"She's a real Goal-Getter, that one..."

[GoalGetter]

Well, good morning Ivy....


So, that's what we look like...
Normal, everyday crazy-ass family...

Bullshit! You are all a bunch of psychos! Especially the little one! hahahaah! just kidding. It was great to meet you and your family. You are just as I pictured you all to be-- super down to earth, buena gente. And the children are adorable.

It's too bad that we couldn't be in the beach longer. Aly loves the beach and I am sure I would have gotten in the water. I don't much care for it not being hot or with waves. I'm Ok either way....
Anyway, just think of this, I used to be much fatter....Isn't that scary?

Dude you're not as bad as you describe yourself to be on here. I was expecting tremenda montaña. You will reach your goal in no time. Seriously.

Well, actually, it could have been scarier, I could have taken off my t-shirt

Yeah, that would have been scary. Thanks for holding back on that!

You see? I told you I would look you straight in the eyes and not somewhere else.....LOL

Hahaha i forgot we'd had that conversation!

Either way, it was really cool meeting you and hope to see you again next time out....

Hugs...

Just let me know any time you go out there and want to hang out. I'll come better prepared with like a towel and stuff. haha!

 

[Sapphire]

 

[GoalGetter]

Hi Cyndi... Good morning! Sorry (to you and everyone else I'm "neglecting" this morning) that I'm not being very social... Got here and there's a ton of work to do. Everything is due this week for like five different clients.

 

[MaxMirkin]

Morning.

 

[GoalGetter]

Morning.

Do I know you?

 

[MaxMirkin]

Do I know you?

I'm just a friendly stalker, baby.

 

[GoalGetter]

I'm just a friendly stalker, baby.

OH ok, so long as you're the friendly kind, everything's fine. It's the other kind that I have a problem with.

Carry on, then.

 

[GoalGetter]

still miserable.

I am still beating myself up about the god-damned Tofutti-and-Cool-Whip incident.

I know that I don't LOOK any different, but in my head, I have ballooned overnight to the fatty I used to be.

At this point, I'm convinced I need professional help.

Why can't I just be superhuman and get on with it? ARRRGHHHH!

 

[Jill]

DONT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The extra cals were probably good for your met.

 

[GoalGetter]

DONT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The extra cals were probably good for your met.

They probably were, but it's not the calories, it's that I was mentally WEAK, and the psychological consequences are consuming me today -- that's what bothers me.

I've been in a pissy mood at work all day. Snapping, being anti-social, getting easily irritated, all because i'm mad at MYSELF.

 

[Jill]

I know what you mean about the mental thing. I think it might actually be worse than the 'physical' felling.I bought stuff yesterday to get rid of the bloat

 

[MaxMirkin]

I've been in a pissy mood at work all day. Snapping, being anti-social, getting easily irritated, all because i'm mad at MYSELF.

Did any one actually notice the difference?

 

[GoalGetter]

I know what you mean about the mental thing. I think it might actually be worse than the 'physical' felling.I bought stuff yesterday to get rid of the bloat

Oh man... i read about that. I feel your "pain"

Any better?

 

[klmclean]

Can't change the past, just look to future! You're doing so well, give yourself a break

 

[fantasma62]

I am still beating myself up about the god-damned Tofutti-and-Cool-Whip incident.

I know that I don't LOOK any different, but in my head, I have ballooned overnight to the fatty I used to be.

At this point, I'm convinced I need professional help.

Why can't I just be superhuman and get on with it? ARRRGHHHH!

My goodness kid, I want you to have a look at both your pictures side by side. The before and the after. Look at them carefully because your mirror is a liar. You have the "Tony" mentality. I call it that because it's exactly that. What happened when you met me over the weekend? Was I scary fat? Well, I feel like I am because of what I have been before, you see? You feel like you are now because of what you used to be. Nena, I saw you saturday. You would need to spend a couple of years eating that Tofutti crap to get big. You are truly a gorgeous young lady, but your eyes and mind betray you, don't let them. They are your worse enemies unless you train them. Have a look at both photos together and you'll see what I mean....
Anyway, I'll be back..........WAIT A SECOND, cool whip? Could you please stop giving Rock, Max and the rest of us mental problems?
.....And where the hell are the photos???????

 

[GoalGetter]

Workout and Food - October 4

First of all...

klmclean, Tony:

Thanks you guys... I'm just... freaking out over stupid crap, I guess. It's so damn hard sometimes to be reasonable, and logical, and SANE, and still do this... grrrr!

I'm better now. Had a good workout. Starting Week 11 tomorrow. Rounding third and headed for home, as they say...

These next two weeks I'm going to kick ass, I'm going to walk the straight line from here to October 19, even if I have to dope myself to go to sleep so I don't think about eating something I'm not supposed to hahahahah!

Oh and as for the cool whip... hee hee... subliminal messages RUUUULLLE!

On to the report...

Workout

Legs/Shoulders - Super Giant Sets (no new PB's today, but still a great workout)

Squats (4 x 15 x 95lb)
SLDL (4 x 15 x 50lb)
Seated Leg Curls (1 x 15 x 70lb, 3 x 15 x 80lb)
Dumbell Shoulder Press (4 x 15 x 20lb)
Lateral Side Raises (4 x 12 x 12.5lb)
Front Raises (4 x 12 x 12.5lb)

Abs

Decline Bench Crunches (2 x 30)
Hanging Knee Raises (2 x 15)

Cardio

Elliptical Machine, 30 minutes, not really HIIT, but intervals nonetheless

Food

Breakfast

1/2 cup oatmeal
1 protein shake
2 caps udo's choice

Mid-Morning

3 oz tilapia
2.25 oz. black beans

Lunch

3 oz. broiled chicken breast
1.5 cups lettuce/spinach/red onion salad
1 tbsp pesto dressing with balsamic vinegar

Mid-Afternoon

3 oz. tilapia
1 cup broccoli

Pre workout

Myoplex shake

Dinner

3 oz. broiled chicken breast
1 cup broccoli
1/4 cup red onions

Total Calories: 1096

 

[GoalGetter]

Tony what photos are you talking about? Photos of me gorging myself on fat free cool whip? Or some other photos? Did i promise to post something and now forgot?

 

[fantasma62]

Tony what photos are you talking about? Photos of me gorging myself on fat free cool whip? Or some other photos? Did i promise to post something and now forgot?

I was just joking around....you know, cool whip?...Never mind....

 

[GoalGetter]

I was just joking around....you know, cool whip?...Never mind....

hahhahahaha that's what i thought. just chekcing. i'm a little slooooowwww today.

 

[GoalGetter]

And with this cup of broccoli...

... we start Week 11 of my little 12 week program. These will be the strictest two weeks, with regards to diet, and after this weekend, I'm more determined than ever to stick with this and not screw up once.

Today's breakfast was eggbeaters with tomato and onion, and a cup of broccoli.

And so it begins.

 

[Velvet]

Brocolli for breakfast..geez girl, now that's dedication! ew ew ew..couldn't do it..hee hee

How are things today?

 

[GoalGetter]

The truth is...

OK you know what? Fuck this. I have to come clean about something else, and whatever you guys think/say, well... whatever.

There is a reason I'm so "obsessed" with this whole thing.

I entered the Body for Life challenge on July 27, when I started training with this guy, as a way to stay motivated because I wanted so badly to make a change in my life. That is what I'm training for, and that's why I'm flipping out about every little time I screw up something, as minor as it is. There are $25,000 on the line.

I didn't want to say anything at first because in case I quit, I didn't want a bunch of people saying, "I knew you wouldn't last, blah blah blah..." There are always people like that. I'm related to some of them. But now I know that I will last. I have come this far and have no intention of quitting. It's not even an option unless I meet and swift and unexpected death before October 19.

The other reason I didn't want to say anything is because I'm doing this for me, and felt it was more of a private thing, and didn't want anyone positively or negatively affecting my mental state with regards to the program. I wanted whatever "oomph" I have for it to come from me. On my own. After all, that is one of the biggest elements of the challenge, changing the way you think, developing a "can do", winner attitude. Right? Right.

So I realized, you know what? I'm being ridiculous. This is probably the single biggest thing I've done for myself in a long time. Why shouldn't I share the experience?

I've talked to some of you individually and mentioned that I'm doing this, so I figure, I might as well just be open about it because it was easier to explain the reason I'm so focused and hard on myself. Especially in these last two weeks. I didn't want people thinking I have an eating disorder. Some folks have PMd me suggesting that I might. That's not it at all. Occasionally I freak out (like I did this weekend about the tofutti incident), but I haven't lost touch with reality. I know I'm in control. I know that one day of not-entirely-clean food will not make me fat over night. I know. It's just that I'm a farking drama queen and freak out over stuff.

I'm in this to win, though it didn't start out that way. In my head, I already won, believe me. I achieved more than I thought I was capable of and that's spilled over into other things in my life. That's bigger than $25K. But hey, who CAN'T use an extra $25K in their life!

So yeah. Now you know. I'm a BFLer. Welcome to my madness.

 

[GoalGetter]

Brocolli for breakfast..geez girl, now that's dedication! ew ew ew..couldn't do it..hee hee

How are things today?

Yep yep! Dedication, indeed. Thanks!

Today? I woke up feeling DIFFERENT. SOLID. I'm ON. hee hee!

 

[Jill]

Doesnt bfl promote a cheat/free day anywase

 

[Velvet]

That's AWESOME GG! Way to go! My nieghbour did that program two years ago and go into the semi finals! He looked awesome..and so do you! And ya, what Jilly said...sunday is cheat day isn't it?

 

[GoalGetter]

Doesnt bfl promote a cheat/free day anywase

Yeah, but I'm doing it hardcore. I've had "cheat" meals here and there, instead... and by cheat meals i mean something still clean usually but more o of it, or just slightly off the list.

I modified it. It's allowed.

 

[GoalGetter]

That's AWESOME GG! Way to go! My nieghbour did that program two years ago and go into the semi finals! He looked awesome..and so do you! And ya, what Jilly said...sunday is cheat day isn't it?

Hahahaha and that's why my cals are up on Sundays, usually not as much as this Sunday, when (and I confess with shame) I ate all 12 tofuttis in the box. yes. I did. All 12.

I treat myself to some kind of fat free or low fat or low-cal sweet, like tasti d'lite, or tofutti... but I over did it this time. Sundays are my day to have one cheat. Not a whole day of cheating. This is the day i'll go out to dinner with my parents and let a restaurnat cook my chicken for me instead. I'll have a little bit of the not-so-healthy dressing on my salad. Oh my god. Next Cafe on lincoln road has this awesome Caprese salad. I don't eat the whole thing, because it's enough for three people, but it's a good and healthy cheat.

yes. I, Ivy, consider a caprese salad a treat. imagine that. Miss Cheetos and wine.

 

[GoalGetter]

That's AWESOME GG! Way to go! My nieghbour did that program two years ago and go into the semi finals! He looked awesome..and so do you! And ya, what Jilly said...sunday is cheat day isn't it?

Hey vel... about your neighbor... Is he still in shape?

I noticed a lot of people who have done it, they revert. I can't imagine going back to my old ways. The thought alone turns my stomach. But i'm wondering how many people fall back into old habits.

Some of the folks at my gym have done it and if you look at them now, you'd never guess it.

 

[GoalGetter]

Weird...

I thought I would most certainly feel like I'm starving, without my carbs... but strangely enough, I almost forgot to eat the last two meals. I'm not even hungry. I'm not even craving a piece of GUM.

WTF?

 

[Velvet]

I thought I would most certainly feel like I'm starving, without my carbs... but strangely enough, I almost forgot to eat the last two meals. I'm not even hungry. I'm not even craving a piece of GUM.

WTF?

shhhh don't question it..just go with it Some folks do better with lower carbs than others!