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Dec 16

Training - Upper
Bent Over BB Rows: *45lbs* 5 *65lbs* 5 * 125lbs* 6, 6, 6, 6
Decline BB Bench: *45lbs* 5 *65lbs* 5 *120lbs* 7, 6,6
WG Lat Pulldown: *95lbs* 10, 10 , 9
Cable Flies: *20lbs* 12, 8
Seated Face Pull: *50lbs* 13, 12
Preacher Curls: *60lbs* 8, 8, 8
V-bar Pressdown: *45lbs* 14, 13, 13

Tempo & RI's:
4-6 reps - (3/0/1), 2:00RI
6-8 reps - (3/0/2), 1:30RI
8-12 reps - (2-3/0/2), 1:00RI
12-15 reps - (2/0/2), :45RI

Core Stuff:
Stick Crunches: *30lbs* 12, 11
Weighted Planks: *25lbs* 2 sets

10 minute cardio cooldown

 Diet -
Just alot of shit, and honestly I dont' want to list it all. It wasn't tasty nor did I enjoy it, nor am I really happy right now and spent most of my night extrmemly angry and emotional and crying.
There was no family celebration at all, I just spent two huge feastings alone, on my bed, down in my secluded, eating. I didn't even get to eat the ham dinner becuase mom forgot my gravy twice, and I dont' like ham or potatos without gravy, and no one wanted to eat with each other, grabed there food then left.

Additonals: Coffee, Crystal light, SF energy drink
Water: who knows..

Thansk for that link Emma .. instead of doing weight v-ups I've actually been doing weighted Jack knives..Emma once again I want to ay thank you, thank you so much about that offer .. you really have no idea how much of a perfect timing this is..

Like I said bad night .. It's 1:30am and I'm not asleep, and honestly even after all the food I'm getting hungry again...
Fuck .. I'm just so .. 'sick' I've never 'recovered' and I've finally realized this.
I NEED a change in my life, I NEED something positive to strive for, something HEALTHY. Somethig that doesn't leave me binging all alone in my room, vomitting it all up, and then lying to everyone about how much I can eat.. ( I managed to force myself not to vomitt up my second binge, becuase lets call it by what it is, it's not a 'cheat' it's a fucking full out typical disorded eating binge).
I've also come to terms tonight with why I hate my mom so much. Why I can't stand to be in the same room with her for more than 5 mintues without being filled with anger. And honestly , as sad as this is, I don't think there's ever anythign that can be done to 'salvage' our relationship .. all I can do is continue going on with my feeling, pretending that I'm not always angry and 'protecting' her from the truth about why I'm filled with so much hate towards her.

This night has just been an Eye opener .. I can't conitue on this path .. I mean how healthy is it when a guy has to buy womens jeans becuase guy jeans no longer fit him??

I NEED a change .. and what's most important .. Is that I WANT and am WILLING for a change.
 
Arggg... Tom-Tom...

:heartpump

I had sort of guessed that this was going on... [which is part of the reason for the pm.... ]


I am so proud of you Lewie. Really. Because saying it 'out loud' takes guts.
And sometimes it is only when we hit 'rock bottom' that we are able to see the extent of the damage we can do ourselves.. And, as uncomfortable as it is - it is what give you the hunger to change.... And making that change - well that is huge.

You can do this Tom-Tom... You shall make this happen....

:)
 
Hey Tom, Sorry to hear things areent going well at the moment. Hopefully Christmas will be good and you will have a good family dinner :)
 
Yes lets all wish for a GOOD family dinner. If not man I live in Illinois, come on down I will show you a good time. And maybe put you through a crazy workout! I wish you the best buddy.
 
Dec 17

Training - OFF

Diet -
Meal 1 - Lettuce, Yogurt, whey, fibre 1,
Meal 2 - 2 huge pieces of cake, 5 mini cupcakes, bunch of oreo cookies, 1 oatmeal & cream cookie, can of tuna
Thanks Jaime :)
Meal 3 - Cottage Cheese, SF metamucil, cocoa powder, strawberries, fish oil
Meal 4 - Shrimp, bunch of different veggies
Meal 5 - Cottage Cheese, SF metamucil, cocoa powder, strawberries, fish oil

Additonals: Crystal light, SF energy drink, green tea, diet pepsi
Water: ALOT

Well I got 4 hours of sleep last night (4am - 8am) .. woke up very hungry .. had my normal meal.. but I was still hungry.. I kept staring at the cake and cookies on the table for almost 2 hours untill..
One of the most amazing person in this world (who also happens to be my bestest friend!) gave me a call ! :D
We talked about everything.. basically she helped me realize that if I'm actually hungry and if I'm craving that food, then eating it will NOT cause me and harm, I won't get fat, and that actually eating the food could be benefical. Now if I wasn't hungry and wanted to eat it just cuase it was there and with the underlying intention to throw it up, or if I wanted to eat it to try and 'prove' that I wasn't sick to myself .. well those reasons wouldn't of been so good.
So I ended up EATING it, not BINGING on it, I ate until I was satisfied and no more (which is a big thing for me..). I didn't throw it up afterwards, but most importantly .. I was HAPPY that I ate it, there was no guilt at all :)
Tummy looks a bit soft, but other than that everything else looks better .. veins more pronounced, muscles filled etc.

Other than that been studying/working all day .. I got home after work and got to open a xmas present ... A SCALE THAT DOES BODYFAT % AND HYDRATION % !!! something I've always wanted!
Well I decided to use it tonight, fooling around. Resutls -
Weight: 150lbs
Male Athlete BF%: 8
Male Athlete Hydration %: 64.5 (that must be high as the bar thing that says if the the results are low, med or high was at the complete max!)
Male Non Athlete BF%: 13
Male Non Athlete Hyrdation %: 62.5

Anyways off to bed!!! sooo tired! :zzz:
 
Hey Tom! :heartpump

YAY for cake!!!! And an even BIGGER YAY for stoping and then keeping it down!! :D WOO HOO!! :banana: That is fantastic news chook-en!!
That cake may be "one small (or two large) slices" for a normal person - but for you - it is one "HUGE STEP" in your path to ultimate recovery....

Also - just keeping the food down is going to to more for you than just helping your 'mind' to know that you can eat some cake if you want to - it helps your body to "register" that you have EATEN food and that you have incoming energy - so you will help to trigger all those 'satiated' hormones... and this will lead to LESS cravings and LESS obsessions with food....


Proud of you Tom...


GO YOU!​
:)
 
That card has your name written all over it hunny. Anytime (if I'm not sleeping) I'm here for you. But I didn't do anything :) It wasn't me that ate it, it was you, and it was a huge step in the right direction!

X-mas will be much better.

P.S. We should make up a txt-ing code for when you want me to call, like "Blue rainbow dogs".
P.P.S. YOUR BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW! YOU OLD MAN!
 
Hey guys
Adrian - No, they both told me 150lbs. (decided to see if there was difference in weight between the two scales before I threw out the old one.) Remember that this was at the end of the day after I had eaten / drank all my fluids + all the cake+cookies+fries+gravy+cheese+cheesecake+cupcakes+ice-cream+cereal+ (well I think you get the idea..) I had the day prior. That's why weight was 150.

Emma - Thank you so much Emma :) .. see the thing is, is that I KNOW I can eat all that cake without gaining weight.. it's not so much the calories that bother me (they do bother me but not to a great extent) .. but the 'feelings' that go with it, the guilt, the pain, the not worthiness etc. Those are all the things that get to me, and they're what I'm trying to purge not the calories. I try my best to wait a bit before throwing it up .. to hopefully allow some of the calories and stuff to get into me. There was one 'cheat' that I didn't throw up, that was the one where I watched a movie with tammy and then spent the night with my brother. It was probably my biggest one, but yet I didn't purge. Why? Becuase I was at ease .. I was happy, I was content, I had someone to keep my mind off of things..
These are the issues that need to be adressed..

Jaime - thanks :) But it's you who helped me reach that point were I could eat it! :kiss: As for x-mas .. hmmm .. not sure what I'm doing for that .. just not sure If I want to 'cheat' or stick to my regular diet..
LOL okay, we'll talk about the txt-ing code in our e-mails !
Yup .. the big 1-8 tomorrow!! <gulp>. That's so weird..
 
Dec 18

Training - Lower + Lats
Deadlift: *45lbs* 5 *135lbs* 5 *215lbs* 6, 6, 5, 5
Leg Press (high & wide): *180lbs* 5 *270lbs* 5 *430lbs* 8, 8, 8
V-Bar Pulldown: *120lbs* 7, 7, 7, 7
Pull-throughs: *40lbs* 13, 13
BB Step-ups: *105lbs* 11/11, 11/11
Straight Arm Pulldowns: *50lbs* 15, 15

Tempo & RI's:
4-6 reps - (3/0/1), 2:00RI
6-8 reps - (3/0/2), 1:30RI
8-12 reps - (2-3/0/2), 1:00RI
12-15 reps - (2/0/2), :45RI

No time for a cooldown..

Diet -
Meal 1 - Lettuce, Yogurt, whey, fibre 1, pear
*Peri/PWO* - skim milk, whey
Meal 2 - Egg beater, apple
Meal 3 - Hamburger, broccoli
Meal 4 - Lettuce, yogurt, fibre 1, tuna, ACV
Meal 5 - Hamburger, broccoli
Meal 6 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil, fish oil

Additonals: Crystal light, Diet Ppsi, SF salt, SF syrups.
Water: TONS

Arg .. so bloated.. could barley eat today. And before anyone goes ' But you were able to stuff yourself full of veggies :rolleyes: ' all those servings of veggies were half of what I normally have ..
Not to mention, day was very hectic and had barley enough time to do anything .. tammy went back home today .. that was emotional .. full of picture taking and lots of crying..
I also spent the other half of the day in the washroom! holy fawk.. my tummy is finally starting to digest that cake ..

But the BEST thing of the day - my supplements came!!!! :D A day earlier than expected too!
So now I got creatine! Only problem was they fucked up my order .. I ordered ENERGIZED xpand, both grape and tropical berry flavored .. they gave me a ENERGIZED xpand grape, but just a regular xpand tropical berry. But I'm actually quite happy they did .. after reviewing the ingredients it seems the ENERGIZED stuff is more optimal pre workout and the normal xpand stuff would be optimal post workout..
(the normal stuff also contains caffeine, which I thought it didn't .. but oh well..) I think it's going to be a chore to get the tropical berry stuff into me though, that shit smells like hell and nothing close to berries. I nearly puked smelling it as did the rest of my family.. grape smells really good though..

So starting creatine tomorrow .. will be my first time using the stuff .. let the experiment begin..

(NOW BED TIME :zzz: )
 
I considered the tropical berry. But i've never had good experiences with those mixed berry flavoured stuff. So i got Orange. It is very nice.
 
Dec 19 ... what a shitty Birthday..

Training - Upper
Incline DB Press: *15lbs* 5 *25lbs* 5 *45lbs* 4, 4, 4, 4
Bent over DB Row: *15lbs* 5/5, *25lbs* 5/5 *50lbs* 8/8, 7/7, 7/7
Single arm OH Press on smith: -No Rests-*15lbs* 8/8, 8/8, 5/5, 4/4
Seated Cable Row: *100lbs* 10, 8
Decline DB Flies: *20lbs* 15, 15
BB Skullcrusher: *45lbs* 8, 8, 8
Incline DB Curls: *20lbs* 12/12, 12/12, 10/10 DROP *15lbs* 7/7
Tempo & RI's:
4-6 reps - (3/0/1), 2:00RI
6-8 reps - (3/0/2), 1:30RI
8-12 reps - (2-3/0/2), 1:00RI
12-15 reps - (2/0/2), :45RI

Cooldown - 20 minutes on treadmill

Good workout .. didn't really notice anything from the creatine though. No extra energy no nothing. The only thing I noticed was during my curls I got a HUGE pump, veins were crazy, felt like my arms was going to explode..

Diet -
Meal 1 - Lettuce, Yogurt, whey, fibre 1, quick oats, creatine
*Peri/PWO* - skim milk, whey, creatine
Meal 2 - Lettuce, Yogurt, Cottage Cheese, fibre 1,
Meal 3 - Protein bar
Meal 4 - Egg beater, apple
Meal 5 - Hamburger, broccoli, Yogurt
Meal 6 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil, fish oil, Peanut butter

Additional: Crystal light, Diet Pepsi, SF salt, SF syrups.
Water: 5L

DoubleD - LOL .. well .. give me about another half a year to a full year and you might be seeing a cut to hell 145 - 150lb Tom..

Adrian - Orange is the next flavour I'm trying. Luckily the tropical berry doesn't taste half as bad as what it smells..

Emma - Thanks :) ... unfortunately, day wasn't so great.
Family forgot my Birthday again this year (well one of my sisters remembered), just as they did last year. Which I guess I should of expected .. it's just this was my EIGHTEENTH birthday..
Then besides that the day was just crappy in general, school all day then work all night..

Well hunger was certainly back today .. got so hungry at one point I thought I was going to eat my arm..
 
Tom_B said:
(the normal stuff also contains caffeine, which I thought it didn't .. but oh well..)
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Are you sure about that? The regular stuff says 'caffeine free' on the front label.


And...

:rocker:
:banana:​
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUU !!!!!!!​
:bounce2:
:dancer:​
 
How crunked did you get my friend? lol

Wish I could have been there!!! (I still have our "stuff" by my bed...come help me use it)

P.S. My mom wishes you a happy birthday (I didn't remind her. I just told her last week that it was on the same day as my last exam), and so when she picked me up yesterday, she was like, "If you speak to Lewie today, wish him a very happy birthday).
 
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Dec 20

Training - Rotator cuff + Core + "Cardio"
Rotator Cuff - 4 sets
Core - rests as little as possible
Stick crunches: *30lbs* 12, 12, 12
Weighted Planks: *25lbs* 2 sets
Weight Decline Sit-ups: *35lbs* 12, 12, 6+2

Cardio - 35 minutes total
LOL if you could even consider it cardio, I was a bit drunk! bahaha so I mostly just kinda attempted to do the combos or would jsut stand there and stare at the others.

Diet -
Meal 1 - Creatine, Lettuce, Yogurt, fiber 1, walnuts, egg beater
* Colt 45 (strong beer) *
Meal 2 - Broccoli, hamburger, pear, fish oil
Meal 3 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil,
* Wine *
Meal 4 - Lettuce, Yogurt, fiber 1, whey
Meal 5 - Hamburger, broccoli, fish oil, tuna
Meal 6 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil, Peanut butter

Additional: Crystal light, Diet Pepsi, SF salt, SF syrups, SF energy drink
Water: 5L

Adrian - Ya .. the front of my bottle doesn't even say caffeine free, just 'creatine ester fusion' werid.. Thanks for the B-day wish :)

Jaime - LOL I wish you could of been here too ! :heartpump mmm we'll defiantly use our stuff next year hahaha! Tell Toni I said thank you soo much! It's pretty sad when OTHER peoples parents remember your B-day and not your real parents.

As for my dad - LOL alot better than yesterday! Before going to bed last night I put ' And thus concludes another shitty birthday' in my MSN name and all my friends messaged me and went ' Oh no Lewie! Your B-day isn't suppos to be shitty! We'll drink tomorrow morning and go to school drunk to celebrate! ' (considering that was a life goal I wanted to accomplish - going to school drunk <3 ) . So we all go together at 8:30am and got drunk! bahaha, then went to school, omg it was sooo fucked! It was the last day before x-mas break so practically no one went and there must of been only 100 people in the whole school! bahah so we were just wandering from class to class drunk!
Then I went home at 1pm and passed out on my bed with Kerry! We didn't wake up until 3:30pm pm and I felt like hell! .. So I went upstairs to eat when I saw a Cake on the dishwasher and mom came out of her room and went ' Happy Be-lated birthday' and I was like ' Oh .. okay.' (didn't say thank you or anything) and she goes ' Well I just didn't say anything yesterday becuase you went to bed so early. But I got a cake and a card for you so we can do something tonight.' I didn't even look at her and went ' Id rather not.' and just walked away.
I mean hat a fucking excuse to not wish me a happy birthday .. I didn't go to bed until 10pm that night, I saw her in the morning, then we were both working at the restaurant after school for 4 hours, then I saw her at night before I went to bed, we talk alot and at different points throughout the day and not once did she go ' Happy Birthday'. Like if she was going to make up a lie as to why she didn't mention my B-day then you think she would make up something a bit more believable. Oh well..

So then I drove Kerry home and went straight to the gym .. LOL I get in there and there was food everywhere. And the owner goes ' Lewie! Want some/?' and I was like ' Nah I'm good thanks though..' and she goes ' .. well if your going to step class your having some wine. The warm up for the step class is to drink' and she winked at me! LOL omg I was lauhging so hard so all the people who were going to be in the step class started drinking wine! I had two glasses and was buzzing all over again. I told everyone I had been drunk since 8:30am and that this wine brought back a buzz.' Everyone lost it laughing! And then Beth kept trying to give me more wine! bahaha but I told her I was good, anymore and I was going to pass out again!
So everyone was laughing at me during the step class because I couldn't do it, I was practically standing there shuffling my feet!
(not to mention earlier when I was drunk at school I tried climbing onto the roof of a car during lunch and when I jumped off I hurt my ankle so that didn't help matters lol)

hahaha! Awww what a day! I love my friends sooo much! Best "Birthday" EVER!
 
Sounds like you have a fun time! Just be careful jumping off rooftops. People do stupid things on alcohol, especially the 'i dare you to ... ' which can sometimes result in disaster ;)
 
Sorry I missed your birthday. I havent been on much lately.
 
Dec 21

Training - Lower + Shoulders
Squats: *45lbs* 5 *115lbs* 5 *185lbs* 6 *195lbs* 6, 5, 5
RDL: *45lbs* 5 *95lbs* 5 *175lbs* 8, 7, 7
Seated OH BB Press: *75lbs* 7, 7, 7, 6
Leg Ext: *45lbs* 15, 12+3
Reverse BB Lunges: *125lbs* 9/9, 9/9
DB Upright Row: *25lbs* 12, 12
Tempo & RI's:
4-6 reps - (3/0/1), 2:00RI
6-8 reps - (3/0/2), 1:30RI
8-12 reps - (2-3/0/2), 1:00RI
12-15 reps - (2/0/2), :45RI

Cooldown - 30 minutes on treadmill

Good workout .. mixed up my squat weight for the first set though .. I knew it didn't feel like 195lbs..

Diet -
Meal 1 - Lettuce, Yogurt, whey, fibre 1, quick oats, apple, creatine
*Peri/PWO* - skim milk, whey, quick oats, creatine
Meal 2 - Lettuce, Yogurt, Cottage Cheese, fibre 1, apple, oat bran
Meal 3 - Egg beater, tuna apple, oat bran, quick oats, Peanut butter
Meal 4 - Tuna, apple, oat bran, quick oats, Walnuts, fish oil
Meal 5 - Hamburger, broccoli, Yogurt, fish oil, tuna
Meal 6 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil, Peanut butter

Additional: Crystal light, Diet Pepsi, SF salt, SF syrups.
Water: 6L

Was a really busy and just a shitty day .. that's why I didn't post.

Was also STARVING .. ate tons.
I'm also torn as to whether or not I want to cheat n Xmas - I mean I WANT to, in fact I was to just have an entire day worth of cheating .. I mean its CHRISTMAS! And my hunger is getting out of control, I'm craving so many sweets..
But Then I'm going to Voodoo on the 27th .. so I would have one day to get rid of all the bloat / ickiness which I don't think is possible ..
I mean I don't care if I'm going to be bloated, it's not like anyone will be touching me .. but .. I thought about it .. and normally after days like these I umm .. get the poos really bad and they last for a few days.
So I would be drunk, dancing at this club .. and with the poos. Not a good combo...

So I'm not sure what to do?.. Suggestions?
 
Dec 22

Training - Rotator Cuff + Cardio stuff + some core
Rotator Cuff - 4 sets

Cardio: 10 minutes of stepper

Circuit: 4 rotations, rests as little as possible
High Box march: 20 reps per leg
Hindu Push-ups: 10
Supine Row: 10
Crunch Machine: 10
Jump Rope: 100
Burpee to chin-up: 8
Feet elevated push up: 10
Cable Crunch: 10
Mountain Climber: 20 reps per leg
Renegade Row: 5 reps per arm
Single Arm DB Squat Thrust: 10 reps per arm

More Core:
Weighted Bench Hovers: *35lbs* 2 sets
Stick Crunches: *30lbs* 12, 12

More Cardio: 10 minutes on Treadmill

Stretch: 20 minutes (done hours after workout)

AND I WAS DONE!!
Very exhausting workout, I was sweating like mad!

Diet -
Meal 1 - Lettuce, Yogurt, whey, fibre 1, creatine
Meal 2 - Cottage Cheese, strawberries, SF metamucil, cocoa powder,
Meal 3 - Lettuce, Yogurt, Egg beater, fibre 1, fish oil
Meal 4 - Tuna, fish oil
Meal 5 - Broccoli, hamburger
Meal 6 - Cottage Cheese, strawberries, SF metamucil, cocoa powder,

Additional: Crystal light, Diet Pepsi, SF salt, SF syrups, SF energy drink
Water: 5L

DoubleD - Thanks!! That coming from YOU certainly means alot!! :D

Have decided I'm going to start stretching again .. even if all I have time to do it is late in the evening before bed..
Very crazy day! Fuck - barley had enough time to eat! Oh well works out for me .. I *think* I'm going to have a cheat for Xmas
I'm just so scared .. for the voo-doo reason and I know that I'm going to go overboard, I mean IT'S CHRISTMAS! :( .. and I'm scared that when (becuase it's not a matter of if) I go overboard, if I'll .. well.. purge. Its not even so much the calories that I care about - It's the bloated, gross, gassy, water retaining, barfy feeling that last for a few days that I hate..
 
Tom - IT IS CHRISTMAS!!

You need to try to RELAX for the day. Forget about 'your diet' or the after effects of things and just allow yourself to eat a normal meal with your family. DO NOT try to cram EVERYTHING IN!!! Just EAT SLOWLY... And dish yourself SMALL and SENSIBLE PORTIONS...

Then drink LOTS of water...

And try to relax about it all..

At night - clean your teeth, go to bed and just get up the next day and get back to normal....

You HAVE GOT TO BREAK THE HABIT!
 
Tom_B said:
So I'm not sure what to do?.. Suggestions?
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I would just eat sensibly. Making sure that i ate to enjoy but not so much that i would make myself sick, espcially if i was going out.

Eat like it is a holiday, but eat slowly and chew properly. Focus on what is currently in your mouth and not what is left to eat. Give that a try and see how it makes you feel.
 
Dec 23

Training - Upper
Bent Over BB Rows: *45lbs* 5 *65lbs* 5 *115lbs* 6, 6, 6 *135lbs* 5, 5, 4
Decline BB Press: *45lbs* 5 *65lbs* 5 *120lbs* 7, 7, 7
WG lat Pulldown: *100lbs* 10, 81/4, 81/4
Cable Flies: *20lbs* 12, 10
Seated Face Pull: *50lbs* 14, 12
Preacher Curls: *80lbs* 0 *70lbs* 6, 6, 6
Weird Bar Pressdowns: *45lbs* 15, 15, 15

Tempo & RI's:
4-6 reps - (3/0/1), 2:00RI
6-8 reps - (3/0/2), 1:30RI
8-12 reps - (2-3/0/2), 1:00RI
12-15 reps - (2/0/2), :45RI

Core: rests as little as possible
Landmines: *Bar +30lbs* 8/8, 8/8, 8/
V-ups: *25lbs 12, 12, 12

Cardio cooldown: 20 minutes on treadmill

Great workout .. aside from the stuper I was in and I miscalculated the weights on my rows and curls..
Diet -
Meal 1 - Lettuce, Yogurt, whey, fibre 1,
*Peri/PWO* - skim milk, whey, creatine
Meal 2 - Lettuce, Yogurt, egg beater, fibre 1
Meal 3 - Broccoli, hamburger
Meal 4 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil, fish oil
Meal 5 - Cottage Cheese, cocoa powder, strawberries, SF metamucil, fish oil

Additional: Crystal light, Diet Pepsi, SF salt, SF syrups, SF energy drink, espresso
Water: 5L

Emma & Adrian: I know that's what I need to do .. But it's soooo hard! Becuase once I start it's like I go into this trance and hunger just takes over .. I just can not stop eating! I actually woke up two nights ago at 4am starving, just ravenous .. almost ate a 2L tub of ice-cream! :grin:
But I've decided you're right .. IT IS CHRISTMAS! So I'm going to indulge in anything and everything I want - but not to the point that I'm SICK. So what If I'm bloated? So what if I retain water? does it matter? Is anyone goign to be lifting up my shirt or touching my stomach and going 'oh your bloated' 'oh your holding 10# of water' HELL NO! So why do I care? Why am I trying to put a damper on how I celebrate and enjoy christmas??
:) Thanks for the words guys!

Another Crazy busy day - spent most of the day up in Moncton with Danika, Marc, Justin and Lukie!! :heartpump Was an amazing night! - Plus I was told I was getting abs! :banana: So The weighted ab work is really working lately .. it's weird my lower stomach feels "softer" (for lack of a better word) but at the same time it's more filled out.. Like I can defintly tell the muscles under there are building up :) And when I flex the muscle really shows through..
 
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