I've gOt sOme serious demons iv though about killing my self a few times.... Real shit.
Ive just met a nice girl she's hOt my age intO fitness and gym ect make me feel like a million bucks... But she's gone TI vistit her nan In her country for 2 weeks what have i done? Ruined all my hard training and diet by binging on cocaine and alcaohol... I feel discusted In myself....
Iv battled these demons before but they keep cOmin back I will be good fOr so long then I binge on alcohol cocaine and porn and weed If I have. Sme to help me sleeP "...
I really don't know wat TI do I spill my heart out now and I feel Like a complete loser I honestly contemplat ending this shit when I go on a binge.. I need help can anyone point me in rIght direction I can't tell these problems to my friends and family it will hurt me and them to much so I'm fuckibg letting all u in mother fuckets feel me pain this shit has been going on for years and I'm either gonna get help or end this shit the demon in my head are too much to take... Peace out every one I hope some one can Realate n help cause i feel lost right now as we speak the alcohol and drugs numb my pain but when I awake it will be there and I need a fuckin angel to save me from these demons... Can anyone relate,,
Like PAC once said this the realest shit I ever wrote and fuck I would of probly ended this shit of I Wasnt for the thought of my mother and father and family...
Has anyone felt pain like this before Cus this shit hurts real talk....
Cya
Ive just met a nice girl she's hOt my age intO fitness and gym ect make me feel like a million bucks... But she's gone TI vistit her nan In her country for 2 weeks what have i done? Ruined all my hard training and diet by binging on cocaine and alcaohol... I feel discusted In myself....
Iv battled these demons before but they keep cOmin back I will be good fOr so long then I binge on alcohol cocaine and porn and weed If I have. Sme to help me sleeP "...
I really don't know wat TI do I spill my heart out now and I feel Like a complete loser I honestly contemplat ending this shit when I go on a binge.. I need help can anyone point me in rIght direction I can't tell these problems to my friends and family it will hurt me and them to much so I'm fuckibg letting all u in mother fuckets feel me pain this shit has been going on for years and I'm either gonna get help or end this shit the demon in my head are too much to take... Peace out every one I hope some one can Realate n help cause i feel lost right now as we speak the alcohol and drugs numb my pain but when I awake it will be there and I need a fuckin angel to save me from these demons... Can anyone relate,,
Like PAC once said this the realest shit I ever wrote and fuck I would of probly ended this shit of I Wasnt for the thought of my mother and father and family...
Has anyone felt pain like this before Cus this shit hurts real talk....
Cya