I'm having a bitch of time sleeping this past few days. Not good for the program at all. I've worked to hard on diet and everything don't wanna see progress halt. I've mentally got myself dizzy of things trying to figure out why my weight loss has slowed. It took off like a rocket at first, I've changed programs in the gym. So I'm keeping the body guessing and all. I do appreciate all of the comments above, and I do see a change. Its just not happening fast enough for me to feel like I'm doing it right. I feel like I've missed something somewhere, or the fact that I've never worked this hard in my life and personal health and fitness and still look like a sack of shit. It took four years to trash, so yeah it can't be fixed in eight weeks. This I realize, I just feel like my energy throughout the day is very peaky, and perhaps the way I'm taking in my food could be to blame for the slow loss.
I'm just not dumping the fat as fast as I expected. Body weight is rock solid and not moving at 243lb, that doesn't concern me in the least just for mention. I am taking in 2200kcal on non-training days and 2400kcal on training days. I use fitday.com so I record everything. At the end of the day my meals are balanced in total, but taking them in I just don't think the calories are spread evenly. What I mean is my first four meals make up about 1000-1200kcal, then I go work out (about 5pm) and eat the other 1000kcal in the last two meals. I have to eat carbs to get the calories there. Its either carbs or fat to go with the protein which is usually chicken, turkey, or fish for meal five then cottage cheese with meal six. Of course there are two schools that argue this, some say complex carbs after the workout are neccesary and then the other school says no way NO CARBS post workout. Well if thats the case I don't stand a snow balls chance in hell of hitting much more than 1800kcal.
Everyone and their drummer is telling me, no no eat more. Eating clean I struggle to get to 2400kcal, I'd have to jack up carbs substantially, but then un-used carbs turn to shit as does surplus protein and the body stores it as fat. So what the hell? I could easily get my meals to 500kcal a piece but I'd take in 12oz of chicken breast which would be 80-90g of protein, which I have been told and read here and you can't metablolize much more than 50g per meal. I take in 250g for non training days and 300g for training days. I hit that no problem, and I try to keep the fat for the day at 15% or lower if possible. Carbs I really don't keep too harsh an eye on. They are lower than the protein gram wise, and make up the rest of my diet. I started this new journal thread posting about a high carb diet and I'm yet to sit down with my buddy to explain it further as its his plan. So I haven't started it yet. I just need to do something to shock my system and kick it in the ass. I don' want to drop my calories all the way down to like 1800 or so, because then muscle mass will fade with fat. That we don't want. I don't have much muscle mass to start with.
I know full well at 2200kcal doing a split routine, and doing things my way used too work. Hell thats where the first twenty pounds went, but then I hit a wall. I lost a few more on the push/pull/legs thing, bit it just doesn't do it for me. I feel tired and exhausted when I leave, but just don't get pumped too often. I'm going to stay the course though and then when I get done with this routine in six weeks, I'll change back to a split and see how that fairs. Biggest deal now for me is to shed the gut for summer and look somewhat human.
I'm honestly eight weeks into this looking back. So I think you can see I'm losing weight and doing reasonably well for the time invested, but hell I still have a 41" waist. Nothing seems to be coming off the middle, but my face is slimming and such. I know there is no such thing as target fat loss, but man I wish there was a way to accelerate the process. I'm eager to get the fat off so I can see what the hell I have for muscle under all this crap and where to start piling the lead on.
I need my rest to have any success and right now its 4:20am and I'm online, damn it!!!!! I am in this terrible bout with insomnia right now, so hell that may be the reason right there that I'm having issues with my development or lack there of. I get 4-5hrs right now if I'm lucky. Tonight I fell asleep at 10pm and slept until 3am, woke up and got on here after laying there struggling to get comfortable for a half hour, been here for an hour. Then I'll go back to bed in about 10 minutes since now I'm yawning. Wake up at 5:30 becuase I didn't make my food last night so I have to get up early.
Its the diary of a madman I tell ya. I will find a balance here and I will find a series of plans that work. I need several options, so when one stops working I can change it up to another and keep things fresh and the body guessing.
In workout news, its Leg day tomorrow. I missed it on Sunday. So I only had two days in the gym last week again. I've determined that I need to get all three days in M-F because my weekend schedule is just too hectic. My buddy sean's wedding is this weekend as well, and I'm the best man so theres a little more added stress. I need a good massage and two sleep for a day solid, then I'll be mint.
OK off my soapbox and too my pillow. I feel better now, I need to rant my crazyness more often. God I'm tired......ZZZZZZZZ
