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Lame ass reason for not leaving? I think you are attacking a strawman, or either you missed the entire point of my post which was my family and friends are the only thing in my world that mean anything to me. Anything else I could give or take. They are the only thing that I would even have second thoughts about dropping in a second. If my friends and family up and moved to a third world country, I would go with them. I would have left here to explore a long time ago, had it not been for my mom. If you think that is lame, then maybe you are the one with the warped priorities.
I am dying to go elsewhere. Not because I dislike the US. I am simply indifferent. I see the world now as I saw my families land when I was young. Sure, the house was air conditioned and comfortable, but I explored every acre of our land and most of my neighbors just to settle my curiosity. The backwoods and swamps were nasty and dangerous with snakes, alligators, bugs, ect, but it was fun, and I loved every second of it.
I don't know if I have mentioned it before, but for the past 6 months or so, I have been struggling with the decision of going abroad. One deal breaker has been my mom. I have tried to rationalize my way out of the guilt I would feel for leaving her behind, when I feel that I need to be near her in case something should happen. My mom, mother, and brother are all in poor health right now. I keep feeling like leaving would be like turning my back on them.
I still might go. One side of me feels that nobody how much I love them, I don't owe them my life. I would hate to stick around only to resent them because I let my guilt keep me from doing what I wanted to do. It is pretty deep shit, and I struggle with it often. I hope you can understand that?
You really need to get out there because, as one smart man put it: travelling narrows the mind wonderfully.
Hell, I dare you, I double dare you, to move to Johannesburg.