Diary of a madman.....

[Pitboss]

Originally posted by Pitboss Hell I'm not even interested in sex with women right now.

Did I actually type that?? Okay let me think about this, maybe sleep on it and see what I have to say in the morning.

 

[Pitboss]

Originally posted by Pitboss
Did I actually type that?? Okay let me think about this, maybe sleep on it and see what I have to say in the morning.

Okay I slept on that..... I woke up horny as hell and thinking about women running their hands and mouths all over my body... so sex with women is cool but that's it.


Still not talking. She came home didn't say a word and neither did I. I went to the bedroom to get ready for bed and she came in asking if I was just being an asshole or stubborn. I said I don't feel I did anything wrong. She left.

Gonna be a long day..... but at least it will be a long day with Carter

 

[Pitboss]

Okay so Carter and I went shopping. I needed a new pair of Killer Loop sun glasses.. hey ya got to ready for the sunny winter days ahead , a couple of t-shirts and I also picked up a hand held recorder. I've always wanted to try to write a book or novels or something but can't seem to ever get whats in my head on paper. But I did find that I can talk to myself about it, almost like telling a story so who knows talk and then type??? Yeah so I talk to myself.. LOL

I also bought Amanda a t-shirt and a cute little necklace. She likes wearing necklaces.. my way of kiss and make up I guess. I came home left them on the bed for her to find. When Carter and I got home I kissed her and said sorry. Later when she found her gifts she came downstairs and said "Thank you" and that was it. Hasn't talked to me since. Gee so who's being stubborn now, or is that her just being a bitch?

Oh well. You love and learn I guess.

 

[Pitboss]

Well it's uhm 2:30 am and I'mfucking drunk!!!! I;m etting ,,,,, eting eatinmg damn eating jack inm tyhe box asjum,bo hjac ...... LoL

a jumbo jack with cheese and taquitos!!!!!!

Somewhere I lost 2 $100 bills... that's still giving me the chcuckles/

Okay I' m donme

 

[Pitboss]

OH fuck amanda's gonna be piiseseed,,,,, hmm pissed at me!!!! Guess I;ll just crash on the couch....

Oh I had 5 bass ales and 7 or 8, I los tcount Vpdka shots.. hmm Vodka shots.

 

[Pitboss]

Oh what a glorious morning.... my whole body hurts and the thought of food doesn't sit well with my tummy.

Need to add 3 Sour apples to the list and those Vodka's were all doubles.

Around 4:am I was being hit with a pillow and a screaming blonde woman. Took me a minute then I realized that was a Amanda hitting me. Not sure where we are going now.. my guess seperate ways.

More to follow.

 

[naturaltan]

Originally posted by Pitboss
Around 4:am I was being hit with a pillow and a screaming blonde woman. Took me a minute then I realized that was a Amanda hitting me. Not sure where we are going now.. my guess seperate ways.

More to follow.

when I started reading this, I was getting ready for a porn-type, then I read the last part of the sentence. Hope everything works out for the best PB.

 

[Pitboss]

Originally posted by naturaltan
when I started reading this, I was getting ready for a porn-type, then I read the last part of the sentence. Hope everything works out for the best PB.

We finally sat down yesterday and hashed things out. So as I said in my message to her last night on my way to work.. "I'm looking forward to tomorrow. It's another day and hopefully a fresh start for us"

Had good old fashuioned make up sex when I got home.. so that's a good way to start a new day.

I found my $200.00

Porterhouser steak with brocholi, salad with ranch. 6 Bass Ales, 10 Double Vodka's, 5 Sour apples.. about 106.00.. then a few rounds for friends... or at least by the end of the night they were my newly found friends. Just wish I knew if they were male or female.. LOL and a heafty tip for my friend Pete the bartender.

My body still aches. Stomach still doing flips and getting food down isn't that easy still....... blah

 

[naturaltan]

ahhhh ... nothing like make up sex!!

Sounds like it was quite a night. Was Amanda working while you were partaking of a few beverages?

 

[Pitboss]

She qwas supposed to be working but got off early.. like 4 hours early. We weren't on very good talking terms at this point of the day.. or at least I thought we weren't she thought otherwise.

 

[ALBOB]

Originally posted by Pitboss Hell I'm not even interested in sex with women right now.

So does that mean you've switched teams? Kuso's gonna be so happy.

 

[Fade]

Yuck PB. Your a weenie wistler?

 

[Erilaya]

PB.. Can I give you a Big ole Hug!!! Nice to know or at least comforting to know that I am not the only one that has a hard time in a relationship.. Hubs and I got into it so bad today I Snapped and went at him and put him to the wall.. punches l swear I have never allowed anyone to get my that riled up since I was 19 yrs old.. I just flipped.. needless to say I realized what I was doing just as quick as I slammed him and spun around and went intot the bathroom banged up the walls and screamed for a few minutes.. ( I swear He is Dense and Hurtful when we get into it and I just could not take the crap that was coming out his mouth.. I say something and then he says something twice as hateful and cuts in twice as deep.. )

We did finally hash it out further today and came to some soltuijons for the conflict but we shall see how it goes..... in 2 weeks we will have been together since Oct 12th of '98 .. bet he forgets or doesn't even remember.. shiat!
anyway I did not mean for this to turn into an epic I just wanted to share that you are NOT alone..

Its DAMN HARD WORK!!

sigh

I hurt my arm and I have been in tears all day.. IT SUX!!

So hey anytime you wanna talk just PM me my friend.

be well

But I am so tickled to hear you had wonderful time spent with Carter!

hugs. I need a nap..
Erilay'a

 

[Pitboss]

Dear Diary,

My monitor went out on me. It was only a year old .. anyhow that's why I hadn't been around for about 2 days. So let me catch up on what's been going on.

So............... and ............... amazing huh?

 

[ALBOB]

Originally posted by Pitboss So............... and ............... amazing huh?

WOW!!! YOu had me on the edge of my seat the whole time.

 

[Pitboss]

Originally posted by Erilaya
Its DAMN HARD WORK!!

hugs. I need a nap..
Erilay'a

It's is hard work. Bit honestly it should be that hard. At least that's how I feel. My 11 year relationship with my ex was never as hard as the last 6 months have been with Amanda. Kind of makes me have to really wonder why I gave up what I did... I know why but I'm to embarrassed to say...

Anyhow. We seemed to have worked things out agian.. as always. each day is a new day and it brings happiness, or anger or just another hum drum day.. LOL


Thanks for opening up here Eri and thanks for the support.

XXX
PB

 

[Pitboss]

Dear Diary, part II

First I am totally ignoring the fool that keeps posting in my diary. He has left me sitting by my phone for over 2 months now waiting for a phone call. I have spent thousands of dollars with the best Witch Doctors I can find on the west coast and they have cast their spell. Albob will be sent to Saudi Arabia come March 2003. His retirement will be delayed and the Air Force will extend his commitment... I love it when they do that!!

Hey you wanted to live in desert right? Well I have arranged it.. he he



...........

Well my ex has informed me she can't handle living with her parents any longer. I can't blame her. Her parents, especially her dad can be total assholes. The newest thing that they did that broke the camels back.. did I just call my ex a camel?? LOL Patty and Carter went and spent the evening wiht her new friend/boy friend/ I haven't a clue... but he is a nice guy and has a 4 year old daughter. Little cutie pie... anyhow she got home around 11pm Satuday night and then Sunday her dad laid into her about her staying out too late, and she's a single mother and needs to show more responsibility.... so a curfew has been enforced??? She's 35 years old!!! Well that's a latin family for ya.

So she is moving out. Moving to an area called South Bay. I think from my place to hers it will be about 60-70 miles and with traffic in LA that's a good 2 hour drive. She is going to have to compromise and meet me half way on some days.

I'm glad she is out of there. She'll be less stressed with them constantly around plus they really, really spoil Carter and then we have to correct their doings... but isn't that what Grand Parents do?

 

[ALBOB]

Originally posted by Pitboss First I am totally ignoring the fool that keeps posting in my diary. He has left me sitting by my phone for over 2 months now waiting for a phone call. I have spent thousands of dollars with the best Witch Doctors I can find on the west coast and they have cast their spell. Albob will be sent to Saudi Arabia come March 2003. His retirement will be delayed and the Air Force will extend his commitment... I love it when they do that!!

Yeah, by reading your diary I can tell you spend every waking moment by the phone. Well, after tomorrow's big event I'll be stuck at home for a month so I'll be able to call you EVERY FREAKIN' DAY!!!

Extend my enlistment? Delay my retirement? Send me to Saudi???

DIE YOU BASTARD SCUM!!!

(Did that sound too much like Irontime?)

 

[Pitboss]

Found a pic from last year, shoudl be about November 1st. I do believe I was at 178lbs and probably around 12-13% BF. Funny I look at that pic and I swear I looked bigger a year ago than I do now.

 

[Pitboss]

and this one gives my arms some justice. Doesn't do a damn thing for my chest..

 

[Burner02]

you got pretty lean back on that challenge. Maybe just the more ripped look is making you think that way?

 

[Pitboss]

Okay so good stuff and some stuuf I'm not to comfortable with...

First off my Ex let me have Carter for an over nighter, this wasn't supposed to happen until he turns 2 in January. It was something we had both agreed on.. no I did not get much sleep. Yes it was a lot of work. I haven't had my son over night since Decemeber of last year and that really didn't count. Did I enjoy it? Hell yes!!! He woke up around 1am and wanted to coem into the bed with Amanda and I. I went to get him and he freaked and went straight to Amanda and curled up against her. It was too cute. Amanda commented later about what would you expect from a baby when it's the middle of the night and some big, near naked man is reaching for you.. LOL

He didn't keep me up much I had a bigger role in that.

His mother moved out of her parents house into a converted garage, more like a guest house with it's own little yard. That's cool and all but the neighbor hood is, well it's bad. She really must have been desperate to get away from her parents to move to the South Bay. Her neighbor has a low rider with the South Bay logo on the back window. Car parts in the front yard... maybe I'm just freaking out but damn if something ever happened to her or Carter how could I live with that??

It's about a 2 hour drive to her place with traffic. On the way back it took a little over an hour, less traffic. I was pretty jealous of Sir Carter in the back seat sleeping the whole ride home.. LOL

So anyhow. I guess I'm going through a lot of guilt lately. The more I spend with him the guilter I feel. And now with her moving to that area well I feel really guilty. It's all my doing, all of this. It was my choice with this whole divorce thing. Thank God I get to see Dr. Amy on Monday... actually looking forward to seeing her. It's ncie to be able to just talk without getting flack from others.

 

[Pitboss]

Originally posted by Burner02
you got pretty lean back on that challenge. Maybe just the more ripped look is making you think that way?

You remember that huh? I hated that!!! I went 32 days, dropped 14lbs and felt like crap!! LOL


Although I was pretty satisfied with my back...

Here is my post from MM

Can't due this diet anymore Not only is my body completey physically drained my mind is mush. I know I only have 3 day left but I just don't have the desire to go to the gym, have no energy or strength to lift... so I'll take the rest of the week off and maybe the weekend too.

So end result??? Well after 32 days I lost 13.5 pounds, ended up at 173... ouch. My BF%... a good guess would around 12%. Here's the only pic I'll post. I should have at least tried to get a good pump first but oh well not like I'm gonna have this same look a month from now...

The pic on the left was taken on Sept 12, 2001 @ 187 lbs. The pic on the right was taken October 16, 2001 @ 173 lbs. Look Mom you can almost start to see abs...

 

[Pitboss]

I actually started to lean up pretty quick. Here's my back pic after only 16 days of my diet..

 

[Burner02]

well, can you redo a modified diet like that? Just take it a bit more easy on the cutting?
I meanl, you looked great at teh end, wished I could have looked like that...I'm just weak in the food dicipline area..

 

[Burner02]

good back shot.
Kinda funny, I was doing pull downs a few weeks ago. There is a mirror on the wall in front of me and one on the opposing wall. I had on a tank top that bared a good bit of my back. I wa watching my muscles contract in the mirrors and was like, wow...I've got back muscles! Now all I need to do is get this layer of insulation stipped off.....

 

[Pitboss]

Originally posted by Burner02
good back shot.
Kinda funny, I was doing pull downs a few weeks ago. There is a mirror on the wall in front of me and one on the opposing wall. I had on a tank top that bared a good bit of my back. I wa watching my muscles contract in the mirrors and was like, wow...I've got back muscles! Now all I need to do is get this layer of insulation stipped off.....

Back is the hardest group to work. I wish I had a mirror to watch every move. It so helps to be able to isolate them.

As far as getting "leaner". Woouldn't take much for me to get there. Add some cardio as I don't do any and knock out the ice cream and beer...

 

[Pitboss]

So what did Carter do at dads today???

Hmm made a huge mess of the living room...

 

[Burner02]

"and knock out the ice cream and beer... "

ditto...


I'm under my two month mark before I go back to Mexico....
senioritas and margaritas!
I've got ten pounds to burn off....gotta hit that ellitical!

 

[Pitboss]

then slept it off in my favorite sleeping position... Learned this one from dad himself