NG's Roman Challenge

[naturaltan]

Morning NG!

 

[hippy_chick]

You're doing awesome NG!

 

[Jenny]

Thanx guys!

P, yeah, he's got a really strong tummy!
And Which cookie? (already forgot!)

NT, you too babe!

HC, hey, good to see you here! Thanx for the kind words!

Ok guys, leaving in two days.. things are a little crazy around here right now.. Have been shopping for stuff I'll need, washing clothes and saying goodbye to friends.. And guess what, ROB'S COMING HOME TONIGHT!!! He's on the plane right now! We strongly doubted that we would see each other before I left, but now we will! I'm so happy..

Need to go pack!

 

[Jenny]

Just recieved more info about how I'm staying.. we'll be 7 girls 19-22 from England, Switzerland and Austria who'll share a big apartment! 2 bathrooms 1 big kitchen.. this is supposed to be the "most wanted" apartment and it seems really fantastic! It's pretty close to the coloseum and is very central! I'm so happy!!

 

[Stacey]

Hey My darling!!! I hope your having a great time in Rome on your first FULL Day!! That apartment sounds really neat!! Be careful & take care!

~ Oh I am glad you got to see your honey before leaving!!!!
Thinking about u~

 

[Eggs]

Sounds like a great apartment!

Theres a huge internet cafe called Easy Everything up North from you. Its a bit of a ways, but its the only one that I can remember the name of Of course the locals will be alot more helpful than I could be. Hope you're having a great time.

 

[ZECH]

Originally posted by Nike_Girl
Just recieved more info about how I'm staying.. we'll be 7 girls 19-22 from England, Switzerland and Austria who'll share a big apartment! 2 bathrooms 1 big kitchen.. this is supposed to be the "most wanted" apartment and it seems really fantastic! It's pretty close to the coloseum and is very central! I'm so happy!!

WOW!! Don't you need at least one handsome guy to keep all 7 of you safe?? I think all 7 of you would kill me!!

 

[kuso]

Well dg, if you can`t handle it, then I guess I`ll have to volunteer......at least I`ll die with a smile on my face

 

[Jenny]

Hey guys!

So I'm here.. I've had a HARD first week.. I've been wanting to go home all week and I've cried more than I think I've ever had... I've been so homesick.. And things weren't how I thought they would.. I don't really think I was ready to go so far from home for such a long time... But I think I'll learn plenty about myself...The apartment is increadibly dirty and awful, and everyone living there is leaving this week or the next.. hopefully there'll come some new nice people..
Well, schools pretty weird too, the teaching method is very strange... But I guess I'll get used to it soon..

Things feel better now and I've found a wonderful gym.. it is really nice! A chain called Fitness First.. Really nice.. I feel good when I'm there..

I have a hard time eating as much as I need.. It's very difficult to get the meals in.. And nothing is low carb.. So I can't eat out in many places..

Oh well, I guess I should see this as an oppurtunity, and I'm starting to.. But I feel so small in this city.. And I miss Rob and my family so FREAKIN' MUCH!!!! And my friends of course...

Hope you all are doing well!

Love,
Jen

 

[kuso]

Hey N_G, hang in there....I know it`s kinda tuff at first, but I bet by the end of your stay you`ll wish you could stay a little longer....shit, I cam to Japan for a few months and am still here almost 9 years later

Good luck hon

 

[Jenny]

Thanx Kuso.. You're such a sweety!
I'm truely hanging in here.. otherwise I'd be on a plane right now! Makes me feel better that I can have all of you guys close to me wherever I am!

 

[Stacey]

Jen,
Hey sweetie!! oh my gosh I am sooo sorry your homesick and not having a great time! Thats not good! I know its hard to be away from your family, Rob, and your friends!! Maybe its just the first week symptoms?? I hope its all better next week. Why is eveyone in the apartment leaving next week?? Thats good that you found a great gym to workout in, and relieve all your stress!!
I hope it gets better for you honey! I am always here for you!
Take care of yourself!!

 

[kuso]

Originally posted by Nike_Girl
Thanx Kuso.. You're such a sweety!

Shhhhhhhh!!! I have a pornal rep to uphold

Originally posted by Nike_Girl

Makes me feel better that I can have all of you guys close to me wherever I am!

We could all be MUCH clser if Rob wasn`t around
LOL......sorry. thought a bit of pornalness might cheer you up

Glad to hear you are hanging in there..........once you get the new members in your house, they`ll probably feel the same way as you do, and you`ll all end up best of friends

 

[Jenny]

Thanx Princess! Yes, it makes me feel good to know you're all here!

I need to get back to the apartment now, but I'll check back in really soon!!

Miss you all,
Jen

 

[Miss LeDix]

Can't say anything that hasn't already been said...hope it gets better real soon! I think you will end up having a great time, just need to get used to your new surroundings.

 

[Jenny]

Thanks for all of your support.. I donùt feel better actually.. I JUST WANT TO GO HOME!!! I hate it here.. I feel so lonely.. school sucks.. everything is so dirty and I miss my family and Rob so much it hurts...
I don't understand how there could be more tears left in my eyes, but there haven't been a day I haven't cried.. My family is coming in four weeks, but I truely don't know if I'll last that long..
Just visited the gym.. had no energy from lack of sleeping.. so I ended up doing just 35 min cardio instead of the planned 60 min.. I really don't care! Here I work out to get time to pass faster, not to lose weight...

I feel like I'm just sitting here feeling sorry for myself.. but I am telling you, I've never felt this lonely and empty before in my life..

 

[Eggs]

Hey NG - Sorry to hear you are having a rough time over there

Be expecting a PM Have to go out for brunch now though

 

[Leslie]

HI Nike GIrl! I am sorry to hear you are homesick, But realize that is natural. Anyone with strong family ties and a wonderful boyfriend would feel that way! It will get easier with each passing day! Believe me Hope you feel better soon!

BTW I go to a gym called Fitness First, I wonder if the chain is related? MMMMM

 

[Jenny]

Hey guys!

Again, thanx.. Am feeling a little better.. The weekend is over.. Have been to school.. Did chest and triceps this morning and am going back to the gym later to do some Spinning.. I hope it will be fun! A new girl came to the apartment yesterday.. She is from Russia and does not speak much english.. But I guess that is good in a way.. I`ll be speaking more italian.. She seems pretty nice.. She is only staying for 2 weeks though..

Eggs, thanks.. PMs are always very welcomed! You`re so nice.. I really whish you were still in Italy.. Would feel safer somehow.. lol..

Rob is not coming to visit.. I am very sad about it.. But I understand.. He has got a lot to do with work and stuff.. But still, it would make my day, week, month if he came..

Leslie.. Hey girlie! Thanks for popping in.. yeah, I really hope it will get easier.. Four weeks in a lifetime is not much at all!!
The chains would probably be related.. It is supposed to be available in outside Italy and Europe..

I have almost not cheated at all from eating well.. I have no apetite, so that could be why.. I have a hard time eating enough actually.. Guess that happens when you are not comfortable somwhere..

 

[Stacey]

Hey girl.. how is your day there today? I know how you are feeling kinda..and I hope you start to feel comfortable soon. I am sure you will in a week! When I left for college and was away from just my MOM I cried everyday!! Its hard, especially when you don't have your friends there with you! I have been thinking about you! Is it pretty there though?? Or is it dirty everywhere you go??

WELL SMILE.. And remember how jealous all of us are that your there.. touring a cool city.. and we admire you so much sweetie!! I hope you can enjoy some of it!
Take care of yourself Jen!

 

[Jenny]

Thanx P..
I think I'll be going back.. I've had it with this town.. Will update soon..

Thanx all!

 

[naturaltan]

Wow ... I pop in and read nothing but NG shedding tears daily. Sorry to hear things are not going as you thought. Are you planning on making your stay shorter than first planned?

 

[Stacey]

hey honey!! Are you really going to go home?
I probably would too if I were you.. but I think I would give the town one more chance...then maybe on Friday..go home, or stay!??! Hmmm? Sorry it sucks soooo bad there! Are you calling home a lot?
Cheer up sweetie!!!!!

 

[Jenny]

Yes NT andP.. Thanx..

Yep, it's true.. I'm going home.. tomorrow.. I so hope I've made the right decision.. I guess I'll never know though.. I so wanted to show everyone that I'm such an independent woman and I could do this.. But I wasn't ready.. And I'm a failure..

 

[Hammerlynn]

Never regret any decisions you've made! I've lived in Las Vegas for two years now and after spending 10 days at home with my family and close friends I decided that I missed being around them much more than I ever realized!

I've pretty much been a bit of a mess since I came back!

I'm here with just me but I did it for a while, have a great job and like it here but it's never enough without the ones close to your heart!

Hang in there..you'll be home soon!

 

[Leslie]

Originally posted by Nike_Girl
Yes NT andP.. Thanx..

Yep, it's true.. I'm going home.. tomorrow.. I so hope I've made the right decision.. I guess I'll never know though.. I so wanted to show everyone that I'm such an independent woman and I could do this.. But I wasn't ready.. And I'm a failure..

NikeGirl, you need to do what is best for you! Don't worry about "proving" yourself. Just because you can't live in Rome does not make you a failure!! Maybe you were not ready or didn't allow yourself to be ready....When I first moved to MD with my BF from NJ (4hr drive) I was so homesick, I actually broke up with my BF, cause I didn't want to be in MD. It wasn't comfortable. But guess what? I live in MD now and have been for the last 5 months, and I LOVE it! I would never live in NJ again. I think I wasn't "ready" the first tiem and when I moved back (quit my old job for the second time ) I was able to "accept" MD and let myself try to like it!

ROme will always be there!!

 

[kuso]

Originally posted by Nike_Girl
And I'm a failure..

Cut that crap out

If there is one thing you AREN`T it`s a failure!!!!

You gave it a shot, which is much more than most....and now you`ve decided it`s not for you, you are acting on that decission.

Neither of those are simple decissions to make.........and they are both one`s that I have had to make as well...........I know how hard it is to live away from family and friends................do whats best for yourself!!!

 

[Stacey]

Well everyone already said what I was thinking too!! Girl, Your not a failure at all.. Leslie is right.. ROME will always be there girl! Its very hard to be away from your loved ones. I don't think I will ever be able to be more than an hour from my mom..I am a momma's girl!!

SOOOO Are ya home now?? Doesn't it feel great! I know your happy now! It hurt me seeing you so upset!! Next time, just go to Rome on a vacation w/ your bf!
take care JEN!!!

 

[naturaltan]

Jen dear ... you're far from being a failure! You went, and decided it was too much. The point being is that you went. You travelled far away from your loved ones and didn't like it. That doesn't make you a failure, it shows your deep love and commitment to those around you. My wife can't go on week course to a city only 3 hours away without going crazy!

 

[Jenny]

Ok, I'm home again!
And I am actually happy! I am very happy! I'm very glad I did this.. I learned a lot about myself.. Thank you all for you support.. I really can't explain how much it means to me! LOVING HUGS to all of you!
No, you are all right.. I'm not a failure.. I know that.. But I failed in Rome and I am fine with that.. I will definately go back there.. I love some parts of the city.. (not some parts, that's for sure... ) Went to the Colosseum and the Spanish Steps and all the other things yesterday.. Felt like I HAD to have seen some of the sights before I left..
It was really nice to see it all.. I really enjoyed it.. But I did NOT enjoy all the F*cking creepy italians who asked if I wanted company or a private guide.. Next time I'm going to Rome, I'm bringing a GUY, that's for sure!

The flight home today was ok.. My flight from Rome to Paris was delayed 1 hour and that only gave me 10 min in Paris to get to my Copenhagen flight.. Which of course led to the fact that my baggage remained in Paris.. Or in Rome, or in China or in god knows where.. It is still missing.. It is very ironic.. And I refuse to do anything but laugh about it.. It will get here eventually! lol

So I'm home.. My parents and my dog are so happy.. and so am I! My parents were really getting sick of me calling them crying three times a day.. Haven't talked to Rob yet.. Guess I'll do that eventually..

So my plans now: I'm going to start studying for my drivings license, and start driving.. about time... The test here is a lot harder than in the US I've heard..
I'm also getting a job! Other than my fathers company.. I want to do something on my own.. But in this country..

Ok all, I'll write more tomorrow.. Tomorrow I'll start eating well again too.. These last three days have been.. uhm.. well.. not very healthy...