Intense Desire........

[david]

Hey Ba-beh!

Good hearing from you (voice-wise) last night! I hope what I said "food-wise" helps you a little better. Hey, it's worth a shot and if all else fails, then you can revert back to what you we're doing! Also, my advice of eat first upon waking, shuffling the kids off to their destination and then, DEVOTE your cardio/workout for an hour or so. Guess what? You get to eat 20 mins afterwards! Lastly, NO COMPUTER after the kids are off either!!! Trust me, you'll thank me for that!

NOW, what was that phrase I kept saying to you last night??

OK, getting back to YOU!!

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by atherjen
make those small changes as you can. they'll pay off all together. the oats would be a much better choice after training. the banana(fructose) is going to replinish liver glycogen stores first rather than muscle. adding another scoop of protein like you said is easy and not too filling. and try to get in those fishoil caps! need to get some more healthy fats in there!
it takes time to get things right! your doing good!

Jen- Thanks honey, I'll do just that, add the extra scoop and oatmeal (I love oatmeal) Someone told me it's better to take fish oil on an empty stomach, it's absorbed better, what do you think????

Heather- Glad your doing better, I'll be so glad when this sickness is out of my house, my little Shauny is sick now........ I'm going to bleach the hell out of my house today, hehe, I use bleach on everything, even my dishes

Happy Saturday to you too


Kinda blew off my training/diet yesterday and I haven't started today out good either, I'll do better for the rest of the day, but I'm going to stay low key and rest later.........really need to get better.

"JMT"
We're going to Florida in about 3 weeks, the time crept up on me so fast, my head is saying switch to Keto for the next 3 weeks, feeling very discouraged, probably cuz of being sick and tired, I can't wait for some warm weather though, it's been so cold, below zero and with the wind chill, it was like -40 degrees, brrrrrrrr..........I think it will be a good 3 week vacation, and I really really need it....

Going to do some real soul searching while away, something about sitting on a beach by the ocean in the sun, almost speaks to your soul, or up on a mountain top

I have lots to consider, turning 40 soon, I didn't think it would change anything about me, but it is, almost like starting a new chapter in my book of life, and I am so ready for it, life can be very confusing at times, I've always believed things happen for a reason in my life, I do question it sometimes but usually give it time to reveal what it is I'm suppose to learn, but once in a while I don't want to go to the school of life, I just want to hang out at recess.......

Anyway, for those of you that don't know me I post "JMT" sometimes, and it's usually really long, haha, this is a short one just my way of thinking and looking at what's in my head..........


OK going to douche out my house.........

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by david
Hey Ba-beh!

Good hearing from you (voice-wise) last night! I hope what I said "food-wise" helps you a little better. Hey, it's worth a shot and if all else fails, then you can revert back to what you we're doing! Also, my advice of eat first upon waking, shuffling the kids off to their destination and then, DEVOTE your cardio/workout for an hour or so. Guess what? You get to eat 20 mins afterwards! Lastly, NO COMPUTER after the kids are off either!!! Trust me, you'll thank me for that!

NOW, what was that phrase I kept saying to you last night??

OK, getting back to YOU!!

LMAO Yep I even made a little schedule for myself regarding my daily routine, something about list they seem to help me alot, ever see the movie "Colored Purple" I think that's the full title, Oprah was in it, well one of the girls was learning to read so she had little notes all over the place with the word written on it for each thing the note was attached to, anyway, maybe I should do that, hahaha, I've always been a visual/hands on learner, know what I mean................trust you isn't that what all men say, LMAO, j/k

And the one thing we talked about with your newest endeavor, I say "Go for it" life is way to short to stand around thinking about "IF"...........TTYL, have a great day honey

 

[katie64]

Well I've had a real shitty weekend diet and training wise, always starting over after the weekends, that's my new mini-goal to actually make it through the weekend as planned.......I'm going to be off line for a few days, chat with ya when I get back, someone is coming to visit it's ok probably the last time..........

I've decided to fast tomorrow (Monday)......need to clean out and meditate, I've actually never made it a whole day, I crack around 8pm, proabably should go to bed at that time, then I would make it, the meditation is something I've done for years, really helps me get centered, if I could only think of doing it b4 I feel totally whacked out.

Anyway, I've decided to go back to my Keto, I'm sure alot of you don't think it's good for me but it works very well, I will carb up on Sundays as previously planned, my focus for the next few weeks will be on my diet, I will continue training, definitely cardio, but I will not freak out if I miss a day, my w8 loss is my first goal, training my body to get back in shape is my second goal, I know they work together but this is the way it has to be for me right now I know my plan(goals) don't seem to fit at a BB board, I probably don't even belong here but this was the first board I came to, plus my eventual plan is to possibly BB and even if I don't do it, I want to look like I do, and NO I'm not whining, just prioritizing..

 

[Sapphire]

Originally posted by katie64
Well I've had a real shitty weekend diet and training wise, always starting over after the weekends, that's my new mini-goal to actually make it through the weekend as planned.......I'm going to be off line for a few days, chat with ya when I get back, someone is coming to visit it's ok probably the last time..........

I've decided to fast tomorrow (Monday)......need to clean out and meditate, I've actually never made it a whole day, I crack around 8pm, proabably should go to bed at that time, then I would make it, the meditation is something I've done for years, really helps me get centered, if I could only think of doing it b4 I feel totally whacked out.

Anyway, I've decided to go back to my Keto, I'm sure alot of you don't think it's good for me but it works very well, I will carb up on Sundays as previously planned, my focus for the next few weeks will be on my diet, I will continue training, definitely cardio, but I will not freak out if I miss a day, my w8 loss is my first goal, training my body to get back in shape is my second goal, I know they work together but this is the way it has to be for me right now I know my plan(goals) don't seem to fit at a BB board, I probably don't even belong here but this was the first board I came to, plus my eventual plan is to possibly BB and even if I don't do it, I want to look like I do, and NO I'm not whining, just prioritizing..

Good luck Hun, my sweetie is very big into fasting and detoxing. Not for me, I need to eat, but he has fasted for 30 days once. He believes it cleanses his body and mind.... You should do what works for YOU... Let me know how it goes... Sapph

 

[atherjen]

Good luck with your new diet and such. As Sapp said, its finding what works for YOU (#1)

 

[david]

FYI.

Hello everyone!

Katie wanted me to tell you that she has not and is not going anywhere. She is just taking a few days to take care of some personal things!

She'll be back!

 

[atherjen]

Tell her that we will miss her David! Hope all is well

 

[katie64]

Wow, everyone has new avi's, I'm back from the week from HELL

Will post diet and training starting tomorrow, hopefully everything will be back to normal now........

 

[nikegurl]

glad to see you back.

i can really relate to things falling apart on weekends and in my case it's not 'cause i'm out having crazy fun or partying. it's just the change in routine that throws me. i always seem to miss meals on weekends and THAT is the thing most likely to lead to a cheat for me.

but enough about me....hope you're doing ok.

 

[katie64]

Thanks NG, my week was actually pretty good diet and training wise, just personal stuff going on, which is now over, the paths we tend to choose in life seem to lead to harder learning lessons than one can handle, at least they do for me, hope your well honey.

I really missed everyone this week, IM is a huge support network for me, I think I was actually going through withdrawals, haha

 

[atherjen]

Hey Katie! soo glad to have you back and to hear that all is well! we missed you hun!

 

[katie64]

I'll be doing the TKD diet, which as you know I will be carbing up after w/o's, I think that's the only time I have to do it, after this I'm not fucking with my diet anymore, and I like my training so that stays as is, as far as reaching certain goals on my b-day, it's not going to happen but I will continue to strive for personal mini-goals to be reached monthly, breaking it down and simplifying it even more, and I really can't wait to get to Florida, my Mom says the weather is great

And personally, this week has been rather traumatic for me, so my journal may fill up with emotional talk or I may just let it go, I'll hope for the latter............

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by atherjen
Hey Katie! soo glad to have you back and to hear that all is well! we missed you hun!

Thank you sweetheart, can't wait to go read your new journal, so glad you started one

It's weird everyone just says this is the internet and I even say it, but you really do get attached to people here, well at least I do. so I'm happy to be back

 

[atherjen]

we're always here to listen and offer support hun! dont ever forget that!

I LOVE your attitude towards making more simple mini goals.! Behind you all the way!
how long do you plan on runnning a TKD for?

 

[Sapphire]

Glad you are back Katie!!!!! Atherjen is right... we are all here to support you in any way we can!!

What is a TKD?

 

[Sapphire]

Originally posted by nikegurl
glad to see you back.

i always seem to miss meals on weekends and THAT is the thing most likely to lead to a cheat for me.

ME TOO!!! Argghhh!! The weekends kill me!!

 

[gwcaton]

Katie's Back !!!!! Hi Katie ! Glad you're back, missed ya !

Gary

 

[david]

Hey ba-beh! Glad you survived the week and also, that you're doing what YOU want to do!

See ya in a few weeks and oh yeah... check your PM's or your phone for that matter! TONIGHT!!!!

Missed talking 2 you!

PS. Do I have a story for you!

 

[katie64]

Wow, all of you are so great, certainly changes my perspective around 100% after this past week........

Sapph TKD is carbing up after w/o, so basically I still have 25 to 50g of carbs a day, just at a specific time, which is still what HAN is having me do, I think

Jen, doing the diet for as long as it takes, I think HAN would agree with this, it's pretty much the same, I decided against the Keto because of getting too tired, I'm already prone to tiredness so I need to keep as much energy as I can..........I need to check and see if I should do carbs after am cardio or if I can just have them after w8 training?????

Hi Gary

Hmmmmmmmmm my phone isn't ringing David missed talking with you too and the big bad wolf is gone

Now I need to go read everyone's journals and catch up on you all........

 

[gwcaton]

Hi Kate !

shouldn't you be in bed ! Its late here so I know its late there .

Nite !

gary

 

[Sapphire]

Originally posted by katie64

Sapph TKD is carbing up after w/o, so basically I still have 25 to 50g of carbs a day, just at a specific time, which is still what HAN is having me do, I think

ONLY 25 to 50 grams of carbs in TOTAL all day? WOW!! That is very low, isn't it? Do you get tired eating that few carbs?

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by Sapphire
ONLY 25 to 50 grams of carbs in TOTAL all day? WOW!! That is very low, isn't it? Do you get tired eating that few carbs?

Well it might be low, but it's more than I actually want per day, 25g is more like it for me, carbs are what make me feel sluggish and bloated thus making me tired, but I still think I need that little bit each day, I know that doesn't make alot of sense but I've done alot of testing with diets so I know what works for me temporarily, this is only short term, when I reach my w8 goal, I will go on more of a life long diet style...

Reach a 5lb w8loss goal today, but I really think it was water/monthly/and lack of food this past week...........I will be breaking my w8 loss goal down to 5lbs every 2 weeks, we'll see how it goes........shouldn't be too hard as long as I eat and eat right

Training is good but I have to do more stretching exercises, went back into physical therapy today for my lower back, she thinks it's all muscular issues (tendonitis) , or it simply was bruised during the accidcent and hasn't healed yet

 

[Sapphire]

I guess we learn what works for our bods.. I get light headed if my carbs go that low.

Congrats on your w8 loss! That's great!
Eating right is so hard.. I know how you feel. I am trying to gain muscle and eating so much protein and no junk is brutal!

I am off to do my workout soon!

TTYL!!

 

[katie64]

Wow, I really need to get back on schedule here, I haven't posted anything in a while and actually I probably won't til I get back from Florida, leaving next weekend, decided to leave early Still doing the challenge with Buff, when I get back I'll re-measure and re-group at that time, but I'm will still eat clean, probably cleaner than I am, something about the sunshine, just kinda motivates me, plus my mom says they have an awesome gym in her building, she was telling me about all the equipment they have, so I'm psyched, she started working out about a month ago, and she's turning 62 in a couple of weeks, which I think is very kewl

Plus she lives right on the beach so I'll be walking that every morning, love it there for vacation but would never want to live there..............

 

[katie64]

Ok, back on track today, very tired of my attitude, I allow other things to get in the way of my progress, actually in the way of all of me, not anymore, I'm saying F**K it to outside issues.......I hate hate hate the way I look right now, and even more discouraged that I am not even close to my birthday goals, granted I have 2 months til my 40th and I can be maybe a 1/3 of the way closer but it still shows my inconsistency and lack of determination, grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I'm very excited about going away, I would be outta here today if it wasn't for my children's schooling, they'll be out of school for 2 weeks as it is, and my oldest can not miss anymore, he's a great student but that would put too much stress on him, and his focus is sports and girls right now

Anyway, my family is a huge support system for me, and since my sis and I aren't talking again, she's the only one here near me right now, so it will be great to get away and be around people that love me

My focus to day is my diet and drinking H2O.......

 

[katie64]

My newest favorite song is Tourniquet by Evanescence, along with many others from this group, I swear this girl sings my life, seriously, I know it's a little morbid but so has my life been.......

tourniquet

i tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
i lay dying
and i'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
i'm dying praying bleeding and screaming
am i too lost to be saved
am i too lost?

my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation

my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will i be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide

 

[katie64]

My second favorite, I know they sound depressing but they actually show me how far I've grown in life and what I could return to This girl sings to my soul, I know I'm strange and tend to be very deep, but it's just who I am

I know I'm a little emotional this morning, I should just go to work, one problem with having your own business is setting your own hours

bring me to life

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where i've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become

now that i know what i'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become
bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time i can't believe i couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
i've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

 

[naturaltan]

wow ... after reading that, I had to dig up the ole classic "Don't worry, be happy"

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by naturaltan
wow ... after reading that, I had to dig up the ole classic "Don't worry, be happy"

HAHA, I am happy babe, but I love this kind of music, I like all kinds of music, and this is actually quite inspiring for me, I like the mellow feeling I have when listening to it, I don't feel so uptight, know what I mean, it helps me just flow through the day,