I just realized after looking some of these topics over and after visiting w8's website and seeing her, how hard she trains and all of the other girls in the fitness comp. pictures, that I am......a Lesbian.....KIDDING (you already knew that!) No really, I will NEVER be a fitness model or anything along those lines and it hurts to know that...it really does. I want it so bad, but I guess not bad enough b/c I don't train anymore or eat right or anything. Plus I don't tan so...I am just screwed huh? For some reason this all hit a sore spot and it really upsets me. I want so much to look like all those other girls but I haven't even tried. You know why? Because I know no matter how hard I work at it...I will never achieve it. I know that my body will never look like that...
Well, life goes on right? Besides, I don't have time for it...I have too much going on right now...
