DeadBolt said:
I have a serious problem...if I can't control my eating disorder I may have to drop out of this competition. This past weekend was serious hell for me of just constant binge eating and making myself sick. I become discusted with myself and can't handle it anymore. The stress of everything going on is just driving me insane and I can't focus on anything anymore. All I can think about is eating then trying to throw it up. I can't throw it up anymore though. As a child I did this for years and it never worked but as I got into nutrition I learned how to beat it...nows its like the reverse!!!
I don't know what to do anymore!! Anyone out there that could help I would appreciate it....this isn't a way out its a cry for help. I don't like feeling like this and I don't want to end up in the hospital again!
Hey man, hang in there!!! I couldnt help but post, as this is just too odd...
I went thru the same damn thing last week...Ate like I was 330 lbs all over again for 4 outta 7 days!!! I was stressed outta my brains and this is how I reacted!!Then I freaked coz when I hopped on the scale, it didnt display my weight it said "ughhh, get the fuck off me"!
Bulking is the hardest thing Ive ever had to do, (I know ure doing the opposite!) because I have fewer restrictions and when I binged last week(bag o cookies, potato chips, candy bars, ice cream, name it...And I HATE sweets!

) I always told myself, it was fine, coz Im bulking! On top of that I started my M1T cycle and within about 72 hours, I was bloated like a whale (Im not shitting u when I say that the person I was seeing in the mirror didnt look anything like me!! I mean, I saw the fat slob that I used to be, its so psychological!). I felt like crap all week end, hitting myself in the head for not being perfect!!
Im back on the wagon since sunday and feeling better than ever, not only coz I dont wanna puke all the time, but also coz Im proud of myself for not letting this become "the end of me"...
URE A BADASS MOFO DB!!! Stay calm, regain composure and focus...Ure good at this!
