Monstar sweetie, like everybody's telling me, just do it, don't keep saying you'll do it, just do it. Bring up your calories and clean foods and carbs enough that you dont want to binge.
Thanks Jilly Sapphy Nt and Jenny! I am so happy you guys believe in me.

LOVE the support, love you guys. You are all really special to me
I told my mom in the car that I really, truly need to diet, and she knows I've gained a lot of weight. I told her I really need her help and she agreed to help me as best as she can. I tried to explain how much her support matters to me, and she's cool with it. So at least now she won't be buying any more ice cream
I was so upset, I went to the derm today and I HAVE to go on birth control to go on accutane, virgin or not

I am scared of gaining more weight

Anybody know which ones are good to not gain weight?
m1 1/2c oats, lc yogurt w F1 mixed in
m2 roast chix, salad, vinegar, coffee w lc milk
m3 cottage cheese w all bran (yum!)
m4 chix, salad, veggies, dressing
m5 pork chop, salad, coffee w milk