I need help

[KILLEROFSAINTS]

jimm when i drink... i drink way too much...i also fuck women that arent my wife and throw up an pass out

so i think i probably shouldnt drink

everytime i do and fuck up...that is me not being man enuff to stand my ground


so get angry...devlop a grudge against your demons...they are not your friends...they will probly kill you and ruin your life


right now you are a pussy and not man enuff...just stop

 

[Standard Donkey]

jimm when i drink... i drink way too much...i also fuck women that arent my wife and throw up an pass out

so i think i probably shouldnt drink

everytime i do and fuck up...that is me not being man enuff to stand my ground


so get angry...devlop a grudge against your demons...they are not your friends...they will probly kill you and ruin your life


right now you are a pussy and not man enuff...just stop

 

[KILLEROFSAINTS]

whats the big deal...we all human

ill get back on track

 

[azza1971]

I've gOt sOme serious demons iv though about killing my self a few times.... Real shit.

Ive just met a nice girl she's hOt my age intO fitness and gym ect make me feel like a million bucks... But she's gone TI vistit her nan In her country for 2 weeks what have i done? Ruined all my hard training and diet by binging on cocaine and alcaohol... I feel discusted In myself....

Iv battled these demons before but they keep cOmin back I will be good fOr so long then I binge on alcohol cocaine and porn and weed If I have. Sme to help me sleeP "...


I really don't know wat TI do I spill my heart out now and I feel Like a complete loser I honestly contemplat ending this shit when I go on a binge.. I need help can anyone point me in rIght direction I can't tell these problems to my friends and family it will hurt me and them to much so I'm fuckibg letting all u in mother fuckets feel me pain this shit has been going on for years and I'm either gonna get help or end this shit the demon in my head are too much to take... Peace out every one I hope some one can Realate n help cause i feel lost right now as we speak the alcohol and drugs numb my pain but when I awake it will be there and I need a fuckin angel to save me from these demons... Can anyone relate,,

Like PAC once said this the realest shit I ever wrote and fuck I would of probly ended this shit of I Wasnt for the thought of my mother and father and family...

Has anyone felt pain like this before Cus this shit hurts real talk....

Cya

after reading all your posts, you need help, you need someone to pull the trigger??..suck that chamber bitch and blow whats left of your brain out the back of ya head, leave Retlaw alone, he is my bitch?.

 

[heckler7]

jimm when i drink... i drink way too much...i also fuck women that arent my wife and throw up an pass out

so i think i probably shouldnt drink

everytime i do and fuck up...that is me not being man enuff to stand my ground


so get angry...devlop a grudge against your demons...they are not your friends...they will probly kill you and ruin your life


right now you are a pussy and not man enuff...just stop

dude put down the booze and leave your sisters alone

 

[Standard Donkey]

whats the big deal...we all human

ill get back on track

so that's ur excuse? "we all human"?


lemme get this straight... ur fat, hairy, balding, weak, AND unfaithful? fucking shit kos is there anything u do right?

 

[azza1971]

whats the big deal...we all fat humans

ill get back on track and lose weight

spoken like a true fat fuck?..

 

[KILLEROFSAINTS]

so when r u gonna lose the weight azza?
is skinny fat your preferred body type?

 

[KILLEROFSAINTS]

so that's ur excuse? "we all human"?


lemme get this straight... ur fat, hairy, balding, weak, AND unfaithful? fucking shit kos is there anything u do right?

i dont make excuses for my decisions


and weak? dude you barely won a presing contest with a dude that no longer does presses while you are on a medicine cabinet full of drugs


i also feel your reps were bouncy


but of course you have no life due to your fucked up face an have to run shit in the ground becAUSE YOU CANT GET LAID I GUESS

 

[jimm]

I don't usually get suicidal till the blow is all gone

it had well and truley gone when i posted that shit im quite proud i could even string a sentence together let alone that fucking emotional essay hahaha

 

[jimm]

Im alive and kicking bitches!!!!!!!!

 

[jimm]

Don't think TREN is a great idea when depressed , a little test may help your libido.......back away Bro.......sober up...and its true nobody really gives a fuck about other people's problems....... many of us here [IM] know first hand about drug abuse..... we know you have to help yourself......not meaning to be cold.....

i hear you on the tren thing.. thats some serious shit and should not be used unless your head is in the right place i know this first hand coming of a tren cycle and splitting up with a girl around new years time ive NEVER felt so depressed in my life i feel like fucking mary poppins today compared to how i felt then shit...

we all got our problems and yeah most people dont give a fuck and the rest are happy you have them shoulda kept it to myself but i was wasted and just thought id tell every one here... im surpised there is some decent ppl on here tho i thought i would be negged to the ground if am honest yeah ill bounce back just a step back always hapens when your on a roll somethin comes alonf and sets you back its all good...

and to think your people came up with the english language..


idk man, i havent drunk since i was 16 and ive never done drugs.. shit still happens but it doesnt get me down. I would suggest leaving behind everything of addictive nature and hit the gym and aas harder than ever.

perhaps learn a new language? travel? spend some time out in nature.

im gonna hit the gear and the gym so fucking hard man its all i enjoy and im gonna step this shit up a gear!

as far as the drugs if u havent taken them or drank sinse 16 you cant relate really unless you have travled the road you really cant relate but thanks for your advise!

Yo man, i had my best friend off himself..never said shit to anybody and hung himself. His mom ended up od'n on drugs 3x in the next year, his pop took off and abandoned the family:.also on drugs. His little sister got pergnant at 16. What im trying to say is that the people in your life will suffer if you end it. Your family will be left to pick up the pieces..will hurt forever. Even if the broad dissed you fuck it, the real people in your life are still there..even if you've been distant. I got a good friend..we were all going through hard times when we met but hes since dedicated his life to helpin get people that need it help..he arranges all the details and all ya gotta do is let him help ya out. Life is a touchy thing..drugs will make you depressed and women will leave ya, i jus lost my girl of jus under 3 years. Ya gotta roll with the punches, get back up and try and improve yourself, set goals n meet em. Call my boy ike, even if its just to talk to him..hes the best guy i ever knew and will listen, and look out for ya if you really need somebody to..keep ya head up man

Ike
918-913-1052

Tell em cj said to give ya a shout. hes a good guy to kno, real talk

thats deep bro is this ike thing some american joke im not getting tho? ether way thanks i appreciate what you said

IF you're serious jimm, anything goes is not your best choice of places to make this thread. Either way, if I were in your shoes, it's time for a cruise, not heavy dosages while dealing with serious demonic attacks, you need to be grounded.

im cruising on test e now 300mg a week coming off now would be good for my body but terrible for my mind im staying on.

jimm


stop being a bitch

I HEAR YA

 

[Watson]

i dont give a fuck, nuke the planet, leave whats left to the roaches!

 

[Retlaw]

Im alive and kicking bitches!!!!!!!!

Now get your fucking ass to a AA meeting

 

[Standard Donkey]

i dont make excuses for my decisions


and weak? dude you barely won a presing contest with a dude that no longer does presses while you are on a medicine cabinet full of drugs


i also feel your reps were bouncy


but of course you have no life due to your fucked up face an have to run shit in the ground becAUSE YOU CANT GET LAID I GUESS

you can't bounce your reps off of thin air dumbass, if you wanna see bouncy shoulder press, check out a branch warren shoulder workout. i beat you by a few reps and you have over 30 pounds on me, i was military pressing my bodyweight, you werent.


my face may be fucked up while bloated but i sure as fuck dont have dents in it like u do + im not going bald and never will no matter what i take u jelly?

ive had plenty of girls on my jock but the fear of std's and pregnancy (rampid in my town) have kept it in my pants, u dont even have the balls to be a man and stay true to one woman..

i told you all that poor girl has no self esteem

 

[squigader]

Good to hear you're feeling better dude.

If you take one thing away from this thread, drop the drugs (anything other than AAS). We've lost too many good guys to that shit. Hit the weights too.

Please realize that happiness comes from within - by which I mean if you depend on someone else for your happiness, you will lead one fucked up life.
Best of luck bro, and don't be afraid of getting help. Too many times men are alone in this world when they need someone to talk to (we don't spill our emotions and share them with our close friends like chicks do). Good thing you've got a couple of friends here on this forum.

 

[Retlaw]

Rough Hangover - Bachelor Pukes - YouTube

 

[KILLEROFSAINTS]

you can't bounce your reps off of thin air dumbass, if you wanna see bouncy shoulder press, check out a branch warren shoulder workout. i beat you by a few reps and you have over 30 pounds on me, i was military pressing my bodyweight, you werent.


my face may be fucked up while bloated but i sure as fuck dont have dents in it like u do + im not going bald and never will no matter what i take u jelly?

ive had plenty of girls on my jock but the fear of std's and pregnancy (rampid in my town) have kept it in my pants, u dont even have the balls to be a man and stay true to one woman..

i told you all that poor girl has no self esteem

but your face also looks fucked up when leaner

 

[Diesel618]

They tell me complete abstinence from all mind-altering drugs (besides caffeine and nicotine for some reason), and thoroughly working the 12 steps with a sponsor is the only way one will feel better. Take that for what it's worth. I don't buy it. Bill W. (founding member of AA) was wildly addicted to LSD until the day he died. Little known fact.

Do drugs if you want to, but if they are making your quality of life worse, then what's the point? If you're missing meals or workouts, and/or getting depressed or obsessive-compulsive about using, then you're just paying money to ruin your life.

If everything is honkey fuckin dorry, then I suggest trying heroin. Most bang for your buck IMO.

 

[240PLUS]

Get over it and bang some sets out bra. That's what I do, because I'm on top always. I kicked that shit years ago.
If 2 PAC is your idle, id be depressed and suicidal too

 

[Standard Donkey]

but your face also looks fucked up when leaner

still better than yours


your face is just an amorphous blob completely devoid of any masculine features whatsover, you have no chin, no jawline.. nothing


plus ur gonna be completely bald soon


u mad?

 

[GreenGiant]

I've gOt sOme serious demons iv though about killing my self a few times.... Real shit.

Ive just met a nice girl she's hOt my age intO fitness and gym ect make me feel like a million bucks... But she's gone TI vistit her nan In her country for 2 weeks what have i done? Ruined all my hard training and diet by binging on cocaine and alcaohol... I feel discusted In myself....

Iv battled these demons before but they keep cOmin back I will be good fOr so long then I binge on alcohol cocaine and porn and weed If I have. Sme to help me sleeP "...


I really don't know wat TI do I spill my heart out now and I feel Like a complete loser I honestly contemplat ending this shit when I go on a binge.. I need help can anyone point me in rIght direction I can't tell these problems to my friends and family it will hurt me and them to much so I'm fuckibg letting all u in mother fuckets feel me pain this shit has been going on for years and I'm either gonna get help or end this shit the demon in my head are too much to take... Peace out every one I hope some one can Realate n help cause i feel lost right now as we speak the alcohol and drugs numb my pain but when I awake it will be there and I need a fuckin angel to save me from these demons... Can anyone relate,,

Like PAC once said this the realest shit I ever wrote and fuck I would of probly ended this shit of I Wasnt for the thought of my mother and father and family...

Has anyone felt pain like this before Cus this shit hurts real talk....

Cya

Gain maturity and take some tren.

 

[jimm]

Gain maturity and take some tren.

might just do that! research stop for some prami? ive already got the goods all stocked up for them rainy days just need something for prolactin sides if it is to arise..