Good replies all around, going to do some serious repping.....Yeah it really sucks right now, i feel isolated and that everyone is pissed off at me. You only get one life to live here on hearth and i will do what the fuck I want. I want to be a firefighter and I have a test coming up before long and i want to be at my biggest and at my best for all of that. Any advantage I can get is a good one because it is a very tough job to land with all of the people that are gunning for it. I fucking hate that eveyone around me doesnt understand the juicing, im sure they literally think that it is just a fucked up drug that leads to addiction and shit like that. And yeah to the guys that said it, i could go out and get some tail if i want but I love this girl, yeah yeah flame away, but shes the love of my life so im pretty scared about continuing on with all of this, to be honest, im in a real fucking pickle right now.