was sitting in a restaurant and not WATCHING my friends eat but actually EATING WITH them made me feel .. normal.

This is what it is all about tom - ENJOYING life!!! Being PART of life!! Don't EVER let your excessive attempts to completely restrict and control your diet and exercise get in the way of experiencing everything the world has to offer.

You will become bitter and resentful if you don't allow yourself to be a part of the world while you have the chance.

Besides between all the laughing , walking , short running sprints , climbing on top of snowbanks and getting pushed off and falling through snow , I think I may have burnt a few more calories than what I normally do

See what happens when you FUEL YOUR BODY - your MIND has energy to ENJOY THE WORLD and your BODY can then enjoy the benefits of the energy your mind has!


I hope you remember this and that you give yourself this freedom more often!

 

[Emma-Leigh]

Training - 40 min walk in my room

WHY????!!!!

 

[BulkMeUp]

... I .. ummm never had cheesecake before didn't even know it existed until joining these forums and hearing everyones cravings over it , I'll have to try it one day

I am not a very big fan of cheesecake, but this one i like a lot. http://www.presidentschoice.ca/en/products/product_page.aspx?ProductId=10099

And here is a whole list of options. http://www.presidentschoice.ca/en/products/search_results.aspx?keywords=cheesecake

 

[BulkMeUp]

god I've gotten so fat ..

Yup, you are fat .... COMPARED TO WHAT YOU WERE 6 MONTHS AGO!! but actually you need to put some beef on those bones, yer bag of bones!!

 

[BulkMeUp]

and I'm having SO MUCH FUN with all my friends .. I haven't enjoyed myself like this is such a long time .. I missed it ..

Thats the spirit. You need to enjoy life as that is one thing that is passing you by, no matter what you do or dont do. You will never relive the present again. I know you are aware of that as is everyone. But most people have to make an effort to live life rather than just existing.

 

[BulkMeUp]

Training - 40 min walk in my room
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If thats how you are behaving, you need to be locked up! Seriously. Thats is some strange behaviour. Walking around in your room and for the sake of 'training'????? FIND SOMETHING ESLE TO DO. There is plenty of things you can do, and it dosent have to be physical activity. Learn something. That brain needs 'exercise' as much as the body. Find a hobby, read a book(the TV remote is NOT a book ), read/learn more about diet and nutrition if you are intrested (but dont start making changes to your present routine) ... etc

 

[Tom_B]

This is what it is all about tom - ENJOYING life!!! Being PART of life!! Don't EVER let your excessive attempts to completely restrict and control your diet and exercise get in the way of experiencing everything the world has to offer.

You will become bitter and resentful if you don't allow yourself to be a part of the world while you have the chance.



See what happens when you FUEL YOUR BODY - your MIND has energy to ENJOY THE WORLD and your BODY can then enjoy the benefits of the energy your mind has!


I hope you remember this and that you give yourself this freedom more often!

Yup I'm defintly having more nights like those , and not gonna be so picky or anal about everything I eat ... so what if my friends wanted to go to DQ afterwards or what not , I'm gonna enjoy myself , not make my cheat days a thing I grew to hate like I was doing before , where I'd keep eating untill it hurt.

 

[Tom_B]

WHY????!!!!

OPPS I didn't do that! I forgot to delet it when I quoted the other day stuff I'll go edit that out now ..

Besides had no time to exercise even if I wanted to stay .. stayed at my friends house till 12am had to room home eat , shower , prep meals , go to work , come home and do social studies project , prep meals fro tomorrow then sleep as I was so exhausted .. we didn't go to bed until 4am and I woke up at 9:30am .. I'm not use to having such a lack of sleep!

 

[Tom_B]

I am not a very big fan of cheesecake, but this one i like a lot. http://www.presidentschoice.ca/en/products/product_page.aspx?ProductId=10099

And here is a whole list of options. http://www.presidentschoice.ca/en/products/search_results.aspx?keywords=cheesecake

MMMM
I had the cherry cheesecake , it WAS SO GOOD! it was homemade and everything !
I had such a hard time decidign what to get .. there was
-Cherry Cheesecake
-Checkered cocunut Cake
- Butterscotch ripple pie
- Turtle Pie
-Cinnamon Rolls

And some other stuff I didn't care for
But the cheesecake was heaven!!

 

[Tom_B]

Yup, you are fat .... COMPARED TO WHAT YOU WERE 6 MONTHS AGO!! but actually you need to put some beef on those bones, yer bag of bones!!

Well think of it from my point of view .. I looked like I did six months ago for a while .. then now I look like this .. it's just .. dissapointing and aggravating I guess. In my eyes I'm fat. But I don't think about it too much .. I know that time will fix things , and as long as I'm dedicated everything will correct itself , I just need patience...

 

[Tom_B]

Thats the spirit. You need to enjoy life as that is one thing that is passing you by, no matter what you do or dont do. You will never relive the present again. I know you are aware of that as is everyone. But most people have to make an effort to live life rather than just existing.

I one of those people now .. before I'd ALWAYS go out with my friends and we'd go out to a restaurant or movie or bowling .. anything! but now between work and school and my meals / training I rarely get the time I gotta make room for it .. which I'm gonna start doing alot more

 

[Tom_B]

If thats how you are behaving, you need to be locked up! Seriously. Thats is some strange behaviour. Walking around in your room and for the sake of 'training'????? FIND SOMETHING ESLE TO DO. There is plenty of things you can do, and it dosent have to be physical activity. Learn something. That brain needs 'exercise' as much as the body. Find a hobby, read a book(the TV remote is NOT a book ), read/learn more about diet and nutrition if you are intrested (but dont start making changes to your present routine) ... etc

Well when I did it (as I didn't do it the other time forgot to delet it) it was for that reason .. but other than that and the 1 thing of yoga I've done nothing .. I've kept myself busy like you said , first day I went through my binder from school and rearranged everything and made it all pretty like

 

[Tom_B]

Febuary 7

Training - Am - Abs , Pm - Swimming

Abs - Ball Pikes 2x15
Janda sit-ups - 1x8 , 1x6 , 1x7
Dragon Flag - 1 x 1/4
Negative dragon flags - 10 in totals .. god these are hard! fro most of them I'd let my ass fall too soon right .. I need to tighten my body up more.

Swimming - I have no idea what it'll be like .. I'm posting this now (5:30pm) because after I get back I have SO MUCH homework. But all she said is they swim laps for an hour then at the end they do some water push-ups anyways ..

Diet - To increase 200 cals , I put in 1 extra TBSP of PB in my first meal , 1/4 a extra cup of brown rice in my third meal and uped my oats in my pre workout from 1/3 a cup to 1/2 a cup.
Meal 1 - whey , CC , muesli , natty crunchy PB , SF maple syrup
Meal 2 - CC , almond butter , fiber 1, fishies
Meal 3 - brown rice , apple , chicken , fishies (forgot the celery )
Meal 4 - protein bar , oats , extra celery , stevia , SF maple syrup , cinnmon (forgot fishies .. so I'll have them in my last meal)
Meal 5 - oats , whey , banana , skim milk
*post workout* - muesli , whey , banana , skim milk
Meal 6 - CC , almond butter , fiber 1 , fishies

Water - 4L
Additonals - might have a small glass of green tea

Well school was hell! so much homework .. and I accidently Screamed "What the FUCK!?!" in math class just as everyone went silent ... teacher was a little mad ..o well
Umm well had to go grocery shopping got my pepermint oil pills .. there expensive though .. I'll see if they make a big difference if not I'll scratch them .. umm well doing nothing now excep ti gotta ssearch for a pair of shorts to swim in and start my science assignments that are due tomorrow .. god she gives us two assignments due the next day then I got comm-tech homework for tomorrow and a math assignment due Wed.
*sigh*

 

[Emma-Leigh]

How was swimming Tom?

 

[Tom_B]

How was swimming Tom?

FUN!!
See afterwards I asked thsoe people if my friend Diane could come to and they said it would be no problem so I had so much fun! There was just alot of people in the pool .. we knew a couple and they kept asking me why I have a t-shirt on because I weigh like 50lbs ya right ..
anyways ... it wasn't so much constantly swimming laps , becuase theres soo many people and me and my friend would carry on so the hour constisted of spartic laps , threading water , being dunked under water , being grabed trying to swim away really fast from my friend etc. wasn't really tired from it .. but I was at the same time know what I mean?
last night though I didn't get to bed until 10:30pm and the water really bothered my eyes (because istead of cholrine they use salt ) so now waking up so early and having my irrated salt eyes my eyes are completely red .. I know I'm gonna get a few looks at school today

 

[BulkMeUp]

And some other stuff I didn't care for
But the cheesecake was heaven!!

Yea, it is. The first time i had it, i was like 'WTF? sweetened cheese??? yuck!' But after a few bites, i caved!

 

[BulkMeUp]

Well when I did it (as I didn't do it the other time forgot to delet it) it was for that reason .. but other than that and the 1 thing of yoga I've done nothing .. I've kept myself busy like you said , first day I went through my binder from school and rearranged everything and made it all pretty like

ok, thats good. You dont want to end up being a psychiatrist's dream and locked up in a padded room!