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hello IML family, 17 days sober and going strong
It has been awhile since I have been in here. Work has been insane. Not a bad thing, but there isn't enough hours in a day.
I have not been sober for 17 full days and night since December of '05. That is sadly insane. I am feeling amazing. I have had a craving or two, but nothing to bad. I just pop my pills when that happens. It is amazing how much they work. I have the most amazing support team, Rob, my friends, family and all you guys. Thanks for all the positive encouragement.
With my new workout program in place, being sober this many days in years, my dear husband bought me a treadmill for my morning cardio. We have an elliptical, but if I MUST do cardio, I would rather use a treadmill. He really is a wonderful guy, most days :D Now that I don't drink, it is amazing the way food tastes. It is nice to actually eat in the evenings. Real food, not just bars and junk food.
I really don't have much to report. I feel great, I am looking so much better. It's the little things that count.
Sorry this is such a boring post, but I am beat. It has been on hell of a week. If I could sleep all day tomorrow, I would, but I have that morning cardio to do, :lol:
:Heart: you guys. Sweet dreams!
 
Stay strong Gena!!!! Doing great.
 
Wow! So I'm a little late to this, not sure how I missed it with as much as I'm on the forums. Lol.

Anyways, Gena, your doing an amazing job! 17 days is no joke when you go from trashed every day to instant sobriety. It takes a lot of courage and internal strength to put something like this out in the open and that just goes to show how dedicated you are and how bad you want this. I have no doubts at all that you can overcome any cravings or urges that creep up.

On a side note, you have inspired me. I am not an alcoholic nor do I have any addictions, but I do have an issue that I seriously need to deal with. You know, it's funny how so many people close to you can point something out and you just blow it off, but a total stranger over the internet who pours her heart and soul out about something this serious can snap you in to focus. Gena, thank you!:)

I will be following this journal closely! If you couldn't tell, we are all here for you! There's nothing but love and support in this thread! Stay strong!

TG
 
An idle mind is a dangerous thing so being very busy with work is a good thing. Kill that treadmill and good luck, stay strong!! :winkfinger:


:coffee:
 
Congrats on how far you've gotten in such a short time on your own. Keep it up your doing great.
 
Well it's day 21

I fell off the wagon today. Go me!:alcoholic: I feel like a failure, but it is what it is. Tomorrow is a new day.
 
^ Powerful!

Keep up the fight Gena.. Shit happens, it's how we bounce back after being knocked down. Get up and keep fighting!!!
 
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Get back on the wagon Gena!!
 
Well it looks like ADMIN edited the majority of my post. I guess only one's imperfections are allowed here. Funny!
Thank you for the support and not beating me up. I got fired from my job yesterday and handled it very poorly. I am not going to let one bad night change my path. Today is a new day.
:heart:
 
Gena Marie said:
Well it looks like ADMIN edited the majority of my post. I guess only one's imperfections are allowed here. Funny!
Thank you for the support and not beating me up. I got fired from my job yesterday and handled it very poorly. I am not going to let one bad night change my path. Today is a new day.
:heart:
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trust me I did u a favor.
 
Gena, the fact that you now admit to having a problem makes it easier to get back up on the wagon. So you made 21 days and fell off the wagon, now you know what you have to do this time to get further. Its a battle girl and not an easy one. You have a lot of support in the real world and the cyber world, use them big shoulders to lean on. We all want to see you do well and support your efforts, Good Luck, be strong and chill out on the people in your real life, they are only trying to help.
 
Gena your an amazing lady and have strong backing here from all of us and most importantly your family. I too had a real bad drinking problem in 2007 where I was drinking out of control. Lost my wife and son for 4mths and through the grace of God and a loving wife and son got my real life back. There will be many up and down days, maybe some stumbling here and there, but why and what you are doing this for will always take you pass any mistakes. My prayers go out to you and your family and know you can do this as we are all trying to be better people and heroes to the ones that love us so much!!!
 
Keep going you got this.
 
Gena, I know I'm new around here, but look how many people care about and love you. So many people have such wonderful and sweet things to say about you, and you have been nothing but a doll to me. We are all here to help you in support of you in any way we can!
 
Gena, sometimes what others do to help us may not be realized how helpful it is until the fog is lifted. Now I really dont know what was editted but like you said its a new day and tackle it better than the day before! We all are here to support you in any way possible.
 
each new day, is a new opportunity for "a do over" :winkfinger:
 
Day 5 and counting each day for strength and sobriety. Thank you all for all the love.
Things are going a ton better. I let life get the best of me. Why, I will never know. I am not beating myself up. I am human. The night did turn out pretty shitty. Thank goodness Rob saved my ass. I was either going to detox or the physic ward. YUP, that bad. Of course I don't remember what I did up until the police arrived, but once they were here, half my brain sobered up. Too much beer and vodka on an empty stomach. Sorry PJ, broke diet that day. I did do my cardio though. Rob was a doll and had his mom come and take me to her place. Thank you baby. His mom is a gem. She truly is amazing.
My body is starting to change, so that is another motivator for me. I have lost over 5 lbs in 2 weeks. I have maybe 10 to go, I will just have to see the fat to muscle ratio as I continue on. Here are a couple of before and after pics as of this point.
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:heart: My on line family. You guys are the best :kissu:
 
i dont know what triggered the failures but i know that youve got this

you are a woman...and women have the real power...the true strength


you ladies are gods gift to us...the one thing that truly makes the world go round for us

the gas in the fuel tank


be the lioness you really are...dont fail again



corny? i dont care...my thoughts
 
:thumb:
 
KILLEROFSAINTS said:
i dont know what triggered the failures but i know that youve got this

you are a woman...and women have the real power...the true strength


you ladies are gods gift to us...the one thing that truly makes the world go round for us

the gas in the fuel tank


be the lioness you really are...dont fail again



corny? i dont care...my thoughts
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Definitely have to say I agree with what KOS said here.

Let's go Gena, you got this!
 
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