Woman of Wonder with great Desire

[chiquita6683]

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I started with 3day training in November but now I'm up to 5
days!
Per week, + I do cardio on Saturday and I also go to Yoga class
sometimes, there's a class everyday of the week but I only make
it
when I'm sore or had a really good day with everything.
Good Day = got ready in plenty of time, so I don't feel rushed,
remembered to take my supplements at every meal, if it's a really
good day?????? I might take my vitamins and supplements w just
straight
water in the morning. [I do take my supplements w every other meal w
straight water, but breakfast is the hardest, because I take Beverly
International's Super Pak (a lot of huge vitamins), 4 mass aminos
AND my prescription pills!] at a.m. meal I take pills/supplements
with unsweetened applesauce sometimes. I had a tracheotomy after my
1st accident, so it's a lil' hard to swallow sometimes

So here's my training day: Mon. =Legs/Abs, Tues. =Chest/Calves,
Wed. =Shldrs/Hams, Thurs. =Back/Abs, Fri. =Bi/Tri/Calves, n then I
go over to Gold's to tan and do 30 mins. + Cardio usually on the
elliptical machine. Oh yea, I found my trainer down the street from
there @Corey Everson's Fitness for Women. But that's another
story,
why I'm a member @both gyms, gotta stay focused on this post.
Yay!
Aren't u proud of me, my trainer wrote it down for me so I could
tell u

O yea! Another thing that was in that post that didn't make it
was
telling about the story about Friday??????????????????
LOL ok so u know how when u do a rep u can usually see your
muscle flex?
Well u could see mine baby! I must've had a smart, funny smirk
on
my face bc my trainer showed me what to do to be cocky
After I went in the manager's office, I was like "Excuse me?
Would u
like to Bi some of this ??????.. or just Tri it?" *flexing as I
said it*
It was so funny! She had me ask her next client n do the same thing.
I'm such a cocky lil' Shit! I can't wait to start
cutting! Shit,
after all that I've been through, I deserve to be a lil'
Cocky!

 

[chiquita6683]

~a few difficulties~

here's something to help you better understand what i'm going
thru/have a dificulty with. following my accident(S), i had a more
difficult time than i do now. however it does not mean that "It'll
Just Get Better" On Its Own, Eventually. this is a disability i will
have the rest of my life........this makes not only Bodybuilding
hard, but EVERYTHING in everyday life, but i make improvements
everyday.
However, i do have a personal trainer, and she has competed before,
and won. i have the right help to get me there, and the
drive..........
http://www.tbiguide.com/howbrainworks.html

 

[katie64]

Thanks for the site Maria, lots of great information there, my x-husbands brother was also injured in the frontal lobe area when he was a child, he was riding his bike down a big hill, crossed the road at the end and a car hit him, he still has difficulties now as an adult, but his outlook is much like yours, with a genuine desire to achieve anything. I have nothing but respect for you, life itself is a challenge, let alone with a disability, kudos to you babe

 

[chiquita6683]

omg! i just read some other people journals i am soo itimidated, i feel like a VERY FAT, VERY STUPID PEICE OF LARD.
i doubt ill post anything on here anymore

 

[Hammerlynn]

What?? Please dont feel like that and do not stop posting here! I'm 40lbs from where I should be and I certainly do not feel intimidated by anyone...more than anything I'm inspired on a daily basis. Looking at the pics, avis and hearing about the success of others! We beat ourselves up too much by comparing ourselves to others!

Come on girl...you've been through too damn much to turn away now!! I work with clients who are mentally retarded, have TBI and some cerebral palsy. You have overcome something amazing that some of them never will.....do not EVER give up!

Rant over

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by chiquita6683
omg! i just read some other people journals i am soo itimidated, i feel like a VERY FAT, VERY STUPID PEICE OF LARD.
i doubt ill post anything on here anymore

Oh No That would be terrible for you not to post anymore, please continue, we love seeing your progress, your enthusiasm alone is a great motivator for some of us. We all have varying goals and our walks are all different, you know what I am like from my PM's if I had compared myself to most of these women here, I would never be able to accomplish what I am, they have taught me what I need to learn about nutrition and training, if I had given up and left IM, I would be where I started. I am still only a 1/3 of the way to meeting my goals, I continue because of what others here have accomplished, I pray you change your mind and continue your journal, my PM offer still stands if you need, take care

 

[chiquita6683]

diet

ok sorry bout my last post, must've had a mood swing or something
Typical Day
700am- awake
Take supplements/vitamins/pills w 1c unsweetened applesauce
Eat pancakes = w 8eggwhites, 1/2c oatmeal + 1/4c sugar free syrup
About ½-1 qt water
Shower, get ready for gym, taxi gets me by 900am
I train w my personal trainer @930-1030, take more supplements, I go to another gym down street for 30-45minutes on elliptical machine, I get home around noon or 100

I shower and warm-up 1 of Chef Andreu???s meals??????could be 1 of the following:
Ziploc container = 1/2c section, 1c section, a big square section.
Big square section=
5oz. Chicken or steak
Seasonings= chicken- parmesan/romano cheese + Prego lite, tomato basil sauce /
Kikkoman???s Lite Teriyaki sauce
1c=
Sautéed fresh spinach cooked in olive oil/
Zuchinni and Squash, baked w something/
Spring Greens, 2tblsp Newman???s Own balsamic vinaigrette
1/2c=
6oz sweet potato/
Whole wheat pasta

Or (I make my breakfast and this on my own!)
Qrt. Size container of:
Spring greens and 1 can of low sodium tuna 3tbsp of Newman???s Own balsamic vinaigrette

I eat my brother???s ???special recipe??? of turkey meatloaf 1-2 times a day
I drink over a gallon of water a day
I hate protein powders, I only have 1 if I have to, whole foods are better, aren???t they?
Supplements= Beverly International???s Super Pak, Mass Amino 16 per day
I try to eat 5 times a day

arentcha prouda me?! i memberd alll that, thats alota stuff to think about! specially 4me

 

[katie64]

We're allowed moody days, we're women right




back at cha babe

 

[chiquita6683]

Bodybuilding is hard as shit!!!

ok itsabout 130 in the afternoon on saturday, i just woke up @1200. i honestly just feel like doing nothing today, but i guess ill do cardio later. ive eaten like a typical american since yesterday afternoon too. but ya know, who the fuck cares! competition isnt until like next year,or whenever my trainer says. which wont be 4 quite awhile...........so get this, i went on a date lastnite
the guy totally made me feel so special, and beautiful, n was really honored to take me out. so this was quite a unique date, we went to this hoity toity place, even the side of town it was on was hoity toity-Avondale, ooh! the restraunt was called Biscotti's, i've been there be4, the foods ok but the real reason u go there is 4 the deserts, they r like really decadent, rich and big.
so we get there n there is like a 25min wait, after like 15mins i say to him, "lets go........but i cant leave wout 1a these." i got some choclate cake w peanutbutter icing i think, but it was called some big name and like really big and beautiful and everything. he got choclate expresso cheesecake (also called some big pretty name). yea i had some of his, and ALL of mine.............
but we didnt eat there, we got the deserts to go and went to taco bell.
so ya know, it was really really nice to just 'not care, n be lazy as anything'. im not stuck up, n care what i look like, i look good damnit! n to have been where ive been n looked like the shit i look like, omg, i am amazing. i really do not give myself enuf credit! my head was 1/2 shaved, i was 220lbs, n omg!
k why wont the damn smileys work?
ok i just lost my traina thought/got distracted, n i dont wanna read everything i wrote. but im sure it was none of ur businness, but this a journal n i dont have any friends so yea my attentions gone, so ima just post it n regret it later i guess, thanx

 

[chiquita6683]

ok ya know what, as im sitting here im eating a pb & banana sandwich n its so damn good! last nite just threw off my focus, but 1 weekend isnt going to kill me rite? (tellme its gonna be ok) my trainer always says, when i tell her ive been/going to be bad, "tomorrows a brand new day" or something along those lines. i luv my trainer bc shes competed n yet she's still kind of a lil bit "normal", shell be like "i had wings n a 12pack lastnite" but then again she has competed be4 n will again, so when shes cutting she doesnt play around.
somebody on here said i should be inspired when i read the others journal, n my trainer says she looks at pictures of bbs for inspiration..........but ya know what, NONE of that inspires me. bc its like "theyre normal, they can do it" n none of yall have been thru the shit i have......but i do realize every body goes thru their own kind of shit, some of u guys just seem insane.

 

[chiquita6683]

uhhh!

ok ya know what, as im sitting here im eating a pb & banana sandwich n its so damn good! last nite just threw off my focus, but 1 weekend isnt going to kill me rite? (tellme its gonna be ok) my trainer always says, when i tell her ive been/going to be bad, "tomorrows a brand new day" or something along those lines. i luv my trainer bc shes competed n yet she's still kind of a lil bit "normal", shell be like "i had wings n a 12pack lastnite" but then again she has competed be4 n will again, so when shes cutting she doesnt play around.
But this sandwich is on wholewheat bread and im drinking water and i did 10mins on the stairmaster and35on the eliptical today!
somebody on here said i should be inspired when i read the others journal, n my trainer says she looks at pictures of bbs for inspiration..........but ya know what, NONE of that inspires me. bc its like "theyre normal, they can do it" n none of yall have been thru the shit i have......but i do realize every body goes thru their own kind of shit, some of u guys just seem insane.

 

[katie64]

Hi Maria

Just wondering how your doing????

 

[atherjen]

remember hun to not compare yourself to others or their goals, do this for yourself only! thats what matters the most! Best of luck

 

[chiquita6683]

yea thanx jen, i need to remember that! im doing good, training is still going good, no its great! awesome! my trainer n i are really proud.
diet is somewhat good i mean the rest of u it seems, keep super freaky clean diets(what ive seen) all thats important is that i get enough protein rite now right? its clean all week, but on the weekends its really hard, all my family and friends eat crap.......but its SO GOOD! and easy to just eat it (

 

[atherjen]

Originally posted by chiquita6683
yea thanx jen, i need to remember that! im doing good, training is still going good, no its great! awesome! my trainer n i are really proud.
diet is somewhat good i mean the rest of u it seems, keep super freaky clean diets(what ive seen) all thats important is that i get enough protein rite now right? its clean all week, but on the weekends its really hard, all my family and friends eat crap.......but its SO GOOD! and easy to just eat it (

glad to hear your having awesome workouts hun! Keep it up!
try the best that you can do with the diet. get your daily levels of protein, aim for complex carbs and get in some healthy fats.
if you need to let go a "bit" on the weekend dont be too hard on yourself. just remember everything in moderation.

 

[chiquita6683]

Update!

hey every1
omg everything is so awesome! ive started driving therapy (yea 4the second time) AND started cooking on my own!!!
everything is starting to come together! i hada great workout this morning! my trainer told me ill be doin everything on my own in no time! my next goal is gonna be to live independently on my own.......but i wanna continue to live this lifestyle also, forever! i really beleive that this kind of lifestyle has truly helped me! i mean i grocery shop n cook by myself, n its helped me alot cognitively, ive only burned myself a few times.....well actually all the time but NO cuts!.....yet anywayz ooh ooh! my speech has improved too! i mean i have my moments, but who doesnt and uh...........i forgot what else i was gonna say. ill post it later. o yea, im getting bigger! well my upperbody anywayz, but there was somethin else i was gonna say, gguuurrrrrrr!

 

[bandaidwoman]

Great news!

 

[chiquita6683]

o yea! i member now what i was gonsay! i changed my diet a lil last time i had driving therapy........so i had alreadty started cookin on my own and all, but i hadnt been to the grocery store yet (bc i hadnt gotten my check yet :blush: ) so i usually have alota protein for breakfast, but that morning [the day i hada driving session] i ate a bagel and a bowla cereal, no protein,.........
later that day in therapy, i was like kinda nervous n jerky w the wheel, n maybe 2hard on the brakes, n my therapist started asking me..........had i changed any meds, was i doing anything different. well i had worked bis/tris and calves that morning, i didnt change any meds.......whatabout my diet?......weeelllll, yea isnt it funny how suchalil thing can throw me off, jeeez!

 

[gwcaton]

Maria ,

Just checked out your journal for the first time. You have quite the story to tell. It sounds like you have the right attitude and desire to accomplish your goals !

Keep posting !

Gary

 

[chiquita6683]

thanx gary! i really appreciate everyones support.
how r u katie? i like ur new signature, but all those heads banging at the bottom need to go, theyre annoying for me to look at when im trying to read something, sorry u can leave it

 

[chiquita6683]

whoa am i really doing it?

ok whoa! i dunno what came over me this morning, but i woke up at 7am bright and early[4a sunday] and got to work. i made 3 days worth, every single meal. i made the protein pancakes, steak w peas n carrots, rosemary chicken w pole beans and wheat pasta, grilled chicken w pole beans n wheat pasta, then i can make the tuna lastminute. AND i cleaned the whole kitchen! i am soo prouda myself i was liike soo MULTI-tasking! i thought id never be able to do that i had laundry going and different things on different burners and something on the george foreman! i cannot beleive how far ive come!
i took an hr nap after only to eat something i hadnt made. but it was damn good!
omg i think of what i did and what i used to say in my head aboutpeople that live this lifestyle, totally intimidated,i was like 'yea theyre freaks!' but i am starting to look and feel like apart of it. i made a lifestyle change!.......yea, i have many reasons that say i shouldnt be able to do this,
its like i have to take a step back, am i really doing this?
this feels great! if i can do it w all the problemss i have, i think any1 can, maybe.
no no no remember how hard it was getting to this point? the day when i was so depressed i couldnt get myself out of bed,[medicine problems] going to therapy day in, day out
aaaaand ok bla bla bla my attentions spent

 

[chiquita6683]

omg! this is sooo friggin hard!
it takes me 40mins to a whole hour usually to consume a single meal! and yes thats even when its prepared. gurrrr!
it only takes my trainer like 5-10minutes to inhale a meal be4 or after a session of training.
boo hoo hoo! i had a bad day and i feel like whining about something!

 

[gwcaton]

AWW Maria !! It's ok , everbody is allowed to whine once in awhile .
Hey i checked out your Yahoo profile .... Wow ! you are a cutie !

keep up the good work !!!!!

Gary

 

[katie64]

Originally posted by chiquita6683
thanx gary! i really appreciate everyones support.
how r u katie? i like ur new signature, but all those heads banging at the bottom need to go, theyre annoying for me to look at when im trying to read something, sorry u can leave it

Hey sweetie, you have made some HUGE improvements, good for you girl Removing the head bangers just for you, I'm sick of looking at 'em too

Hey I'm coming down your way next week, I'll be there for 3 weeks on the East Coast, where are you??? I'd love to meet you, think about it, PM me when you have some extra time..

Your very encouraging for me babe, thank you

 

[chiquita6683]

I CAN DO IT!!!!

omigosh!~gasp~
today i did a workout on my own! (sort of, in time i will!) the fact that i even had the guts to think i could do it though, whoa!
likea year when i was trying to loose weight on my own,........ok i joined a new different gym. then it was like i didnt even no how to work out, i got lost in the gym, couldnt count a whole set, it was soo frustrateing! and so i had some very low points, i leave out how upset i got, my father saw this and did something about it..........but i would have mooore waiting, thats all my life is since my accidents, hurry up n wait, then i met Kris, she is teaching me how to do this! its been along time getting to this point! haha and im only gonna go even further baby!!!
sorry im skipping around allot and putting down incomplete thoughts but i cant type fast enough, concentrateing! well whatever idk i hada good workout! my confidence is building as im more independent and my body changes....ah!!!! im so damn prouda myself!

 

[gwcaton]

Way to go Maria !

Gary

 

[chiquita6683]

boohoo!

i forgot to make the post i just made in word like katie said n i pressed something wrong n the whole thing is gone! gurrrr! hate it when that happens! o well ill post it tomorrow if i remember

 

[chiquita6683]

boohoo!

i forgot to make the post i just made in word like katie said n i pressed something wrong n the whole thing is gone! gurrrr! hate it when that happens! o well ill post it tomorrow if i remember

 

[chiquita6683]

boohoo!

i forgot to make the post i just made in word like katie said n i pressed something wrong n the whole thing is gone! gurrrr! hate it when that happens! o well ill post it tomorrow if i remember

 

[chiquita6683]

cutting soon!

wow i have soo much to tell u. im gonna start cutting! 12 weeks.but be4 that im going to the cheesecake factory day be4 i start
not cutting 4a competition, but my aunt retired in febuary, in about 12 weeks, were going to Mellorca. one of the balearic islands off the coast of spain n france. its like the european vacation spot, maybe ill see somebody famous but i actually wanted to cut bc ive seen changes in my body, and my trainr says its good to cut, ill get harder n stuff everytime.
hahaha, damnit im not shy! after going thru what ive been thru and loosing over 50lbs, u better beleive i prance aroud my gym ina sportsbra, something i never did be4.
theresa nude beach! i want to be the best looking 1 on the beach! i hope thats not like,.......whats the word ...... im like not into looks n stuff,i hate bbs that use juice, n have silicone breasts thats the only reason y i hate bbing n stuff, i go to competitions n it seems like every1 stuckup or fake and beautiful. im really sorry if some women have fake boobs and are reading this. ima natural kinda gal, always have been and will be. but i was always fat and had boobs.
okay sorry got off the subject there, anyway so ill start cutting tuesday n go on the trip in may i think. i might post my diet later but my attentions shot