OK.....this was crystal clear this morning.....but now lol
I'm trying to deal with
psychological aspects of BULKING.
The following may sound egotistical, but my sincere desire is to make some sense of it all, as I see many many go through ups and downs of daily physique changes! While it happens at almost all levels of BF......I've got to say, like a model noticing the effects of aging....these changes are perhaps more pronounced in men under 12-14% BF and Women under 16-18%.
Many times we have eluded to daily physique changes as functions of hydration, glycogen depletion or replacement, pump versus no pump....and BF levels. Of course BF doesn't change that much daily, the other factors do......and cause astounding changes in the degree of definition one is sporting at any given moment
The comments: "I look like shit" at one extreme...and "I look good" at the other. The leaner you are, the more frequent the observation changes.....w/o narcissicism, but some body dysmorphia (inability to see yourself accurately). The plain simple truth is. "You can't look good 100% of time!" (and we secretly hate those that do)
Now my annual pattern is (now this is the egotistical part, but I hope what I'm getting at helps others)...is to remain fairly lean year round....6-7% t 208-211. At that "level"....I can strip down to my tank, and look like a pre-contest BB on almost any day. A little pump, a few carbs, water manipulation.......and I can plan w/o fault how to look my best at a given time, almost to the minute.
For shits and giggles I cut down into the "fives" twice a year (201-203...so you can see the LBM loss). This produces a different look, more striations, more veins (branching), muscles begin to have sisters, ridges and flats spots, peaks and valleys you'd forgotten you had because you don't see then everyday. But doing this is less than healthy. The joints hurt more, the skin drys, the mood swings, strength and energy drop.....and the few extra cuts, the pleasing feeling the mirror brings......just doesn't seem worth it.
In this range......you can tell what food, liquid, an exercise does to and for the body. You can blurr definition with a drink, a few ounces of the wrong food, over carbing, under-carbing. Carbs hit at different rates....it's so challanging to figure out what works and when, knowing that the body adapts and acclimates so quickly sometimes.....what works the last time (days, weeks, months ago), may not work this time. It can be so frustrating.
(at this point I was thinking about deliniating things I've learned, but they seem so specific to me....maybe later as it is my journal, ..............OK...maybe just a few)
24 hours under 30-40 C and I look better
48 hours under 30-40 C and I go flat
72 hours under 30-40 C and I must carb
3-4 hours after simple carbs I look good
12 hours after more complex carbs I look a little nicer
Too many carbs, as in a few meals in a row, and I spill
then 24 hours after that I look better....a cycle
Coffee blurs me, caffeine pills do not
Oatmeal bloats me, Sweet potatoes do not
Lemon Crystal light (limited) is a diurectic, other flavors bloat me
Balance bars produce a nice cut 3-12 hours later as a carb source
Nuts are bad.......cheese is bad! Although neither are devatating!
So, this being my first BULK in many many years......and having grown up as "the fat kid"...the last one picked for sports, last one called to play....the mentality of eating to gain w8 was very troubling. As a weightlifter......I hit 233 at 18%, but it was never about "How good you looked"...always about "How much can you lift?"
At 223......pushing 10%.....today 220, BF in the 9's (I've have had so many tests...I pretty much can tell)......the ONLY time I approach my "year round" norms....is when I'm sufficiently pumped....like 10-12 sets into a W/O. Until then, the size and shape are enormous, but w/o the cuts and veins, and then only with maybe 80% of what you are normally sporting....the fear of "Im gonna get fat!" or, "This is gonna be so freaking hard to lose again" just play HAVOC with your mind! Size is nice, but at low levels of BF.....my 220 looks like 235....and when more cut, my 208 looks like 220-225. I can have the "illusion" of size, w/o the bloat. w/o the gorging, w/o the loss of definition.
I guess if I have a point here, besides being mental..........the body changes. If you want it appear a certain way, with fewer unfavorable changes....then certain sacrifices have to be made in the name of CONSISTANCY!
Also....it's important to know how and what changes your physique.......you are an experiment of one......but it takes so much time for trial and error experimentation (Let's Save Time).........if helps "To Know" and "To NOT screw up"...matter of fact...if you had a Job Description for your Body's Goals...it would be one sentence
"Don't fuck up!"
