Thank you so much guys

It really was a big deal to me, cause I've never been that relaxed at a party. The food didn't have any power over me what so ever. It was a really empowering feeling and it just proved that I can do this

I have another party tonight and I'm going to use the same strategies. They're having dinner there, but I've decided to eat with my family and show up an hour later. It will help me eat healthy and I value the time with my family so much, especially now when I know I'll be gone for a year.
I feel so at peace

Yesterday I had a bit of struggles with some things from my past, but I've made peace with it and feel all good again.
The food thing has never felt like this before, I'm doing my own thing and I'm not focusing on food much at all these days. The focus is off diet and training, the focus is on enjoying life, which incorporates a good diet and lots of workouts. A big thing for me right now is that I've said "53 days without any cheating", because then I won't say to myself "Ah well, I might as well make today I cheat day" when I've had say an extra fruit that I didn't plan to have. It's really liberating, even though it sounds hard to believe. This is a detox and a life enjoyment plan, not a restricted and willpower based plan.
Man, I'm starting to sound like a friggin guru

I'm still the same Jen

Just a more happy Jen

I'm feeling very spiritual these days, but in my own sort of way, not in a religion based way.
Life is so wonderful

I had a downfall emotionally yesterday and was a bit cold towards Justin in the beginning of the day and the day before that. It just all seemed too good to be true and I started questioning things, it just couldn't be that good!! But it is

I'm learning to allow myself to be happy, which is a bit difficult sometimes, cause I've never really allowed myself before. But I'm getting closer each day and I just feel like the whole world is open for me to enjoy. And it is, it really is
Justin, I love you and I love the life we're creating for ourselves. It makes me tear up, cause it's so wonderful. I love you
