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Woman of Wonder with great Desire

Re: growin up

Originally posted by chiquita6683
This is a part of growing up, my group I mean.
The group doesn't make me look as good as a person. But during
this time in my life, I do not get to spend much time with the good
friends I do have. I have many people that love me in my life, and I
am very thankful for them.
So I'm very sorry but I will not make as many posts as often as I
have. I think I am a very determined person. So when I came up with
this goal, there is no stopping me!
I had an experience this weekend that told me I shouldn't try so
hard, take a few steps back. I think that is right, and I am very
glad because of it.
I'm also very impatient. I want (almost) everything right then. I
think many (mature) people that have joined the group do realize
this.
Thank you for all your support, I hope this group keeps increasing.
So I will make posts before and after CompetitionS that I do in the
future. If I give inspiration to others then that is wonderful but
that is not my motivation of working out.
:thumb:

Sorry to hear you won't be posting as much... but glad to hear you're still gonna compete. Make sure you at least stop by and give us some pics of your trophy. :D
 
thanx guys

Yes, of course I'll still be around! just not gonna be so personal thats all! i decided to just take it easy n train and not follow such a rigid diet/lifestyle. i need 2 have fun! u better beleive i'm gonna post pics when i get trophie(s)!
 
Great attitude girl! Do what you feel is best for YOU!!! :yes: thats all that matters. :)
 
thanx jen! luv ur monkey! how do i getta avatar?
 
:D ooh ooh! :banana:
2day, i trained w a BOYtrainer! omg, hehe!:clap:
and wow he is totally hot! like i wanna datehim, he was like soo checking me out n drooling! it was back/abs day! n i have sucha awesome back. i usta be a swimmer, so its all thick n cutup:D
i train w kris on tuesday again so we still checkin on eachother. but she is @Corey Everson's Fitness for Women. i had no confidence, i was fat and could barely talk when i came to her......she taught me like HOW to work out. omg i love her! now i can go in2 any gym and be able to train! i didit when i went to orlando! yay! now i just need direction.
IM REALLY DOING THIS!!! im inshape and beautiful, i look like one of the people in the magazines!:dancer: i thought i could NEVER do this, but now........i know i havent competed yet, but i look like a competitor!:thumbs:
ok i have an avatar picked out!
 
Congrads :)
 
:wtf: :bawling:
why is this soo hard for me???:yell:
I honestly donot think i can ever do this! im trying the impossible. my sister is so worried, she thinks i am too stringent.....my doctor thinks im hypoglycemic whatever that means, all my moms side had diabetes. they were all fat tho, she could have controlled it better.
i just havent been myself these last few weeks!. meds were changed. blood tests and eeg were ordered again. i need to start accutane again but i got too much goin on. im getting my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow. so i cant train 4a week.WHY AM I DOING THIS?!!! omg im really putting 2much pressure on myself, i need to live life and make it more balanced. its been all bodybuilding:whip: :attitude:
:bawling: i dont think i can do it!
 
Seems like you flip flop every post... from really optimistic to completely pessimistic.

Just stay consistent, keep workin at it, dont let the small stuff get you down... you'll get there. You already look really good! :thumb:
 
yea so im sorry im so moody in my posts, i guess i just post when i feel really good or really bad. so i havent been in the gym since last thursday, i eaten soo bad too.:finger:
i got my wisdom teeth out last friday:( so that can be my excuse for being so fat right? hahaha
i cant wait to get back in the gym
 
Dont let the little hiccups get ya down... just keep your goal in the back of your mind, and you'll get there. :D
 
Originally posted by chiquita6683
:D ooh ooh! :banana:
2day, i trained w a BOYtrainer! omg, hehe!:clap:
and wow he is totally hot! like i wanna datehim, he was like soo checking me out n drooling! it was back/abs day! n i have sucha awesome back. i usta be a swimmer, so its all thick n cutup:D
i train w kris on tuesday again so we still checkin on eachother. but she is @Corey Everson's Fitness for Women. i had no confidence, i was fat and could barely talk when i came to her......she taught me like HOW to work out. omg i love her! now i can go in2 any gym and be able to train! i didit when i went to orlando! yay! now i just need direction.
IM REALLY DOING THIS!!! im inshape and beautiful, i look like one of the people in the magazines!:dancer: i thought i could NEVER do this, but now........i know i havent competed yet, but i look like a competitor!:thumbs:
ok i have an avatar picked out!


Maria !!!!!! Checking out the trainer !!!! Hmmmmm :cool:

You're doing great ! What have you picked for your avatar ?
 
Originally posted by chiquita6683
yea so im sorry im so moody in my posts, i guess i just post when i feel really good or really bad. so i havent been in the gym since last thursday, i eaten soo bad too.:finger:
i got my wisdom teeth out last friday:( so that can be my excuse for being so fat right? hahaha
i cant wait to get back in the gym


Hey,

You can/will make it . Look how far you have come already !

Go Maria !!!!!!!!!! Yeah baby ! :thumb:
 
Hello!! How old are you if you don't mind me asking???
 
i am only twenty yrs old! 2-0!!!:D
my trainer says she wishes she started @my age, but shes only 26.:p think of what ill look like when im her age!
My GOALS are:
To Compete as a Bodybuilder
Live INDEPENTLY, on my own, no man, no CARETAKER
be a personal trainer,
and Im sure I have others, just cant think of em now

i WILL accomplish all of this! i have my whole life ahead of me!
u no before i began training back in november, i wasnt very confident that i could do any of that, i didnt even think/dream of goals............i thought i was really stupid, i even wished i had died in the 1st accident.:doh:
now i DO realize that i am a beautiful woman and i have alot to offer this world (and even a man?:O)
 
WoW You have a lot of Confidence!!!:)
 
hell yea, ima cocky lil shit now! :D
u guys just dont no the lack of confidence and depressions ive been thru! when i was fat and my speech! omg my speech was so different! i talked sooooooooo slooooooooooooooooooooww, u couldnt understand me! it would take me so long to get a thought out, then they couldnt hear me bc my voice was so low! it was like a whisper, and very monotoned.
u no how people act in front of/to a really disabled person? they think their stupid and talk loud n stuff, how do u think this made me feel?
i was loud in hs, the swim season was be4 the accident, my senior yr, i used to be a leader on the team, lead team cheers, get the team all pumped be4 meets. so this was quite a different life 4me
now im very different, new n improved!
 
WOW!! sounds like you have come a long ways!!! :clap: way to go girl!!!
great attitude and I love the way you lay out your goals! with that youll reach them and beyond for sure!!!! :banana:
 
thanx guys

thank you Jen!:love: everyone is always so supportive!
ha baby I have come soooo far!:thumbs: i am just now realizing this i think, thats y im so damn cocky. it really is such a great feeling, this change, and positive!
i think fitness has brought this feeling out of me (again?) um i have plenty more to say about everything but ima takea break for awhile.
yea notice how im just now making this like a real journal, bc im improving MORE.....and i made comments in (almost)everyone elses journals? sooooooo yea i unsubscribed to them again bc i dont like my mailbox full of every1s posts and my attention really doesnt last that long, so dont expect very long posts or anything
 
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i have a yahoo group 2, Thanx HANs!

Subject: [Chiquitas_Comeback] $12 of Arby's, just filling u in, again maybe?

*sigh* ok ok, so i'm not dieting anymore :(
over a week ago, my body started to cut up, and i saw how little i
was, i told A trainer "F____ Figure, I wanna show this off, have a
routine!" itll feel like more of a Comeback then.
I don't know what all I've written in all the other posts, and I
dont have the attention to read all of them.....The last few weeks I
havent been myself, I was taking my medicine the wrong way.
Anyways, I just had a bunch of tests run on me so I'm waiting on
the results, my Doctor straightened me out on my meds, and I'm
growing up....Again.
I was going to say something else but forgot :(

so i didnt post this there, but this is spose 2 be a journal right? anyway, i said i was taking the wrong meds/no the wrong way, rite meds. omg i made such a fool of myself! k ill post that later, remind me if i dont.
so like i dont have many friends (yet) so im just gonna tellya ill probly write things that r no1s bizness, but its not like i have 20 girlfriends to xpress my feelings to. ive never kept a journal either, im really glad i did it.
Hardasnails told me about Ironmag along time ago. i wasnt as far along cognitively as i am today. i looked at it breifly, n didnt really understand all of it, i was like yea ok thats nice, another site about BB. he told me to make a journal afew times 2, i wasnt bout to make a journal! i assumed every1 on here had competed before, and all smart n stuff, and all of you really are truely intelligent. but bodybuilders really intimidated me.
when i came up with this goal along time ago. i really had NO confidence, i couldnt see me losing over 50lbs or being able to go in front of a crowd, that still scares me a little bit.
ive begun to realize that Bbs are like every1else just w a different kind of drive! (i wish i could say that more eloquently but it wont come out:gosh:)
so anyways my attentions spent 4now. but thank you HAN!
it was you and my trainer Kris that have helped me in a way, i cannot express enough grattitude :love:
so im gonna end this ina sec but ill say that yahoo is the easiest thing on the internet to figure out, i made the group when i began training, i have more photos on there.........it was hard 4 me to figure out how on here. and i still havent figured everything out, the avatar!
 
omg! it just said that i had 2many images in my post so i pressed back and it was gone!!!!!:bawling: it was sooo long! i had been working on it all afternoon! :yell: damit! gawd i always get screwed when im trying my hardest! :yell:
:bawling: it was so good! it was telling u about my other goals in life, and all the driving therapy that ive been thru and why. omg! :fire:
 
yea yea yea, another time!:headbang:
 
lol, its done that to me too.

ive just started highlighting my posts and copying them to the clipboard before i hit submit, that way if it doesnt post, i can just click paste and my post is right there again. :D
 
So Here is some Bodybuilding Drama I started!

Subject: that bitch! She uses the Juice!


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You know how awhile ago I posted something about Gina Davis's yahoo
group? Well I found out that she is NOT natural! I thought she was.
I just can't stand people who get on here and say that they're
totally Natural when they're not. I totally hate that!
Don't get me wrong, it is a person's personal desicion to use
steroids. But I just don't beleive that God would want us to put
anything UNnatural in our bodies.
So after coming through what I have been through, and seeing the
other patients conditions and hearing their stories, I really want
to come back and be the best that I can be, personally. I don't care
about winning or any of the Bodybuilding Politics.
........Now I do think that it is so "kick ass":P when a Natural
person can beat a person on juice. Just shows you how blessed the
natural person with good genetics!



posted this in my group, we'll see if she responds, if she does it really shows how insecure she is! i posted in my group and hers that i was excited that she had a group too, i spoke to her one day along time ago on yahoo pm, and she swore she was natural! :nope: :nut:
i dont care! im confident...now. i heard that shes really insecure and bitchy2.:D :p
 
Wonder Woman! dahdadun!

i pasted that post as a new thread in training 2
im able to reply to other posts now 2! yay! im so prouda myself.:D i made like a really long reply in greekys journal and i even figured out how to change colors!!! :banana: yay, go me! woohoo!
ok so i relize that u all think that ima doof 4 being so prouda this, but like EVERY little thing is soo hard 4me, now! it takes me so looong time to do everything, im like so more focused [than a regular person](on this goal) bc i have to be!
but is any1 realizing this? i notice all the little things of everyday life, bc its that much harder! its called TBI traumatic brain injury, well i have 2 of them! i feel really bad, i used2get depressed- everytime i do something stupid, like forget something. im so paranoid! like when something needed my signature, id tell whoever that it was gonna be awhile bc i write really slow
u know what.............*opening my heart here, really personal*......the 1st accident happened over Xmas break, my senior yr of hs. 12-28-00:( i was in a coma till febuary 12th, i could barely speak, i had forgotten EVERYTHING! i had to wear diapers 4awhile when they took the catheter out. :blush: i had broken my pelvis in 2 places in the accident, so i had to learn how to walk by hopping on 1 leg in PT 4along time till it healed and i could put pressure on it. my PT would get mad at me when i put my other foot down real quick, for balance, my equilibriums screwed..... you see why im like omg, this is so hard! ................about everything, and none of u knew any of this! or do u understand anything. u people[and the general public] just ASSume everything is ok, ima normal chick just like every1else.
ok wait i have more to say be4 i jump to another point, (im so bad bout that!).............after i came outa the coma i had to learn 2 eat again also, i had a feeding tube, then i was fed puree food, :barf: but u no what, i ate every single bit of it! i wished i could've licked it some days! then they taught me how to use a spoon when i could situp real strong like. lol i think i did lick it then!
and my SPEECH! regular talking, that has come from 'an acorn to an entire forest!'.................. but*sigh* itll never be the way it was :gosh: swim season is @the begining of the school year so it had just ended, and boy did i make some memories!!! i guess i really shoulda been captain, but it was the coaches first year[new], and the senior that had the best grades got capt. but i was the 1 that got the team fired up be4 swim meets baby! hell yea, i had the loudest voice! i led most of the team cheers, n the 1s i didnt u could hear me over everyone. the freshman really looked up2me. n so @districts i got my relay team really fired up for the 4x100yd freestyle relay, i had so much addrenallin in me. i broke a minute in the 100 free, for the 1st time! n thats really not that good or anything, but 4me personally! [we went to state n i made other memories there.] thats y i like bodybuilding so much.(have more to say about bb point) so after my accident it was like a whisper, it took soo much effort to even say a word and it was slooooow and monotoned.
k so i luv my speech therapist and shes coming to my 1st competition:D along with a ton more people. hehehe i really hope i dont mess up! i hope i can remember a routine, i havent tried it yet:gosh:


um ima see if itll let me post this right now, ive been working on this all afternoon, started round 1ish and its almost 5 now. i did it in word pad, i membered this time! woohoo yaya me!:p




but i think i realize that i need to get over it and know that its ok! "normal" people do this, that havent been thru anything, all the time! right? every1s not a genuis! and im pretty smart, damnit! <<<<thats some point that i was gonna elaborate on but i wanted to elaborate on what i was talkin bout 1st so i entered it downafew times
 
o yea!

so i missed the whole 2nd semester and missed all the "senior moments" like prom, senior trip ect ect i was :yell:
but i did walk in graduation! i even gotta standing ovation:D
so i miss the 2nd 1/2 of the semester........"when i came outa the coma" (gawd i feel like i say that alot! but thats ok, bc i havent been able to tell any1. bc when i talk its slow in the first place, n i forget what im talkin bout in the middle of a sentence, but i can write it out, kinda, i feel like soo much better now! im becoming a NEW WOMAN, like the old me, outgoing n stuff, i used to never ever talk, now u cant shut me up!)...........anyway, so i missed the whole 2nd semester and missed all the "senior moments" like prom, senior trip ect ect i was :yell:
but i did walk in graduation! i even gotta standing ovation:D
so i miss the 2nd 1/2 of the semester........"when i came outa the coma" (gawd i feel like i say that alot! but thats ok, bc i havent been able to tell any1. bc when i talk its slow in the first place, n i forget what im talkin bout in the middle of a sentence, but i can write it out, kinda, i feel like soo much better now! im becoming a NEW WOMAN, like the old me, outgoing n stuff, i used to never ever talk, now u cant shut me up!)...........anyway back 2 what I was sayin ???when I came outa the coma??? lol??????I had forgotten Everthing right? Well I had school in the hospital, a hospital/homebound program. And Mrs.Culpepper, tested me and my math was @2nd gd level and I don???t member what reading was at, like 4th or 5th! Sooo we got busy I had work to do! Everyday I would get up, my occupational therapist would come to my room, and she would teach me how to get ready! She made a checklist, go2bathroom, brush hair,(front of it was shaved, I had contusions or something, they did 2releive pressure in my brain) put on shorts, put on bra, t-shirt, brush teeth, ect. get back in wheelchair, remember my pelvis was broken 2) eat, go 2therapy then bout 10 or 11 have class, and she reviewed all the grade levels with me. I even had to study my Xs tables again! I remember, studying them with my bf. Yes I stayed with him. Ill copy my reply in stacey???s journal here.
 
i actually stayed w his sorry azz n he dumped ME!

getchu some! Post #621

hahaha! glad the trying has been goin on, im sure ur having loads of fun!
least some1s gettin some! im sure as hell not!
i never get any
my last real boyfriend was the 1 that got me in the first accident. and he DUMPED ME! we only dated 2months be4 the accident, we said we loved eachother i was young n dumb(17) so after i woke up from the coma i heard what happened n i was like "if we can make it thru this, we can make it thru anything! well be 2gether 4ever" ha! well he stayed w me thru some ruf times for 8 more months. i guess he felt bad, bought me 8 sundresses(that didnt fit) and 5 bottles of perfume for my 18th birthday, + all this other stuff. now "im growin up alil bit!" haha, mmmmm if he saw me NOW



yea i cant remember how to do that lil quote thing but im replying back to her reply, i think i asked her if she was pregnant. sorry it takes me along time


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