Hello Everyone!!
I saw my old pics kinda bumped up so I thought I would share what has been going on....
OK, I am a married women now
Married to an Army Officer...My new Army Doctor just told me that I will LOVE the FORCED FUN SOCIALS, and that an officers wife is thier best secret weapon for promotion...Needless to say, I don't dance anymore Which is good, but kinda bad...We are in a little bit of debt and the job market out in Hawaii for ex strippers is not so good
...I will be attending a very wholistic health training program in the spring. Until then it is spouse socials and training hard for me...Hopefully we get our request for Germany next year
Now as far as training and all that...
I, after working with w8 and dp, found out I had some goofy hormonal probelms as well as some high blood pressure...I have been to the Doctor since, and it looks like the blood pressure issue is still there. I am only 24 and healthy(sans hormones which could be causing the blood pressure stuff)..
Now, I have been a natty trainer since I was 17 years old...I had never "dieted" in the way that a precontest dieting bodybuilder diets, until rather recectnly(I have always been healthy and never had disordered eating)...My studies over the past few months show a bad rebound hormonally for some women who take their bodies to a low level of bodyfat for any period of time(especially when natty like I did)...I found that coming off of my first contest diet that I was irrational with food, and WOULD NOT let my body regain the fat that it wanted to...This then led to restriction then to binging and so on for about 2 years. My bodyfat did come back to my natural level, but I was still going between bingining and then so called contest dieting....I started to show signs of blood sugar imbalance(even on higher fat and lower carb) I had low strength and stamina and always felt very WIRED...Too much cortisol and exhausted adrenls. I tried 3 times to diet, and my last real attempt was with Dp and w8...Dp is brillant, and called out some hormonal problems within the first 2 weeks...
Since, I had doc prescibe testosterone and Now recently I have started taking anavar(overseen by a doc)...I am now at 5f6i and 162lbs...I am not fat, or even chunky.I am probably somewhere around 20-22%..I am not ripped by any means, but I am gaining mucsle and strength for the first time in years....Most clothes that I wore 20lbs lighter still fit, EXPECT around the back(boobs are SMALLER., which always shows me that bodyfat is lower)
My thoughts on this are...that the body(female especially) will only go so far natrually...You can get lean, but for most staying real low is is extemely difficult, and may lead to some problems later on(namely disordered eating and possible weaking of the bones..>Hormonal issues will probably be the first thing to take hold while one is excessive in their dieting behaviou)r...Being oxygen mag model lean ALL OF THE TIME is not possible, and most if not all of these models use...Plan and simple.
Not dancing of course has helped my mind and body image...I am a big strong girl, who can't follow a prescibed caloire level for the rest of my life and not get eating disorderd...Prior to contest level bodybuilding, I had enjoyed activity just for the shear pleasure in it...After dealing with the dieting and the pathology of it, life became a drag and a constant struggle and wish to "get back where I was" At this time I have no near future plans to compete...Although the desire to try is there, but my new role models are the strongwomen athletes(anyone ever see Jill Mills, worldsest strongest women
I would like my body to be good for more than "just looking good"... I would like to make big jumps in strength and not be soo concerned if I "look bloated today" I would like to eat whole grain bread, dairy products and fruit...Things I would binge on in the past becasue they were"cheat foods" I am going to be a bodyworker and can't be an effective healer at 60grams of carbs a day. and 500 caloire deficet.
I am not giving up by any means, just looking at the broader picture of life...My dieting and disordered eating may have left me unable to bear children...I gained and lost, about 30lbs for contests 3 times in 1 year. And now I am going on 3 years dealing with the aftermath..Time to eat healthy train hard, and if my weight gets higher, heck so does my gym poundage...Someday down the road, dieiting and the stage may be in the picture again, at this time there is a need to focus on wholeness.
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I will be checking in from now on a regular basis
Love to all
danilee
I saw my old pics kinda bumped up so I thought I would share what has been going on....
OK, I am a married women now
Married to an Army Officer...My new Army Doctor just told me that I will LOVE the FORCED FUN SOCIALS, and that an officers wife is thier best secret weapon for promotion...Needless to say, I don't dance anymore Which is good, but kinda bad...We are in a little bit of debt and the job market out in Hawaii for ex strippers is not so good...I will be attending a very wholistic health training program in the spring. Until then it is spouse socials and training hard for me...Hopefully we get our request for Germany next yearNow as far as training and all that...
I, after working with w8 and dp, found out I had some goofy hormonal probelms as well as some high blood pressure...I have been to the Doctor since, and it looks like the blood pressure issue is still there. I am only 24 and healthy(sans hormones which could be causing the blood pressure stuff)..
Now, I have been a natty trainer since I was 17 years old...I had never "dieted" in the way that a precontest dieting bodybuilder diets, until rather recectnly(I have always been healthy and never had disordered eating)...My studies over the past few months show a bad rebound hormonally for some women who take their bodies to a low level of bodyfat for any period of time(especially when natty like I did)...I found that coming off of my first contest diet that I was irrational with food, and WOULD NOT let my body regain the fat that it wanted to...This then led to restriction then to binging and so on for about 2 years. My bodyfat did come back to my natural level, but I was still going between bingining and then so called contest dieting....I started to show signs of blood sugar imbalance(even on higher fat and lower carb) I had low strength and stamina and always felt very WIRED...Too much cortisol and exhausted adrenls. I tried 3 times to diet, and my last real attempt was with Dp and w8...Dp is brillant, and called out some hormonal problems within the first 2 weeks...
Since, I had doc prescibe testosterone and Now recently I have started taking anavar(overseen by a doc)...I am now at 5f6i and 162lbs...I am not fat, or even chunky.I am probably somewhere around 20-22%..I am not ripped by any means, but I am gaining mucsle and strength for the first time in years....Most clothes that I wore 20lbs lighter still fit, EXPECT around the back(boobs are SMALLER., which always shows me that bodyfat is lower)
My thoughts on this are...that the body(female especially) will only go so far natrually...You can get lean, but for most staying real low is is extemely difficult, and may lead to some problems later on(namely disordered eating and possible weaking of the bones..>Hormonal issues will probably be the first thing to take hold while one is excessive in their dieting behaviou)r...Being oxygen mag model lean ALL OF THE TIME is not possible, and most if not all of these models use...Plan and simple.
Not dancing of course has helped my mind and body image...I am a big strong girl, who can't follow a prescibed caloire level for the rest of my life and not get eating disorderd...Prior to contest level bodybuilding, I had enjoyed activity just for the shear pleasure in it...After dealing with the dieting and the pathology of it, life became a drag and a constant struggle and wish to "get back where I was" At this time I have no near future plans to compete...Although the desire to try is there, but my new role models are the strongwomen athletes(anyone ever see Jill Mills, worldsest strongest women
I would like my body to be good for more than "just looking good"... I would like to make big jumps in strength and not be soo concerned if I "look bloated today" I would like to eat whole grain bread, dairy products and fruit...Things I would binge on in the past becasue they were"cheat foods" I am going to be a bodyworker and can't be an effective healer at 60grams of carbs a day. and 500 caloire deficet.I am not giving up by any means, just looking at the broader picture of life...My dieting and disordered eating may have left me unable to bear children...I gained and lost, about 30lbs for contests 3 times in 1 year. And now I am going on 3 years dealing with the aftermath..Time to eat healthy train hard, and if my weight gets higher, heck so does my gym poundage...Someday down the road, dieiting and the stage may be in the picture again, at this time there is a need to focus on wholeness.
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I will be checking in from now on a regular basis
Love to all
danilee
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