well ladies - i'm not gone (and i'm not leaving) and i'm not eating bread
but things haven't been so good since tuesday afternoon. i've been sick - but not sick like virus/cold sick. i have ibd (i think). had issues as a baby according to my mom. it was bad during college years which is the 1 time i went to a doctor but didn't follow through with all the tests (not fun stuff plus i was sort of used to it since my stomach has always given me grief

) at the time i was told it was likely ibd.
i have good times and bad. flare ups that come and go. everyone who knows me knows the drill w/my stomach. i've pretty much eliminated food allergies b/c there's nothing that consistently triggers problems. typically though - the cleaner i eat, the fewer problems i have. it still happens, but less often.
not so this week. i've been having a bad time of it since tuesday. so bad that i didn't leave work 'til 9:30 tuesday not b/c i was working but b/c i couldn't be away from the bathroom long enough to "risk" driving home. gross i know - i'll spare any further details.
i haven't been to the gym even once. the only exercise i've done all freaking week was my morning HIIT on tuesday. no lifting at all and no cardio yesterday.
no diet cheats but a bunch of missed meals. feeling discouraged and probably going to have to face it and go to the doctor (which i HATE).

sometimes it settles down again for a time and i can ignore it. i really prefer that approach.
i think i'm going to stick to protein meals mostly today. super tired, lots of missed sleep and just kind of miserable.