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fuck sake pull yourself together!!!!!
I can't believe that this thread is still going,at first i felt sorry but now i just think it is a lost cause
if you can do it DO IT if not find sympathy elsewhere,people have tried and tried to help you,if you REALLY want to live do what they say and don't shrug it off
Sorry but this had to be said
I can't believe that this thread is still going,at first i felt sorry but now i just think it is a lost cause
if you can do it DO IT if not find sympathy elsewhere,people have tried and tried to help you,if you REALLY want to live do what they say and don't shrug it off
Sorry but this had to be said
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This is what makes this ilness so dangerous. It leeches out of you everything. You just feel shit and don't know why. The feeling is really really bad. It made OTB feel that he lost everything.
But FUCK.. he hasn't actually lost anything.. fuck the school.. fuck even friends (if they are real friends you can come back to them everytime).. fuck everything.. he just lost stupid 2 years .. he could repair his body anytime if he was ready to finaly start with the correct regimen.
I understand his feelings.. i felt the same.. and i never want to feel that "feeling" again because it's the worst thing ever. Those who didn't felt it can't understand it.
The problem with OTB was that he probably wasn't a very rational guy. If he had a stronger personality he could tell himself that it's going to be better and what he was feeling was just because of fucked up body. He could save himself from doing apeshit :-(
You just have to beleive that you're going to get better.. and when you get better everything suddenly changes. It was all about faith and OTB lost it. I really knew that he just had to be tied up and locked down. Poor guy... well but the life goes on .. my fight still isn't over.
But FUCK.. he hasn't actually lost anything.. fuck the school.. fuck even friends (if they are real friends you can come back to them everytime).. fuck everything.. he just lost stupid 2 years .. he could repair his body anytime if he was ready to finaly start with the correct regimen.
I understand his feelings.. i felt the same.. and i never want to feel that "feeling" again because it's the worst thing ever. Those who didn't felt it can't understand it.
The problem with OTB was that he probably wasn't a very rational guy. If he had a stronger personality he could tell himself that it's going to be better and what he was feeling was just because of fucked up body. He could save himself from doing apeshit :-(
You just have to beleive that you're going to get better.. and when you get better everything suddenly changes. It was all about faith and OTB lost it. I really knew that he just had to be tied up and locked down. Poor guy... well but the life goes on .. my fight still isn't over.
No hybah, fuck the freinds that left you in time of need. i was shown who my true freinds are out of all of them 3 had anything to do. Now one person must have seen me back at the gym the other day. Now all my so called freinds are calling. Where were they when I was laying flat on my back 2 years ago and could barely get out of bed for 2 months because I was so weak and run down.
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This is really starting to bug me. You see 3 months ago i met my old friend from elementary school and we had a long talk. In the middle of the conversation he told me about his heatlh problems. I listened and and bingo! typical symptoms of depressed imunity, leaky gut and etc... in other words typical STRESS!! I was like LOL i've got some of that too.
He told me he invested alot of time and money in diagnoses and no one could come up with what's wrong with him. He even underwent bullshit scam artist methods (alcohol based energy healing.. WTF?)
I told him that nobody is going to help him or tell him why these things are happening. I told him to check at a GI specialist to look for any complications. I also told him the regimen he needs to prepare his body for regeneration.
Since then when spoke thousands times on ICQ and that idiot still haven't learned a thing. I told him a billion times what he should do but he still goes from one doctor to other just to hear that he's "Perfectly OK and that there should be nothing wrong with him". He just doesn't want to do anything. He still asks me thousands of stupid questions which have nothing to do with the regimen that was suggested. He still has a horrible diet .. for example he overloads himself with sugar all the time.. especially during the exam season which is 1,5 month long .. he calls it "brain feeding"
And yesterday ago he told me he has some kind of rashes or excema, that the skin on his hands is cracking and it leaves wounds. Also told me that he got an appointment with a dermatologist. Again told him that the doctor like doctors before won't find anything.
OH MY GOD when will these people learn?? I guess never... next time i meet him i'll beat him to pulp.. really i'm so mad that i'm going to wreck his face for being an idiot... maybe then he will learn. So what.. he's stupid.. and stupid people have to SUFFER first in order to learn something.. i'm not a superhero that wants to save everyone.. but i offered him help and i need to accomplish my goal.. otherwise i would see myself as a looser who coudln't teach a dumbass a thing.
And another cool thing happened to me today in the shop. I was buying me some eggs for the breakfast and i met a guy that is a guitarist in my friend's band. Actually he doesn't play guitar anymore.. he had to quit school and now even work.
He looked horrible.. skin on his face looked so bad that i thought he wears a haloween mask... i asked him what's wrong and he started his story.. OMG 2x .. again typical symptoms.. and what's even worse.. stupid doctors started cutting him .. they removed his gallbladder. They also want to do something to his thyroid (holy shit)... he's been also sick for 4 months straight... i told him to contact me and i'll tell him the grand plan to get rid of his symptoms.
I hope he's not a OTB case too. I'm getting really frustrated with this. I have patience but maybe i'm not the kind of a guy who wants to spend his life helping people who just doesn't appreciate it nor deserve it.
He told me he invested alot of time and money in diagnoses and no one could come up with what's wrong with him. He even underwent bullshit scam artist methods (alcohol based energy healing.. WTF?)
I told him that nobody is going to help him or tell him why these things are happening. I told him to check at a GI specialist to look for any complications. I also told him the regimen he needs to prepare his body for regeneration.
Since then when spoke thousands times on ICQ and that idiot still haven't learned a thing. I told him a billion times what he should do but he still goes from one doctor to other just to hear that he's "Perfectly OK and that there should be nothing wrong with him". He just doesn't want to do anything. He still asks me thousands of stupid questions which have nothing to do with the regimen that was suggested. He still has a horrible diet .. for example he overloads himself with sugar all the time.. especially during the exam season which is 1,5 month long .. he calls it "brain feeding"
And yesterday ago he told me he has some kind of rashes or excema, that the skin on his hands is cracking and it leaves wounds. Also told me that he got an appointment with a dermatologist. Again told him that the doctor like doctors before won't find anything.
OH MY GOD when will these people learn?? I guess never... next time i meet him i'll beat him to pulp.. really i'm so mad that i'm going to wreck his face for being an idiot... maybe then he will learn. So what.. he's stupid.. and stupid people have to SUFFER first in order to learn something.. i'm not a superhero that wants to save everyone.. but i offered him help and i need to accomplish my goal.. otherwise i would see myself as a looser who coudln't teach a dumbass a thing.
And another cool thing happened to me today in the shop. I was buying me some eggs for the breakfast and i met a guy that is a guitarist in my friend's band. Actually he doesn't play guitar anymore.. he had to quit school and now even work.
He looked horrible.. skin on his face looked so bad that i thought he wears a haloween mask... i asked him what's wrong and he started his story.. OMG 2x .. again typical symptoms.. and what's even worse.. stupid doctors started cutting him .. they removed his gallbladder. They also want to do something to his thyroid (holy shit)... he's been also sick for 4 months straight... i told him to contact me and i'll tell him the grand plan to get rid of his symptoms.
I hope he's not a OTB case too. I'm getting really frustrated with this. I have patience but maybe i'm not the kind of a guy who wants to spend his life helping people who just doesn't appreciate it nor deserve it.
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fuck they hit me with this stupid gun safety course before i can take the gun home..it's like God just won't let me be at peace. Everyone gets to keep suffering; even my family.
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Ahh, Sweet Irony! You have to take a gun safety test before you can off yourself.
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"'m not the kind of a guy who wants to spend his life helping people who just doesn't appreciate it nor deserve it."
Hybah, you don't do good expecting others to appreciate your kindness, and lord o goshen, you don't even consider whether they deserve it or not.
Let the Fates determine who deserves what in this life and the next.
Do good because its the right thing to do. If some listen, heal, and prosper from it, then the incremental good of the Universe is furthered. But once the effort is expended by you, do not look to dividends on its direct return to you. They will come, but in a subtle, unobtrusive way and at their own pace. You best pay attention, for the rewards, these dividends, are often opportunity for the furtherment of doing good.
You see? Not additive, not geometric rates returns. Simply sustaining many-fold is their quantity.
One kindness begets many and is networked by synergy through serendipity.
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"'m not the kind of a guy who wants to spend his life helping people who just doesn't appreciate it nor deserve it."
Hybah, you don't do good expecting others to appreciate your kindness, and lord o goshen, you don't even consider whether they deserve it or not.
Let the Fates determine who deserves what in this life and the next.
Do good because its the right thing to do. If some listen, heal, and prosper from it, then the incremental good of the Universe is furthered. But once the effort is expended by you, do not look to dividends on its direct return to you. They will come, but in a subtle, unobtrusive way and at their own pace. You best pay attention, for the rewards, these dividends, are often opportunity for the furtherment of doing good.
You see? Not additive, not geometric rates returns. Simply sustaining many-fold is their quantity.
One kindness begets many and is networked by synergy through serendipity.
yeh it is ironic isn't it? California has so many fuckin gun laws, it's ridiculous..sure wish i hadn't taken ephedra..that's why the docs can't find anything wrong with me. The ephedra screwed me up inside, where the docs can't see.
i am gonna try like hell to get around this HSC card..
i am gonna try like hell to get around this HSC card..
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90% of doctors are just trained monkeys. You can't expect them to use their brain in order to solve anything new. They're just people like we. You see We get to know different kinds of people at school .. there are smart ones who have logic abbilities and then there are the trained monkeys.. both species pass the school. Getting a degree in medicine doesn't tell you much about the person. We know stupid docs and smart docs. But all are docs...
One of the guys i know studies medicine. I talked with him about my condition.. damn he studies medicine for 2 years and is already thinking like all the stupid docs .. and there's no way to open his eyes because he has been already been permanently blindfolded by learning very incomplete science.. another trained monkey.. what a pitty.
One of the guys i know studies medicine. I talked with him about my condition.. damn he studies medicine for 2 years and is already thinking like all the stupid docs .. and there's no way to open his eyes because he has been already been permanently blindfolded by learning very incomplete science.. another trained monkey.. what a pitty.
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You want to work hard as hell to overcome that and don't want to work hard as well to do the right regimen and overcome your not that fatal ilness?? You need to be tied up. You're not capable of logic thinking... and this is what tells you a guy that has been in your shoes and still is ..
actually don't need to take a course..just buy a manual for a buck and then take a written test..so i should be able to pick it up in the next few days
oaktownboy said:
You going to remember the information when you goto take tests that is the question
Well I was stating a fact, because candida does create immense brain fog
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i'm not joking..hey sean maybe he will allow an open-book test
Well given the fact that when I first came to this sight every one was promoting dextrose dextrose after work out so like a newbie i had to try it and after 2-3 weeks my body rejected it, lucky i stopped it or i do not know how worse it could have made me. Taking 100-150 grams post workout can sure kill an already weaken immune system thats for sure, and send your adrenals in to complete over drive. but we live and we learn.
oaktownboy said:i'm not joking..hey sean maybe he will allow an open-book test
Claim you have a learning disability
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i think the poor kid had everything but the kitchen sink
Dr do not understand how i am even functioining the way I am because I have no detectable levels of serotonin levels in my urine NONE, but got plenty in my blood just not getting metabolized due to my cell membranes breaking down..I am just a complete mess
I pin pointed my cause 4-5 TBSP of polyunsaturated fats a day with only little vitamin E = rancid fats depleting antioxidents and clogged up liver (bile acid build up), cell membrane destabilization and ever thing else trouble mentioned right on down the pike. consequently leading to atp deficeincy. The wonderful dr stuck me on a high fat diet and told me to stop my vitamin E intake for some stupid reason and i got worse. now I have to flush all this fat out of my liver and start back for past 6 weeks i have eating balanced diet. The coenzyme q 10 i was taking was not being absorbed in system so that has not been doing crap. I switched to an emulisifed form, but i admit trouble has been right from get go
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I just wanna say one more I appreciate all the help people have given me over the past 2 years. I just wish I could have recovered. But I will no longer continue to willfully live in pain.
justin, you need to start thinking like the little choo choo " i know I can i know I can." Turn the negative into postive that is what keeps me going and always have. I have DS-50 (makes a 357 look like a pee shooter) and let me tell you some days i look at it and think about it doing it, but "i think to my self i am not going to take easy way out and I am going to conquer this and get on with my life and learn from my mistakes" I see my freinds all married and have families and that hits me hard, wondering what it is like to be normal and normal I will be again that I vow.
this thread seems to have become a cry for sympathy?
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its easy to think that untill it happens to you. Then you be thinking totally different. People on other side of fence are thinking that this can not happen to me when you do everything by the book, but there are hidden variables you do not know about till its too late. life is a constant learning lesson have to take the good and the bad and make best of it. Life does not stop but keep moving on no matter what happens. SO do not judge other before looking in the mirror and judging your self. Personally I have learned alot about life and what I was missing out on because I was so consumed on being the best and now I look back "what the fuck was I thinking" I would have done it all different thats for damn sure.
well turns out father cancelled the order on the credit card, since we both have it in our name...i have no idea in hell how he found out.but who knows
Some one upstairs is trying to tell you something "its not your time"
well if it aint my time, how come i haven't gotten better after these 2 years?>
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Now look at that guy. So lucky. I wasn't this lucky at all .. i had to work like HELL to get the correct information ... he had a dish full of the most beautiful green peas ever served but still refuses to eat a single damn pea! He has the power to do it and still refuses ... a madman?? Well no probably a weakling.. no not a weakling.. something far worse... a man capable of doing anything but acting like a little kid that got his toy (health) taken away from him.
Because drs were not on the root of the problem instead they where better off putting your symptoms up on a dart board and throwing a dart seeing where it lands to fix next. This MD is only one that has addressed mitochondrion dysunction, but this is the result of the priory factor "oxidative stress over load" whether it was mental or physical. Lets not look at the cause so much but rather how to correct it here and now and in order to get better stop dwelling on the past and remembering what you used to look like. Muscle has memory ..
You said it your self "taking all the fucken supplements in the world will not make you better untill you have a positive out look" That is smartest thing I heard you say..
You said it your self "taking all the fucken supplements in the world will not make you better untill you have a positive out look" That is smartest thing I heard you say..
Hybah said:Now look at that guy. So lucky. I wasn't this lucky at all .. i had to work like HELL to get the correct information ... he had a dish full of the most beautiful green peas ever served but still refuses to eat a single damn pea! He has the power to do it and still refuses ... a madman?? Well no probably a weakling.. no not a weakling.. something far worse... a man capable of doing anything but acting like a little kid that got his toy (health) taken away from him.
yeh i sure am the luckiest person in the world...
