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OK here is my journal.

Hmm, Danilee and NG parting it up in Italy. Damn me for leaving ;)

Have a good weekend, hope you have fun with team DP/w8 :D
 
Ok,This weekend went very well...Did'nt keep up with the posting, but kept on track with diet and training..

I am going to be hiring DP and W8 to help me with a "possible" pre comp diet...Not sure on the pre comp, but they are going to help me with my immediate goals. So I am sure soon my diet and training will be changing, but I am sure nothing too radical.

Today was good
2300 cals 165 carbs 220 pro. hmmm I forget the fat content, get that later.

Legs, trained heavy, and started doing box squats to get my squat form at it's very best.

It looks like last week precieved waist thickness was indeed just a lot of water..It is gone now...

Here was my diet
meal 1
6 egg whites 1 yolk
.5 tbs olive oil
3.5 oz chicken

meal2
2 scoop des whey
1 tbs udos
peaches slices (7)

meal 3
4 oz steak
4 oz chicken
salad
1/2 tbs olive oil

meal 4
5 oz chicken
2 tbs pb
veggies

meal 5
2 tbs pb
2 scoop des whey

meal 6 carb meal
1.5 cups cooked rice
40 raisins
1 tbs cream
7 oz sweet pot. had this in 2 meals
5 liters water

I am now 148 dressed, weight I know is no big deal, water weight for us girls is very fly by night...I feel very solid, and can see some fullness in the shoulders and chest...Legs feel good, and can slightly(very pale, and not tan) see some definition, and can really feel the seperate muscle groups...I am unsure if at this point much fat loss will happen, and really I just want to see improvements in strength, and maybe some more fullness, wihtout putting on more fat, or getting any softer...Still being able to live life(and not have to do 1 hour cardio session a day) this is why the contest thing may or may not happen...I have gone with some large weight fluctuations in the past year in a half, and my body was having NO MORE...I have to give it time and nov may be too soon...Maybe next spring is a better goal...I just came off 7 day a week cardio, and contest dieitng(on and off) for the past year...So, while I think W8 and DP, could be a great team for me, I am not sure my bod wants to do this again just yet...I just had my first period 2 MONTHS IN A ROW, and that has not happend in a very long(years) time. While I don't like having full hips, and no six pack, it seems my insides do. I am getting married soon, and looks like I am going to be having problems with fertility so many more questions to be asked of myself. So far my missed periods AND CONTEST DIETING have been the best birth control,...Although not trying to control it(everyone would be happy) it seems as though a year in half is long time for no pregnancy to occure...The dieting will do that to ya I guess

..More journaling later..

danilee
 
Your getting married? When did that happen? I thought that there were some issues with your/his job?

I am excited for you. I love weddings and i am a planning freak, so mine is pretty much already thought out (even though i am not engaged yet). Let me know all the details of the wedding. Pics are definately a must.
 
J'Bo

Although we have had our issues, and indeed his career as an officer may be effected, we have lived together almost two years, and have been best friends for the duration of that...Believe me, this man is one I don't think I will EVER give up...I have done some pretty hairy stuff, and he takes it in stride, and makes me want to be a better person..Just when I feel pressured, by his family and his job, I start to get upset..I feel I am not doing things the way I WANT, not even the way HE truly wants, but the way EVERYONE ELSE WANTS...

It is important for him for me to meet his mother(she is a minister, and I have always felt that she did not think much of me) we are going there in August...So somtime around there.

I also was married to a HS sweetheart, the DAY he came back from basic training at 17 years old...He was off to Guam..He wanted me to come too, so we got married with the JP and NO ONE ELSE. So this would be my 2nd marriage, but truly a thought out one, and all benefits weighed...A mature marriage I guess...I don't like big weddings(sorry) I like to put the effort between us two first and formost...It is so easy to lose each other in the shuffle. We live in Hawaii, so I suppose a small ocean side wedding in Maui or Kaui, more than likly no family...Just us...I guess that seems strange, but it really is just US anyway...Him traveling and us moving due to his job leaves us with just each other for the next 10 years or so...So I guess that is symbolic..Although he is definilty tied deep with his family, things will probably work out this way.

So are you even involved with anyone?

Take care
danilee
 
Danilee,

Now i see what is going on girl. Congrats and it sounds like this guy is a keeper. There is nothing better than an understanding and supportive man. Big weddings are overrated (even though i personally want one) it sounds like an intimate solo day would suit you two perfectly. Everything will turn out well, and i am sure his mother will love you like we do.

I have been going out with a great guy for just over 4 years. We are planing to move to the usa soon and are excited about starting a new chapter in our lives. As for a wedding, not yet and i dont know when. You guys will be one of the firsts to know though. Plus i also have a crush and cyber fling with Kuso. Hhahahaha. I love this place.

Take care our little beauty.;)
 
J'Bo,

I am glad to hear you have a honey, I thought you were saying you already planned a wedding before the man came along lol.

I have read through you journal, but I forget where you are...Canada???? What part of the USA will you be moving too?...Yes starting a new life together in a different country sounds very romantic and excititing...So now you are the Donut queen hehehe...You are soo cute...I saw how DP pegged you as such in a older thread....You take things in stride

Also, does kary odatiu(sP?) have a website?

danilee
 
Danilee, Congratulations. I hope you have a wonderful marriage. :)

I know w8 and DP will set you up, but can I ask why you have rice and sweet potato the last meal, and only protein the first meal. Probably has something to do with your schedule, but I would think it should be just the opposite. :)
 
Thanks craig.

The reason why the carbs are not spaced out through out the entire days is beacuae that day was a 'refeed or carb up day" It happens 2 times a week..Sunday and thursday...The rest of the week is low carb less than 60 grams of non starchy veggies and whatever is in my pro shakes...It is macro nutrient cycling, and while I have done this before, it is the first time I am doing it and understanding the hows and whys...Many benefits, really too long to post here...A good book that EXHAUSTs the subject is Nat. Hormonal enhacment. Faigin...It is low carb with carbs ups in the simplest terms...
Hope your training is going well, with your trainer I would expect so:)
Have a great day craig...
danilee
 
Just thought I'd say hi! I love reading your journal. You always have an interesting way of writing your thoughts! What you said about a small wedding is true- I had never thought of it that way. I like Jbo have been with my BF for 4 years, still waiting for the moment- hopefully it will be soon. Part of me wishes we were one of those couples so madly in love that after 4 mos we get married- but here we are 4 years later;) I am not in a rush though- I want to be 1000% sure. Take care Danilee.
 
Hey Danilee~ Congratulations on getting married!! Your guy sounds great, and I wish ya'll TRUE HAPPINESS!!!:heartpump :heartpump
Marrying your best friend is the way to go!! Thats what I did!!!
I think thats great your having a small wedding.. do it the way you guys want! OHHH Its going to be beautiful by the beach!!! lucky!! I had a Big one... because our parents wanted the big thing~yeah I did too .. kinda.. because as a little girl its what I always wanted.. but then I got scared of all the people, etc. . Well we had the big thing.. (650-700 people)~ church, band, hall, food, dance.. etc.... first it cost a TON of money, AND LOTS OF HEADACHES.. 2nd.. you were sooo right when you you said in your other post: "It is easy to lose each other in the schuffle" Right on the money babe!! My husband and I were nuts the hole 6 months before the wedding.. WE Made it through it.. but oh how wonderful a beach wedding for us Two ONLY Sounded~~~ GO FOR IT!!! CONGRATS!! When do you think You guys will do it?? After meeting his mom in August? I am SURE SHE WILL LOVE YOU!!!! I know you have got to be scared being that she is a minister.. but just treat her like shes a Doctor or something.. lol!!

okay really, just wanted to say CONGRATS! You will make a beautiful Bride!!
 
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Originally posted by danilee
J'Bo,

I am glad to hear you have a honey, I thought you were saying you already planned a wedding before the man came along lol.

I have read through you journal, but I forget where you are...Canada???? What part of the USA will you be moving too?...Yes starting a new life together in a different country sounds very romantic and excititing...So now you are the Donut queen hehehe...You are soo cute...I saw how DP pegged you as such in a older thread....You take things in stride

Also, does kary odatiu(sP?) have a website?

danilee

Yes i am from Canada, Winnipeg, Manitoba. My bf is going down to Florida next week to check it out. His mom lives there right now, and i will be very excited if he comes back with thumbs up.
I am excited about starting a new life in another country, but it will be hard because i am very close with my sister in Banff, Alberta, and my new brother who is only 3 years old (who lives here). You will have to share some tips for surviving without family nearby. Yes i love donuts and everytime someone mentions them i want one. Kuso is out shopping for some now, for me in fact. LOL.

Yes Kary's website is www.karyodiatu.com

Take care.
Hugs and kisses to you.

:)
 
Training this week has been hard...I feel that lagging, dragging stuff in the bod...Thank God it is carb up time today....

I have yet to actually hire dp and w8, because I just can't make up my mind if I am ready to compete yet..

Leslie, the comp I am considering is Nov 9th as well, thought that was a nice coincidence. I am really excited about it, but I have had some failed attempts at my last 2 comps, moving, job changes ect, that just did'nt allow me to continue. The reason I would like to do this comp is because Oxygen mag and Rob sims I believe is going to be at this comp...I have a girlfriend who won last year and is now a bikini model featured in musclemag. just the exposure is great, and you can earn cash!

J'bo, I remember seeing Kary before, actually saw the book her and her husband wrote long ago in oxygen I believe.

I guess the only advice I can give is that you have to be best friends, and have alot of the same interests...When you are alone with your honey, to really make some tight bonds it is not too wise to go completly in the opposite direction of each other...Truly, I would rather spend time with my sweety than any other female friend. I think that if you look at how we feel about our friends(like we choose to do things and make time for them) we should do the same for our SOs. He ALWAYS will come first before anyone else. That is our agreement...Now, many things like the military, by law, will take him away from me no matter what, but by knowing how we each are there for each other(not wrapped up with tons of other people, whom will move on as well...The military is harsh as you never keep the friends around permantly, we know that each is number 1...

I am not saying that other people can't be a part of your life, but how many times do we complain to our friends about our sos, but sometimes don't even take the time to really address what is going on between our sos, just take the easy way out and avoid stuff, and complain to others...I am just as guilty, but realize that is not how stuff gets done. Openness even if it is hard, is mandatory..

I will more than likly post my diet in a bit...

danilee
 
Good Morning Danilee. You had better post your meals;).
It is an interesting coincidence about your possibel contest date of 11/09/02. Craig777 also has a show that day. What kind of contest is it. i know you don't believe in figure- so are you doing BB or fitness?

I am defiantely going to be the biggest "amateur" if I am there on the 9th-but I need to gather some EXPERIENCE!

As far as your man being number one. I agree 100%. In reality, I have learned friends will come and go quickly and sometimes do not have your best interests at heart. Your true love however should be there for you now matter what. It is important not to take advantage of that....Tak ecare Danilee. Keep the posts coming;)
 
Leslie, on the contrary this is a figure contest.....BB for women out here in Hawii is really far and few in between and the women BBs out here are THE BIG GIRLS...The next BB show out here is in Dec I think, not sure, but there is NO WAY I could compete against those women, were are talking hearty National level women...This particular show is really geared for fitness modeling, and being bodybuilder ripped will not win it...I guess I gave the impression that I don't believe in figure, and there are many questions I have to ask myself before I set to do this...Being pretty is important to win this show, usually(well in the history of this show no one) has won without implants.
OH, I Just rmembered there is only 1 natural show here, and it is in August...As of right now I am natty, in the process of deciding which way I want to go...I ask myself,
Do I want to be judged on my body being sexy, curvy, and how big my boobs are compared to my waist? It is tough for me, because I always feel judged on these things(and hell, MOST WOMEN ARE) So that is why I am agaisnt it...I am for it, in this instance since there is no routine, I have not used, and I feel I can be somewhat nonattached to this contest...Judgeing is so irregular, that as somone posted in a thread of yours, you can't really go to win. Just to do your best...Sometimes though bodybuilding can be political too, but usually the biggest, leanest, most symmetrical bod wins.

You are going to do great, and that is not lip service...You have the look and shape, with a great smile and great hair:thumb:
Just by the looks of you now, you are not far out at all. I can't wait to see you kick butt...
danilee
PS, When I say Hearty I mean juiced..I have been a part of the bb community out here long enough to know that you simply CANNOT compte(sorry to rain on anyones parade) at a national level show without using. OK, maybe one person will claim it, but not likely...So, if I wanted to take acutal BODYBUILDING anyfurther than the ONE natural contest they have out here I need to be ready to do what needs to be done...So, then I am left with figure...When I get back to the states I may try the Galaxy type comps...Don't get me wrong, w8 is Goregeous, so is CLP gold, and there was another natty women named Roadrunner on MM.com ALL NATTY...They don't wiegh 150 at 5 percent bodyfat though...I have to either weight to get to the states to compete in the tested shows, or natural federations..They don't have any here..Bad enough that I JUST FOUND OUT about my show last week...The only give you 3 months notice...RANT OVER>>>SORRY
:) :) :)
 
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Whew ... great reading! Just thought i would drop in and say hello.

Like all the others have said, you're very well spoken. I'd love to hear about how the meeting between your fiance's mother and you goes. I wrote a while back about my wife's g/f. She is a dancer and recently, her parents found out she dances and they have turned their backs on her. She has cancer so dancing is an excellent venue for her to make good money and go to her many doctor's appts throughout the week. Hope things work out for you. If/when we visit Hawaii, we'll be sure to look you up. ;)

take care and keep up the good work! :thumb:
 
Thanks NT,

Sorry if this is an inappropiate question, but are you and your wife swingers? It seems like you have some rules regarding your activites(although I have not read all of your past posts I am sure)

I find the lifestyle interesting to say the least...I also am reading up on Polymory,(many loves) which is where you actually have loving realtionships with the sex...Most polys began with the ever popular swinging, and progressed from there...Anyways, sorry if I am way off here, but it seems you both have a great time, regardless if you fit the exact description of a swinger.

Also, if in fact it is something that interest you. There a many polymory, how would I say, tribes, or homes here...Actually in maui...These are the people that give the tantra workshops that I will be going to in the winter(even though me and SO are mono, anyone can partake in the lessons of spirtural love and sex) It sounds like maybe just your kind of getaway..and only a 20 min flight for me

Take Care
danilee
 
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danilee sweetie ... check you PM. :)
 
Hey Danilee
Just wondering where you've been. You haven't been posting your updates or writing pieces...:p ;)
 
Hi Danilee!

I have been following your journal, but haven't posted, yet. I have really enjoyed your journal. You sound like a woman who knows what she wants (except about competing LOL). Thanks for sharing with us. :D

Oh, congrats on the marriage. :thumb:
 
Leslie,

Still here, and reading your journal almost daily. You are doing great..:)

I have not been posting my stats and diet daily, simply because it does not change much. Like I said I am hiring DP and w8. w8 and I have discussed that I just should diet down and in the last 4 weeks if my body has responded well, then I will start a precomp.
I went today to go get a money order for my payment, and did'nt ya know it, the money order machine was broken...I hope that is not an omen:) Here is that on the fence thing again...

I am really just wanting to be healthy, but boy I wanna get on a stage soon...Club Femme Nu just is not cutting it anymore..lol.

I think I shared with everyone before, but it looks like a higher fat diet allows from some nice hormone production and regulation...I always leaned on that side, low carb higher fat, but so much conflicting information that it is hard to stick with it, without someone kicking you in the butt..I am glad that DP and W8 are here, and that they work the way they do. So, tonight I am going to make a special trip to get a money order so I can get this out and start my journey.

Still posting, still writing pieces...Still coming up with my orginal idea:thumb:

danilee
 
LOL, you are something else Danilee.

Team DPW8 really know their stuff. I have already noticed changes in my body just from over 1 week. Really!

Club Femme Nu, I assume thats where you work;) Catchy name.

Talk to you soon
Take care
Leslie
 
Danilee, I don't know why, but you just inspired me to write about my own "get on stage" conflict here.....maybe for perspective or something!

The ABCers have seen this on a post I had "Will DP compete!"


Like you, I want to "go to the show".....and while preparing others for the stage....I usually diet down with them twice a year, kind of just to see the extra cuts and veins...and know that I am "Show Worthy!" Last show I did this for..... Showdown who was there....and others from pictures I posted would tell you that I would have placed second or third in my class! (There is always some freak that come out of the woodwork at these contests)

Here's the point(s)! Unlike my collegues who have just started dieting for the November shows (and only look good 6 weeks out of the year), I maintain low BF year round....so even though I cut 33% of my BF in my mock cuts (7.5% down to 5%)....I always have a choice in the last few weeks to do it or not! We have had discussions here about "contest week"....the last week before a show. I (IMO) consider this to be the only "unhealthy" time in the whole cutting experience.....because of fluid manipulation mainly. The majority of the experience is gr8....you learn so much about your body and changing metabolism each time :D


So my advice to you Danilee....is to cut, cut hard... the Show as the goal (it takes a goal). At the very least you end up "leaner and more cut"....and there are many perks and compliments along the way for motivation. DPw8 will always be honest with you....if you "have it " and you "want it", we will take you all of the way!

For me, the gym is my stage...and I compete everyday!


DP
 
DP, that was very well written! "For me, the gym is my stage .. and I compete everyday" - I love that!


Danilee, how goes every little thing?
 
Hi, Dannilee. Just pop'in in to check out journal today.
 
Danilee,

You got married already?
I did not know i missed that much.
How did the meeting with the mom go?
 
Awesome post DP!

And I'll add...the decision to compete is a difficult one...even when you've made the commitment and diet down right to the final week....you're mind plays tricks on you, your body changes from hour to hour at that point, never mind day to day....I know i almost pulled out of my last comp at the very last second because i just wasn't sure if my body was ready....that's where DP was such a help to me....he gave me so much attention and worked so closely w/ me...I'd give him a new pic practically every day and he'd adjust my diet according to what I looked like....it was amazing...and not only that....in the final few weeks your so stressed, weak, and spaced out due to dieting...the whole process is really so consuming...that just having him keep me motivated and giving me some perspective on what my body was doing was really a big help....that's what a coach is for really...to make all the decisions and releive some of your worries and stress so you can concentrate on eating and training. And when you finally step on stage it makes it all worth it....all I thought about was 'thank god I had DP!' lol.
 
And thank god i had Team DPw8 for my last comp. I only decided to compete 3 weeks out and i had far to go. I was questioning wether or not to do the show or not right up until the day of the show. It is hard to keep motivated, but having w8 and dp made a huge difference. Have faith in yourself and team dpw8 will bring you there, i garantee it. They are the best. It paid off believing in them, cause i won my show, and came in much better than my last comp.
 
Hello Everyone, going to post training and diet today, although you can rest assured not much has changed in either department..No cheating, meals all clean, no extras...caloires only vary by about 200 each day, also trying to keep the carb up day within the same cal range as a normal day...Missed legs on sunday, just plain not enough sleep....
Training today
Hammies and shoulders

SLDL
15x 45lb
15x 65lb
10x 110lb
6 x 135lb

Leg curl
15x80lbs
5 x100lbs this was the leg machine that I don't really like, the seated leg curl....

Shoulders
Overhead dumbell press
15x50lbs
7 x70lbs

lat raise
12 x 15 pound dumbells
12 x 15 pound dbs

rear lat raise
15 x 12lb dbs
10 x 15lb dbs

Diet
meal 1
3 oz cooked 93%lean ground beef
1 yolk 6 whites
1 tsp olive oil spread

meal 2
2 scoop whey
1 tbs ess women flax


meal 3
6 oz tuna
1 tbs mayo
large salad

meal 4 and 5 same as 3 increase 1 meal at 1.5 tbs mayo.

meal 6
2 scoop whey
3 tbs heavy cream but 6 grams of fat per 2 tbs...I can only seem to find the stuff with 5 grams per tbs at certain store and certain times...I can stick with this brand as it is available at all store here in hawaii. also 6 BIG strawberries in this shake

Cals 2100 fat 101 carbs 38 Pro 254

Ok about the competition... and the competing. It is in imo pretty extreme no matter how you look at it. As w8 describe your mind gets so iffy and confused, you have to screw with you own head to get that cardio done. It is impossible (or near it) to live any sort of normal life while training and dieting for a show...I also feel selfish, and that I am not giving enough...It can be something as little as going to the mall...Screw up your diet for that day, ya get stuck in traffic ect ect./.. These little things can stress you out, and make others around edgy although supportive, they just can't understand. That is why this time around my SO is going to do this right along with me...That means that he will acutally CRAVE a certain food, and not be able to have it...He might feel weak but STILL do the cardio..He might feel like just eating stuff without weighing it, but he will...Then he HAS TO get his sleep in, or it all suffers...Now this time he plans on doing that(although, here it is, I have not even told him about this show) I plan to prepare for it without him even knowing until the last 6 weeks or so...I plan on doing the dieting and training for about 6 weeks and see where it all is before I even mention doing this show...Although I have already hired Dp and W8, he does not know...Reason being, I think if I just claim early nights, no nights out on the town(ok not many) a LIFESTYLE as opposed to just a "contest prep" time, than I won't feel so selfish...Am I horrible??? Believe me, he has trained with me through other prep, but he has never eaten with me through one...He calls me champ daily, and is a huge motivator...But when there is no contest prep, my ass gets big, I want this to be a lifestyle...I want it ALL to be a priority until I DEEM that it no longer is going to be...Sure, no need to contest diet, but lets be honest here. I like seeing my abs, and if I am going to train daily, I am going to have lifestyle that supports my training..>This was my plan all along....BOYS....hmmmm.
He really wants to see me do a show, it is very important to him..We shall see....
I am wondering about the suits I should wear if indeed I diet for this...I wonder if I should spend the 800 bucks for the 2 suits from CJ, or if there is something less costly but still almost as nice. As I said before Robert Kennedy and Rob sims from Oxygen mag will be in the audiance, and actually the show is called "get discovered" every winner ends up in the mags, and being promoted...Even the girls that don't place if you have a certain look, you are in...W8 does oxygen promote any shows out there like that in canada? That would be the perfect venue for you!!!

Also w8, your hubby seems like a very supportive man, and although you guys have one crazy realationship on these boards, you can tell what is at the heart of your marrige, you have a good thing going...:thumb:

Ok enough rambling
danilee
 
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Hey Lady - How goes it? Of course you'll want to check with DPw8 but I don't think you want to keep your carb up day calories the same as the non carb up days. The calorie boost is part of what keeps your metabolism humming.

When I first did the deplete and twice weekly carb up I would freak to see what the carb up meal did to the daily calories....but I've finally come to have total faith - damn it works!

I've been reading your journal and your compete/don't compete dilemna. Maybe you should try to put the decision aside for right now and just stick with the eating plan like you have been, train hard and then re-evaluate in a few weeks. It can be a lot of pressure to feel like you must decide. If you relax about the decision and stick with your plan - maybe the answer will come to you.

You're doing great whatever you decide!
 
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