Thank all of you. I have whole heartedly decided to not train any longer. I have a starting back date if everything goes well. I am looking at march30,2006. She says she thinks this can happen. She was also thrilled that I am gonan take a break. She did however say that I can keep taking my glutamine, and hmb. If i really want o watch my muscle. Plus I am looking at a diet I am making my self right now. which will be 300g protein, 350g carbs, 80g fat. good fats all the time, 10+ servings of veggies, and 6+ servings of fruit. Lean meats like steak. Lowering shakes to 1-2 a day unless I start getting too sick to keep down whole food. then i will drink more shakes. She also told me that I may not need the whole 6 weeks of radiation, maybe 4. depends on my body. Plus they are putting me on some goofy assed immune system booster, Two of them actuallu, one is a shot the other is a liquid, that i just tasted and is gross, like a mix of creatine ethyl ester, and mayo and mustard. nasty s a ll hell. But i iwll take it.
No giving up, no surrender, this is my life, and my dream. It will happen no matter what. I am glad I made this thread, my spirits are so high. I thank you all.