Here is my weekend update- BEWARE-- LOTS OF WHINING!
I have worked out every single day since last Monday- Jan. 26th--which is a first for me-- I am use to working out 4 days a week--and by far not this intense!!!
Another thing- Still haven't gotten my Balleys 3 month memberships in the mail- very worried about that! However, I did print out a free 2 week pass to Balleys-- So I was able to go there over the weekend.
Also-- I am having a super super hard time with my Stomach. I have a very very weak tummy to begin with..and now it seems even more F*cked up.
I'm really getting irritated with it--and I'm giving this hole diet one more week-- and I'm switching to something else that my body can handle. Here Too much Info--but a need to know- I have had Diearrerha (sp?) every single day since last tuesday!!! My bootie hurts like hell.. Not Fun! Every morning I feel extremly nautious--and my tummy hurts then too--feel like I'm going to throw up every morning. SUCKS! I feel horrible & extremly weak!!!!
Also- Every freaken muscle part on my body hurts-- like hell- (which I can understand this- I have been going everyday for way over an hour) each day something new hurts, along with what was hurting the day before! HOWEVER, The worst thing ever to hurt-that I can not put up with at all--and do not like feeling this pain- is having my chest muscles hurt. For one, that my implants feel very weird, and too wear I did not want Matt to touch them at all for like 3 days-- during sex.. it was god alful pain if I was on the bottom-- my chest was very very very much in pain-- DO NOT LIKE AT ALL
I can definaltey handle my legs, abs, arms hurting-- not a problem--although I know Matts getting sick of me saying "ouch that hurts or ouch that hurts every night during sex" Its something new.
I do however HOPE that this is only because I'm at the begginning--- but if my chest is going to hurt for the next 15 weeks--lordy I don't know-- but I know I will cry!
I'm really really thinking that this entire figure comp is SOOO not for me-- I HATE That I'm thinking this--but seriously I don't think my heart is in it--like it is for other people--and maybe I should stick to modeling. Also--ALLLLL I'm thinking about is wanting to get pregnant!!
And Matt and I talked about it to on saturday night-- How come the first god damn time hes talking to me about this and being positive and SMILING! I'm doing something else and have to wait until May. However, I am getting off my birth control pills in April--I know it will take awhile for me to get preggo. But You guys to see Matts face - Him SMILE at me when I said I want to get off the pill Soon-- He said this "I figured you were already not taking them" Total shocker
I'm not giving up on the fitness comp yet--I'm still pushing myself hard-however its very hard when nobody in my family and only one friend is behind me. My workout friend yesterday told me theres absolutely NO WAY I will get my body looking like those girls at comps in 15 weeks. I agree with her-- How in the world am I going to transform my legs, but, back, into looking stage worthy??? How?
I'm sorry for all the whining!! I just had to let my journal know what I was thinking all weekend.
On a positive note: This was the first weekend in my life where I ate perfect, no cheating at all!!!!!!!!! Followed my diet the way I was told!
And worked out!
Yeah! (which by the way was very hard yesterday when on our coffee table we had a spread of chips and dip, etc... I didn't touch
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Just jokin'!!! 
I really doubt I am. I know my stomach is very weak to begin with. (as in I cannot eat before getting into a car, etc... can't eat bfast till I get to work, etc.. can't eat certain foods--make me hurt)
