First cycle 250mg test e on wednesday and saturday for 500mg a week total. I'm on day 1 of week 6 and so far I've put on a good 5-6 pounds of muscle (10lbs on scale minus 5 for water and fat). I'm at 190 now and eat 3000-3500 cals a day. Strength has been up about 20% over the past 5 weeks on the big 3 (dead, squat, and bench). Aromasin 12.5mg EOD, finasteride 1mg ED, 500iu HCG every 4-5 days.
This is where it gets weird.
Week 1 was an anxious feeling with a lot good nervousness. Felt a good rush whenever I worked out during week 2. I felt GREAT in the gym and in the bed during week 3 (hello morning wood!
).
Then week 4 I started to feel like I was topping off when it came to "feeling on". It wasn't getting any better. Performance was not as great in the sack... So I decided to up my dosage.
Week 5 began with 1.5ml (375mg) on wednesday. Still felt like I was slowly coming down off my "good feeling" so I did my next shot a day early with 1.2 (300mg) on friday. I started to feel shitty on monday. I was getting little pangs of depression
. I've never had a feeling like that before and as soon as it happened I would just talk myself out of it. I also wasn't as motivated in the gym and my mind was drifting while working out (i've never had this happen). I decided to do another shot on monday with another 1.5ml (375) for a total of 1050mg in week 5 (ok I know this sounds like a lot to do but I did not add the numbers up until right now so I did not think about how much I was doing). The morning wood was also starting to soften up.
Tonight i went to see the girlfriend and my performance, or lack of, was NOT up to par (and i usually birdie the hole). As you can imagine this is depressing but mostly maddening. (I usually get pissed in situations where people get depressed which is why the feelings of depression was a red flag). I got pretty pissed and my friend suggested a blood test to see what is happening with me. I ordered my female hormone panel (thanks GymRat4Life) tonight at private MD and I will be taking it tomorrow.
Until I get the results back, does anyone have ANY guesses as to what the fuck is happening to me? It's like a roller coaster ride I came up and then came way back down. I'm worried about taking another shot because it doesn't seem to be making it any better. Start PCT and call it quits? Any optimistic suggestions would help. I don't need to feel any worse than I already do.
This is where it gets weird.
Week 1 was an anxious feeling with a lot good nervousness. Felt a good rush whenever I worked out during week 2. I felt GREAT in the gym and in the bed during week 3 (hello morning wood!

Then week 4 I started to feel like I was topping off when it came to "feeling on". It wasn't getting any better. Performance was not as great in the sack... So I decided to up my dosage.
Week 5 began with 1.5ml (375mg) on wednesday. Still felt like I was slowly coming down off my "good feeling" so I did my next shot a day early with 1.2 (300mg) on friday. I started to feel shitty on monday. I was getting little pangs of depression

Tonight i went to see the girlfriend and my performance, or lack of, was NOT up to par (and i usually birdie the hole). As you can imagine this is depressing but mostly maddening. (I usually get pissed in situations where people get depressed which is why the feelings of depression was a red flag). I got pretty pissed and my friend suggested a blood test to see what is happening with me. I ordered my female hormone panel (thanks GymRat4Life) tonight at private MD and I will be taking it tomorrow.
Until I get the results back, does anyone have ANY guesses as to what the fuck is happening to me? It's like a roller coaster ride I came up and then came way back down. I'm worried about taking another shot because it doesn't seem to be making it any better. Start PCT and call it quits? Any optimistic suggestions would help. I don't need to feel any worse than I already do.
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