I've been off cycle for about a year now, I found out I had a small pituitary tumor so I'm not sure if I'll ever be cycling again even though I'd to in a way. I'm 26 and I still lift to stay in shape however I'm not as addicted as I was when I was using the gear. I also have a serious girlfriend and see that going somewhere. Thing is I find I'm not as happy anymore and I'm even on some antidepressants as I became depressed. I wanted to blame my relationship, but there is nothing wrong with it and I have the perfect girl. I've decided it's bc I'm not so happy with myself. I figure if I could find a hobby I was passionate about it would help things or maybe I just need to really strive to grow naturally from now. I didn't notice how much of a hobby using gear became to me, I ran about 7 cycles. Now that I'm not doing that anymore it's hard to adjust. I also have a very boring but good job that keeps me sitting around the computer bored for hours so I seem to just dwell on things. Does anyone have any ideas?