DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!
omg more waiting!!!!! i just sat down w my neurophycologist and
driving therapist, dad and sister......the news was im not ready to
drive yet on my own. she wasnt seeing enuf improvement...yet. there
will be another neurophych and driving evaluation in september. i
wanted to cry, my driving therapist was crying. but she said keep up
what i am doing, there was great/many improvements since my last
injury. soo im gonna keep working on my goal, to compete in figure.
its really important, i be really consistant w everything. diet,
workouts, meds, everything. today was so shitty. i didnt train this
morning bc i spent the day w my sister, which was fine. but i got
outa wack w my diet, and my trainer told me to stop cardio since
thursday bc im about to start cutting. so i feel likea fat bum.
ill just have to focus on cutting, instead of getting depressed
again. i could just sit on my azz n cry the rest of my life, but no
im determined, to be the best I can be. more healing needs to take
place so i can drive again, but maybe ill never drive. damnit i need
to move some place where u dont need to drive!
