Greeky's Baby Steps

[fantasma62]

Tio, you are wonderful! I guess I do have a spark, right now it's just running a little dim and I need to get it goin again. I get attached to people who care about me and I care about, I like bein called nena too

For a while, after my worst period of depression, I developed this razor sharp wit, I mean it was ridiculous. I had comeback after comeback after comeback. I alienated some people that way, but humor has been one of my ways to stay sane and lately I haven't been relying on it nearly as much as I used to. I'll admit my wit isnt what it was and I attribute that to not needing it as much, but I definately need to stop boiling inside when somebody hurts me and just let it out! That's why I crack and it sucks when I am at work and I can not stop crying for an hour! That was such a bad day. But I am feeling better now and you are my favorite uncle

I am honored to be considered your favorite uncle. Truly honored

 

[fantasma62]

You nailed it with the comment about not getting the body you want until you stop beating yourself up... that's so true.
Thanks for the 'awesome body' comments... I'd be willing to dig out my 'fat bastard' pics from a little over a year ago to share with you if it will make you feel any better... I made a huge difference in 7 weeks of die hard training once I finally believed that I could do anything I put my mind to and put my focus where it needed to be.
Remember you too ARE a knockout!!!

Aaah....er....you are not Fat Bastard. I am Fat Bastard....check out my first journal....

 

[fantasma62]

Brit and Saph, again I have trouble believing two knockouts with awesome bodies can have had self esteem problems, but I guess we all do to some extent and the truth is I WONT get the body I want til I STOP beating myself up! Thanks for the insights ladies

Ah, excuse me, two knockouts? TWO? Did you not see my sexy toppless picture in my gallery

 

[greekblondechic]

Britchick, It would be awesome of you if you would share those pics, because transformations are always inspiring to people like me who have never been in shape, but ONLY if you feel comfortable doing so.

NT, not sure I can do much in two months, fat loss has always been slow, but I can try! BTW, ty for calling me a goddess

Thanks Jilly! Your support is always appreciated! See meals below

TY Sapphy..what ethnicity are you? You are "fill in the blank" goddess!

Thanks Jenny!!!!

Tio I meant it too, I am not close with ANY of my real uncles! And I'm sorry but your kids are the knockouts.. I went to look at my gorgeous nephew and niece before to make myself smile.. and it worked! (Of course )

I have a big smile on my face even tho I am mad at my mom right now. I stormed off to the gym and did 1 hr cardio. I did two 5 min stints on the stairwell- thats HARD!

m1 3/4c oats sf syr lc yogurt a liiittle cereal
m2 ~2oz ham~1oz pork, apple, coffee w lc skim sf jello (ty to jilly) I mixed lemon and strawberry mmm strawberry lemonade!
m3 1/2c oats w straws, 1.5c lc skim w straws blended w ice into a smoothie! (gonna make some extra, pour into cups n freeze for treats)
m4 2 lc granola bars
m5 ~2oz pork, broiled fish, dandelions, 4 straws

I cant wait, I dont have to work tomorrow so I finally get to go out DANCING!!! First time in a while, at least a month!

 

[naturaltan]

NT, not sure I can do much in two months, fat loss has always been slow, but I can try! BTW, ty for calling me a goddess

trying is all anyone can ask of you. You know the formula ... what you put in is what you get out. I'm not saying you'll have similar results ... but I guarantee that if you were to put 2 months of solid work and diet in, you'd see results.

 

[Jill]

Im with Nt...Nt you always have great advice!

I can already see you are happier! Have fun dancing, Im staying home tonight, as usual.

Im gonna make some sf jello when i get home at 5:30.

 

[greekblondechic]

I know..some results is better than no results!

Jilly, I was happier and then I had another big fight with my dad so I was really upset, but I am ok today and trying to thicken up my skin cuz I am too sensitive.

Add to yesterday: forgot the slice of mg bread at dinner, also had coffee w cream and 3 drinks while i was out, boy was i tipsy! good thing my friend tony kept this one guy away from me he was so creepy!

today:
m1 1/2c oats sf syr, lc yogurt w handful F1 few bites choc chip pancake
m2 2 slices mg toast ham, 1 egg, whites, apple, 4 straws
m3
m4
m5

 

[Jill]

Who makes all these choc chip pancakes? Are they made from scratch?

 

[greekblondechic]

Yes, my mom and sister make them about 1-2x a week, they use pancake mix so its not exactly from scratch, but I find if I allow myself to have a few bites, I dont end up devouring the whole thing in the middle of the night

 

[Jill]

Hey sunshine!!! I rarely drink alcohol. What r ya doing today?

 

[greekblondechic]

Cleaning my house, then I'm not sure what I'm doing later, I might go to a greek festival with my family, or I may go out with friends, but I cant be out late, have to work tomorrow morning. You?

BTW, dunno about being sunshine.. but my cloud isnt as dark as usual the day after a fight with my dad.. Im trying! Ok, hows this Im partly sunny

 

[Jill]

Working till 4:30, going home and cooking chix, probabaly just stayin in as usual. Gotta get up at 6am tomorrow, to train before work

 

[dalila]

hey greeky, 3 drinks and tipsy?? I thought the greeks drank Uzzo like it was water? LOL Glad you went out and had good time! I went dancing too on saturday!! Was doing Salsa till 4.00 in the morning!! Pretty good Cuban band and all.... I wish we had more weekends in a week! LOL

 

[fantasma62]

hey greeky, 3 drinks and tipsy?? I thought the greeks drank Uzzo like it was water? LOL Glad you went out and had good time! I went dancing too on saturday!! Was doing Salsa till 4.00 in the morning!! Pretty good Cuban band and all.... I wish we had more weekends in a week! LOL

Salsa Dalila? I am Cuban and I'm not very good at it. Figure that one out. My wife loves dancing. I just do it to make her happy. In fact, she taught me how to dance salsa and merengue....Go figure....

Greeky, 3 drinks and out? C'mon now, if you are my "sobrina" (niece in spanish), you have to have certain tolerance for drinks
Listen your dad is a guy. Us guys don't have a good sense of timing during aunt flo's visit. We tend to piss ya'll off at the wrongest of times. I have learned when my wife's, and as much as I hate to say it, my sister's and my mom's "time" is so that I stay the hell away....
Do you want to get your dad off your case fast? Tell him is that time of the month has arrived and watch him squirm.... I am sure that if my daughter started telling me about that, I'd be squirming too. When it comes to our daughters, we can just go without knowing that.....

 

[dalila]

Salsa Dalila? I am Cuban and I'm not very good at it. Figure that one out. My wife loves dancing. I just do it to make her happy. In fact, she taught me how to dance salsa and merengue....Go figure....

Greeky, 3 drinks and out? C'mon now, if you are my "sobrina" (niece in spanish), you have to have certain tolerance for drinks
Listen your dad is a guy. Us guys don't have a good sense of timing during aunt flo's visit. We tend to piss ya'll off at the wrongest of times. I have learned when my wife's, and as much as I hate to say it, my sister's and my mom's "time" is so that I stay the hell away....
Do you want to get your dad off your case fast? Tell him is that time of the month has arrived and watch him squirm.... I am sure that if my daughter started telling me about that, I'd be squirming too. When it comes to our daughters, we can just go without knowing that.....

Ok Tony so you're Cuban but don't like salsa and don't drinks coffee?! LOL But I do understand you, lots of men just don't like dancing, regardless of their ethnicity. Greeky, that's my girl, thicken that skin, and just say, whatever!!

 

[greekblondechic]

jilly- you're such a trooper!!

dalila.. i can not hold my liquor.. i am silly after one drink most of the time, but i had two one right after the other and it really hit me, and then i had the third to prolong the effect

tio i cant tell my dad that, hes probably gonna be like, so what? oh well...

dont remember rest of yesterdays diet, i think it was 1 lc granola bar, 1/2c oats, a salad with chix and honey mustard, a ginger ale (out w none of my tummy stuff to feel better) coffee w milk 1 packet sugar (no subs) sf ff puddin w F1

went to a greek festival last night danced a bit, had fun except for somebody pissing me off and getting upset seein my gorgeous perfect cousin

today.. i woke up at 9, which is when i was supposed to be at work by! got there by 930 lol

m1 2 lc granola bars
m2 coffee w milk, mints
m3 half chix salad w dressing on side
m4 3/4c oats w sf syr, straws, sf ff pudding w F1
m5 apple, light frap, coffee w milk
m6 chicken, salad, lite dressing, a lil broccoli, 1/2 lc yogurt
m7 lc granola bar, tons F1 w some lc milk, lots straws and blues, lc juice (this meal shouldve never happened!)

i jumped on the F1 bandwagon..and eating it like its goin out of style! been mixing it with sf ff pudding for a snack/treat thats filling.. but prob eating way too much of it.. i dunno how bad that is considering its mostly fiber but i easily eat 3-4 handfuls at a time.. is that ok lol

 

[Jill]

YAAAAAAAAAA F1!! Dont eat too much cause I guarantee it will upset your tummy. I usually dont eat more than 1C a day. Trust me, a too much F1 tummyache is a bad one.

Try my F1 pancakes, I sware you will fall in love them.

 

[Novo]

Try my F1 pancakes, I sware you will fall in love them

I second that, you've GOT to try them

They're currently my fave food and it's a struggle not to have them every meal! I'm VERY grateful to Jill for the idea

 

[Jill]

I second that, you've GOT to try them

They're currently my fave food and it's a struggle not to have them every meal! I'm VERY grateful to Jill for the idea

Make sure to leave them a little raw and gooey in the middle. Its easy to dry em out, then they taste like cardboard.

 

[Novo]

Yuppers - gooey is good (and plenty of baking soda, I get 'em kind of frothy ... and melty blueberries ... and ... OK, I'll hush now!)

 

[greekblondechic]

guess who has a tummyache?

if its the recipe i found, its 1/2c F1, 2 ew, blues and 1 scoop vanilla protein, but i dont have any vanilla protein powder.. altho i do miss my oaties and ew pancakes and i just bought cottage cheese again to see if i can stomach it now, altho i never used it in pancakes. if i am not lazy tomorrow ill try something

 

[Jill]

He he just for you
http://www.ironmagazineforums.com/showthread.php?p=751956#post751956

 

[greekblondechic]

thanks jilly..but can i make them without protein powder??

btw.. ate too much again today

 

[Sapphire]

Britchick, It would be awesome of you if you would share those pics, because transformations are always inspiring to people like me who have never been in shape, but ONLY if you feel comfortable doing so.

NT, not sure I can do much in two months, fat loss has always been slow, but I can try! BTW, ty for calling me a goddess

Thanks Jilly! Your support is always appreciated! See meals below

TY Sapphy..what ethnicity are you? You are "fill in the blank" goddess!

Hi GBC aka the greek goddess!
I am half italian, half irish. Ahhh.. no wonder why I like to drink! J/K, ahh no I am not. I love wine, red only.

If it makes you feel better, I have been eating terribly the last few days.. oh well. I will try to eat better this week.

How was your weekend?

 

[Velvet]

Good morning sweets! Glad to see you got out and had some fun dancing!!! What's on the agenda today?

 

[fantasma62]

thanks jilly..but can i make them without protein powder??

btw.. ate too much again today

Hi nena,

My first thought to that would be "SO?".
Ok, so you ate too much. You don't think about yesterday and kick ass today. Get back on the horse, and you do that as many times as you have to do it
I'll be checking on you later. Gotta get back to work..

 

[greekblondechic]

my weekend was ok sapphy, but overall not as much dancing as id like!

velvet, today.. i SHOULD look for jobs since a possible one has not been calling me back even tho they wanted to set up an interview

tio ADD to yesterday a few slices ham and a bowl of broccoli.. i hate when I am hungry and it doesnt go away! i am taking in way too many calories on a day to day basis tho and i am going to gain weight or if nothing else not lose any weight which is just as bad!

m1 oats, ews, sf syr lc juice, straws
m2 lc milk F1 cottage cheese apple
m3 tons of choc lc milk and F1, a bit of popcorn

workout: legs, 20min cardio

m4 salad w lite dr, pork chops, light frap

 

[Jill]

Ok. If you are concerned about cals, I suggest counting them JUST for a couple days on fitday. I know you hate to but this is the only way we will be able to see if your cals are too high. Please?

I like that cute guy in my journal. Put more. Oh, and thanks for keeping my old journal updated for VE. Gym today for ya?

 

[fantasma62]

my weekend was ok sapphy, but overall not as much dancing as id like!

velvet, today.. i SHOULD look for jobs since a possible one has not been calling me back even tho they wanted to set up an interview

tio ADD to yesterday a few slices ham and a bowl of broccoli.. i hate when I am hungry and it doesnt go away! i am taking in way too many calories on a day to day basis tho and i am going to gain weight or if nothing else not lose any weight which is just as bad!

m1 oats, ews, sf syr lc juice, straws
m2
m3
m4
m5

Be happy that you at least can eat broccoli....I can't even see it in pictures...

 

[greekblondechic]

jilly i said my cals too high bc i know i was eating too much..i can usually tell when they r too high or not but i cant measure exact unless i weigh foods! congrats bout ur weight princess

gym : legs and 20min cardio.. squatted 85lbs yay, soon to be 100!

broccoli usually upsets my tummy but i was stiiillll hungry so i ate it!