Deadbolt's Transformation!

[Luke9583]

My favorite quote-

"And this too, shall pass"

We're here buddy.

 

[DeadBolt]

Hey thanks every one! I really appreciate it...I don't know how I'm goin to deal with this but I know I've put on alot of weight...enough to make it impossible to reach where I was a week ago. I never wanted to take the roll of cutting for this very reason and I honestly regret doing it but whats done is done.

I think its just the stress with school and the comp and my other personal situations that I just can't handle anymore. I am going to just start taking it one day at a time and trying to fix things. Today was no better in fact today was horrible. One of those days I wish I never woke up to! Tomorrow will start my new day of my diet.

I WILL STAY FOCUSED these last few weeks. Unfortunatly I have to stop lifting b/c of my cuff...I think its the Supraspinatis. I screwed it up nice this time...went to do a pullup today and fell to the floor. Such pain in my left shoulder and now I can barely move it. No point to me stickin with this comp now but I'll kep my diet for now. Not sure whats going to happen...honestly I'm at the point I really dont care I am so stressed out!

 

[gwcaton]

Damn DB !

I hate to hear all that . Shit , when it rains it pours doesn't it . Hang in there buddy !

 

[CowPimp]

Damn DB !

I hate to hear all that . Shit , when it rains it pours doesn't it . Hang in there buddy !

So true. Then there are those times when you're so happy to be alive. Just take the good with the bad and roll with the flow that is life. Sometimes it's a bitch, but things will smooth out.

 

[DeadBolt]

Yea it really sux...I neglected my mind when it said take a break and I guess now I'm paying for it. I need a break for a while but with the comp I just pushed through figuring I could hang in a few more weeks until its over. I guess not.

I honestly am mad but I think its better then totaly screwing it up. Today I have mobility but its still killin me. I know its not a complete tear...maybe slightly or just a really bad strain or something. I iced it all last night on and off and tonight I will do the same after my cardio.

I weighted myself this morning...not happy but something to keep me motivated for these last few weeks now. I was about 164 last week...this week I'm at about 171-172. The binging really killed me so now I am just trying to get down to like 167 again befor comp time. Off to class I'll be around later I guess.

 

[Rocco32]

I bet alot of your gain is water weight. You don't put that much fat on that quick. Look alive Dead, it's a minor set-back. Be careful with your shoulder though.

 

[DeadBolt]

I bet alot of your gain is water weight. You don't put that much fat on that quick. Look alive Dead, it's a minor set-back. Be careful with your shoulder though.

I don't know how much is water or fat...we'll see how my weight levels out this week.

 

[DeadBolt]

Today was a new day...a good day. No cravings or desires to binge at all but then there havn't been any temptations.

I have stopped training b/c of my shoulder...could barely move it today. It still hurts alot and I will continue icing it again tonight. Tomorrow I am going to try and get to my sports medecine teacher tomorrow and see if he can do something for me.

Today I went to the gym and did some situps and 50 minutes cardio.

Diet:
M1: 5oz chicken, 1/2 cup oats
M2: 2 scoops whey, 1tbl flax oil
M3: broc & tomato salad w/ 1 packet of tuna.
**Cardio**
M4: 2 scoops whey, 1/2 cup oats
M5: 5oz chicken, large salad

 

[Rissole]

Dude.... Not likin what i'm reading..... bingin...?? If its a prob go and get proper help or at least talk to someone.....
Your w8 you put on probably was mostly water cause "carbs"-'o'-"hydrate" you.....
Stick with the cardio so not to agrevate the injury, use some glutamine and Bcaa's to help protect ur muscle.
Chin up boy and push through to the end, your not that far away. Just see what you can do to yourself Sorry i aint been around

 

[DeadBolt]

Dude.... Not likin what i'm reading..... bingin...?? If its a prob go and get proper help or at least talk to someone.....
Your w8 you put on probably was mostly water cause "carbs"-'o'-"hydrate" you.....
Stick with the cardio so not to agrevate the injury, use some glutamine and Bcaa's to help protect ur muscle.
Chin up boy and push through to the end, your not that far away. Just see what you can do to yourself Sorry i aint been around

You think I like what I'm typing either? I figured everone has seen me through the whole thing so i matters well keep you guys up to par.

Help does nothing...I've gone to doctors, hospitals, joe schmoes, non of them help. I thought I had it beat for a year or so now but I guess not. Just something I need to learn to live with.

Cardio I can do and plan on sticking with it. I am taking this week off from working out and we'll see what the trainer at school says tomorrow. Hopefully I can get in and lift soon but I doubt it for another week or so with this pain.

Little by little my stress has been going down, finally got my check from school, a new job is looking like it is going to fall through, and now I need to work ont he social life and I'll be set.

Off to ice my shoulder! Thanks for stoppin in Riss...just aint the same without ya here!

 

[Rissole]

You think I like what I'm typing either? I figured everone has seen me through the whole thing so i matters well keep you guys up to par.

Help does nothing...I've gone to doctors, hospitals, joe schmoes, non of them help. I thought I had it beat for a year or so now but I guess not. Just something I need to learn to live with.

Cardio I can do and plan on sticking with it. I am taking this week off from working out and we'll see what the trainer at school says tomorrow. Hopefully I can get in and lift soon but I doubt it for another week or so with this pain.

Little by little my stress has been going down, finally got my check from school, a new job is looking like it is going to fall through, and now I need to work ont he social life and I'll be set.

Off to ice my shoulder! Thanks for stoppin in Riss...just aint the same without ya here!

Of course you don't like typin it and we all respect your honesty!! I wasn't havin a dig at you.
Dude i feel for you big time but i don't think it's something you should have to live with, check out Archangles sig.... "I CAN do ALL THINGS... through Christ who strengthens me" you CAN overcome this completely. I don't mean to preach at or to you bro but i just know when all else fails God da Man He's done it for me plenty of times....
More bible.... "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you want and thank him for all he's done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard you hearts and minds...... "

 

[DeadBolt]

Of course you don't like typin it and we all respect your honesty!! I wasn't havin a dig at you.
Dude i feel for you big time but i don't think it's something you should have to live with, check out Archangles sig.... "I CAN do ALL THINGS... through Christ who strengthens me" you CAN overcome this completely. I don't mean to preach at or to you bro but i just know when all else fails God da Man He's done it for me plenty of times....
More bible.... "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you want and thank him for all he's done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard you hearts and minds...... "

Hey thanks bud...I appreciate the kind words. There is nothing I can do about my binging...its just a physcological thing the doctors said. They don't know why people do it and they don't know how to keep them from binging. I managed to get myself to stop purging afterwards....I just sit there and feel guilty about it. I'll beat it one day....I hope.

 

[gwcaton]

DB,

tried hypnosis ? I don't know anything about it but a local radio station had some people on and they hynotized them on air for things like stopping smoking and stuff and the report back once a week and they are doing good . Nobody back to smoking yet , 3 weeks later .

Just a thought .

 

[DeadBolt]

DB,

tried hypnosis ? I don't know anything about it but a local radio station had some people on and they hynotized them on air for things like stopping smoking and stuff and the report back once a week and they are doing good . Nobody back to smoking yet , 3 weeks later .

Just a thought .

Na never thought of that....

Was never a firm believe in things like that but hell who knows

 

[DeadBolt]

Not so good of news. I went to my doctor so i could get a referal to a hospital in order to get an mri. Took me 4 hours to get him to check me out to find out I have been dropped from my health insurance plan!!!!!!

My asshole father never gave them sufficient paperwork so now I can't get an mri and now I'm fucked! It hurts like hell and theres nothing I can fucking do!!!

So pretty much I sit her doing nothing. Just the movements alone on the eliptical or bike make my shoulder THROB!! It blows so bad....sometimes I question why I do this shit. Now I can't make any calls for the fire dept....I missed a massive working house fire over this bull shit. I sat in front of it watching the house burn down and my crew couldn't go b/c I was the only night crew guy! I let my guys down at the firehouse, I let myself down for doing this shit, such a damn waste!

This weekend will just be me trying to forget about the gym entirely...I don't want to think about anything related to weights or I'm just gonna flip out! I feel like I'm going through withdrawl...and I know it will be at least a month before I can even attempt anything.

 

[Burner02]

Hey DB-
Sorry to hear about what u are going thu, bro-
Kinda sucking for us, eh? WTF???
I know what I need t do to get beyond my problems...what do u need to do to get beyond yours?
You can only hear so many 'pep' talks....I do believe in 'all things happen for a reason'.
If u have t take time off from the gym, do it. get the shoulder better. Get your father to gte the paper work done and try it again...

 

[DeadBolt]

Hey DB-
Sorry to hear about what u are going thu, bro-
Kinda sucking for us, eh? WTF???
I know what I need t do to get beyond my problems...what do u need to do to get beyond yours?
You can only hear so many 'pep' talks....I do believe in 'all things happen for a reason'.
If u have t take time off from the gym, do it. get the shoulder better. Get your father to gte the paper work done and try it again...

I wish I knew what I needed to do. I was so happy I was doing really good with this comp then everything just happened at once and I lost control of it all. I lost everything I had been working so hard for in a matter of 4 days. Right now I have no desire to continue this competition what so ever...I feel I have exhausted all my energy up to this point and this past week just broke me. It left me no will power to do anything for myself. All my goals have just been diminished to...I hope I'll wake up today and go to class b/c I would be content with laying in bed all day depressed.

I guess all things happen for a reason...but wtf is the reasoning behind this? My life couldn't have gone to shit at a worse time in my life right now.

I have 3 weeks before this comp is here and I'm right back to where I started. I'll be lucky if I hit 170 before the due time. The doctor measured my weight yesterday and it said 184!!! Now it wasn't the normal time I take my weight...it was at the end of the day with several meals in me with all my clothes on but wtf 184??

**Opens window and throws all motivation out!!**

 

[Burner02]

Hey, I know u are feeling bad...but u are not starting from scratch.
Maybe your body was just telling you something...listen to it..adjust and move on.
Don't just give up. I'ev done that, and trust me, you don't wanna do it.
You've seen the movie, Heartbreak Ridge? What was Gunny's favorite motto: Improvise, Adapt, Overcome.
DB, I am weighing in at around 205..I should not be any more then 180, 175 prefereable, but I still go.
You hit a snag. Ok, deal with it and press on.
Y'all don't give me much slack, (which is good) so I won't give u any. That is why we are here..support, among things.

 

[Rocco32]

Hey, I know u are feeling bad...but u are not starting from scratch.
Maybe your body was just telling you something...listen to it..adjust and move on.
Don't just give up. I'ev done that, and trust me, you don't wanna do it.
You've seen the movie, Heartbreak Ridge? What was Gunny's favorite motto: Improvise, Adapt, Overcome.
DB, I am weighing in at around 205..I should not be any more then 180, 175 prefereable, but I still go.
You hit a snag. Ok, deal with it and press on.
Y'all don't give me much slack, (which is good) so I won't give u any. That is why we are here..support, among things.

100%

 

[DeadBolt]

Come visit!!

MoFo Madness

 

[Sapphire]

Of course you don't like typin it and we all respect your honesty!! I wasn't havin a dig at you.
Dude i feel for you big time but i don't think it's something you should have to live with, check out Archangles sig.... "I CAN do ALL THINGS... through Christ who strengthens me" you CAN overcome this completely. I don't mean to preach at or to you bro but i just know when all else fails God da Man He's done it for me plenty of times....
More bible.... "Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you want and thank him for all he's done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard you hearts and minds...... "

Couldn't have said it better Ris!! Trust in God, he will show you the way!! Don't give up DB!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[PreMier]

I was reading your new journal, and thought I would see what all the ruckus was about.. so I read the last few pages here.

I know it means nothing, but in the last 8 months, I have spent 6 of those out of the gym. I just want you to know, that I know how you feel.. but its not over. You just need to prioratize things in your life. If the gym isnt at the top of the list, then dont do it. Its not going to be the end of the world. Nothing sucks more than having to backtrack to get to where you were, except maybe an injury that will effect you for the rest of your life.. Be careful bro, and take some time if you need it.

 

[DeadBolt]

I was reading your new journal, and thought I would see what all the ruckus was about.. so I read the last few pages here.

I know it means nothing, but in the last 8 months, I have spent 6 of those out of the gym. I just want you to know, that I know how you feel.. but its not over. You just need to prioratize things in your life. If the gym isnt at the top of the list, then dont do it. Its not going to be the end of the world. Nothing sucks more than having to backtrack to get to where you were, except maybe an injury that will effect you for the rest of your life.. Be careful bro, and take some time if you need it.

Thanks Jake! I think I'm finally getting things in order now. Started my own form of rehab b/c I can't get an mri for another week or so. I have just been doing cardio, abs, calves, and hyper ext's all week and have made like a new routine up. I think everything will work out...I just wont be lifting for a while now.

 

[King Silverback]

Hey Brother, just got caught up on your journal. I too used to have a problem with Binge eating. I wasn't happy unless I was constantly eating crap, and then I was miserable afterwards. Family couldn't help, meds just made me irritable or worse. I had just about given up. Then I prayed (not bible thumping) That's why my sig says what it does. I asked GOD to please help me, and I found it easier and easier as each day passed. Trust me Brother, thru Christ you CAN do anything. Ask HIM, he will give you all the strength you need. One of my favorite sayings is simple........ If the good Lord brings you to it, HE'LL get you through it!!! Stay strong Brother, let me know if I can do anything.

Take care

 

[DeadBolt]

OK I'm back to the journal life!!

Well its time to get back to the diet and w/o life.

Stats:
Ht-5'6"
Wt-182lbs
Bf-??

New Diet: Carb Cycling
Monday-High
4 carb 2 non--4 small pieces of fruit with carb meals
(3 cups brown rice or 6 cups oatmeal) daily servings
(.75 cup brown rice or 2 cup oatmeal) single servings

Tuesday-No
6 non

Wednesday-Low
3 carb 3 non--3 small pieces of fruit with carb meals
(.4 cup brown rice or 3/4 cup oatmeal) single servings

Thursday-No
6 non

Friday-High
4 carb 2 non--4 small pieces of fruit with carb meals
(3 cups brown rice or 6 cups oatmeal) daily servings
(.75 cup brown rice or 2 cup oatmeal) single servings

Saturday-Low
3 carb 3 non--3 small pieces of fruit with carb meals
(1/4 cup brown rice or 3/4 cup oatmeal) single servings

Sunday-No
6 non

I'll be supping with whey for one meal while I'm in class with olive oil and 5 fish oil caps in one meal.



New Workout Routine:
Monday-Legs
Tuesday-Abs, Low Back, Calves
Wednesday-Cardio
Thursday-Cardio
Friday-Legs
Saturday-Abs, Low Back, Calves
Sunday-Rest


I no longer am doing rehab until I get my MRI...it causes to much pain.

 

[gwcaton]

Hey DB,

Glad to see you are back at it Work around that injury, keep active and , like me , you will get to work that injured muscle soon. I am so wanting to do squats ! I was making such good progress then boom ! But I know you know all about that stuff. Good luck man

 

[DeadBolt]

Hey DB,

Glad to see you are back at it Work around that injury, keep active and , like me , you will get to work that injured muscle soon. I am so wanting to do squats ! I was making such good progress then boom ! But I know you know all about that stuff. Good luck man

Hey thanks GW!

Yea I would love to go in and start doing all the good stuff but I don't want to screw anything up. I am gonna wait for my mri and then give it some extra rest and start fresh.

I would kill to do squats...thats my favorite exercise for legs but I can't do em. Im stuck with presses and ext's. Hey they say presses are what make the legs grow right? I guess I'll just try to make my quads and hammies as strong and large as possible.

 

[Burner02]

hola, mi amigo!

 

[DeadBolt]

hola, mi amigo!

Heya bro hows it hangin?

 

[DeadBolt]

Today was a standard diet low carb (3 carbs, 3 non) and 15 minutes HIIT cardio.